Tuesday, May 23, 2017
I've gotten a number of tarot and oracle apps for my phone, since it's a fun 'fidget' thing to use for a quick reading, or if I don't happen to have a physical deck on me at the time. One thing I like about tarot and oracle apps is that it is easy to get 'repeat' cards and messages, without having to shuffle cards back into the deck. And although I love these apps and there are so many different and beautiful styles available, sometimes a simple app, such as this Classic 1910 Tarot App, is just perfect.
This reading that you see here is a prime example of this repeat card phenomenon. The reading is about my daughter and her school experience, and I was gratified to see her significator card come up as the first card (Page of Wands) and then again later in the reading. The Strength card also featured twice. And I felt confident that the reading was addressing my question because my daughter's card was in the reading (twice) and the second card is the Page of Pentacles, a card I associate with schooling.
Anyway, I just thought I would share this with you all, as I'm sure many other people have had this repeat card experience with apps.
Monday, April 17, 2017
I received this card from the Shadowscapes Tarot a week or two ago. I'm just now getting around to posting it. This is a very stylized filter, but I liked the colors and shapes in it, even though you probably can't tell what it is unless you're familiar with the deck.
It's been a rough past week with my grandma dying and other things, but I find myself trying to embody the energy of the Fool card. Trusting, opening, spreading out and moving forward...not doing what is often the instinct when something stressful happens...which is to contract.
I like this quote about the Fool from SpiritualGuidanceTarot.com:
At this time; you benefit by pouring all your energy into the task at hand. If you get too caught up in wonder/worry over the future or spend too much time looking back at the past, you stop moving.
You can only discover how much you are capable of if you are willing to make the most of the circumstances you find yourself in presently and learn from them as you go. This is a card of embracing fresh starts and new beginnings and that happens by living fully, wholly in the present.
I know that I get in damage control mode when I feel stressed, but once I can step back from that, given time and self-care, I am more able to put things in perspective and not feel so battered by the sometimes harsh energies of life.
Wednesday, April 12, 2017
A month or so ago I purchased the After Tarot, a cheeky deck based on the traditional Rider-Waite-Smith, but with one very intriguing change: it's what happens a moment after the scene in the card. What a fun idea! In any case, I do love this deck, and it does add a different dimension to readings. It feels forward-thinking in a way. So...
A week or so ago I pulled this trio of cards regarding my path/career focus (hint: there isn't much of one right now, unless you count caretaking and mothering--which I actually do) but when I was pulling these cards my thoughts were more about my creative focus and not about the hard and sometimes boring work of cooking, cleaning and caretaking. In any case, I thought this was a funny and candid response from the deck.
My feelings about work and career are a bit prickly...I don't feel like I'm doing enough. I feel a bit wounded in that area--like I've been burned before and don't want to go there (3 of Swords), and I feel anxious and insecure (9 of Swords) and to top it off I feel financially nervous and insecure (5 of Pentacles) and not very good at making money.
But despite all this, I am not too bothered by this reading. It's just an accurate reflection of my thoughts on this topic--thoughts that can change any moment. For instance, looking at it now, I don't really feel badly about it at all. I can understand my feelings and not be ruled by them. I understand I'm feeling my negative thinking in the moment. But more than that--I also feel the thread of a deeper purpose flowing through my life moment to moment. I know that sounds weird and esoteric, but there's something impalpable that we can't define or put in a resume about all of our lives. The depth and importance, but also the lightness of it.
This is all temporary, and whether I make money now or not, or whether I am an artist or a banker it doesn't really matter. But what matters is living moment to moment in an inspired way, being true to myself even when I don't always know what that means. I'm creating my life in each second, and I can go back to the drawing board, or I can continue in whatever way I want. I can let things bother the crap out of me or I can look elsewhere.
I realize now more than ever (maybe seeing my elderly grandmother who has lost most of her memory has forced this perspective) that we often get stuck in ruts and take things way too seriously. Sometimes the most important work really is just being here now, both for ourselves and others.
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
The other day I was having a sinus flare-up, likely due to poor food choices and tiredness. I had been feeling it for a couple of days and was fed up. I decided to pull a couple of cards about it and here is what I got. Immediately with the Teapot card I thought of using the neti pot, something that I had been doing occasionally but had stepped up in regularity around when I started to feel the flare up. And the second card, Eye, made me think to trust my instincts on it. And I did. Using a combination of diet tweaking, rest, neti pot and herbal supplements, I managed to get over my sinus flare up shortly after this reading. All in all a very tidy reading!
Friday, March 31, 2017
I had my cards out to do an e-mail reading for a friend and before I did the reading I pulled a quad of cards for myself, and I'm glad I did. Sometimes if a reader has a lot on their mind or otherwise has energies that might interfere with the reading, it's not a bad idea to 'clear the deck' by doing a quick reading for yourself. It's almost like visual journaling to clear your head before proceeding.
My daughter, fiery volcano that she is, can be very moody at times. I do a lot to support her nutritionally and emotionally, but there are a lot of times where it never seems like enough (I'm sure all of you parents can relate to the parent guilt involved in this thought process), so I like to check in periodically to give myself a little boost of encouragement.
This morning, after my daughter had been in a very positive and stable mood for most of the month, which I was very happy about, had a bad morning and the school called me. My daughter had requested that she go home. She seems a lot better now and said she was just relieved to be home. She didn't like the pranking and loudness of the day in class today and I think she just wanted some quiet time. I remember feeling like that a lot as a kid. I was very sensitive to other people and noises (on many levels). It took a while to learn to shield myself emotionally and otherwise, from the intensity of life here on earth, but I think every year I've gotten better, and I can only hope the same (hopefully better) for my daughter.
So, I see a lot of this reflected in this four card reading here. The Daughter of Wands is my daughter's card, and the Ace of Pentacles as well as the Ten of Pentacles feels like stability and groundedness. I think sometimes we all just want to feel at home, literally or otherwise. I think the World points to her growing and moving forward. I know I always see this card as an opportunity to recognize that we're always moving and growing and evolving toward the next phases of our lives. Since it's the last card in the major arcana it shows a readiness to move forward. I am truly glad to see my daughter growing and changing more and more every year.
As parents we hold the space for our children. We can't shield them from everything. We can provide help, support and even protection when needed, but we can't (and shouldn't) make them think they can't have difficult experiences. These are the things that teach them about themselves. But they're also the hardest for parents to allow.
Wednesday, March 29, 2017
|This probably would've been more effective had I left the Ace of Pentacles card image in the mini clipboard (on left)|
Last night I decided I should play with my neglected Housewives Tarot. I pulled a card and it was the Ace of Pentacles. This made me smile because, not an hour before, I had just changed the card on my mantle (the mini clipboard that displays my Albano-Waite mini pulls) because it had been, for the longest time, showing the Ace of Pentacles. It's been up there a couple of weeks, maybe? I think this decision was motivated by greed. Maybe I thought I could visualize crap tons of money coming in. So I decided to put a new card up there, which happened to be the 6 of Wands (see the image). But when the Ace of Pentacles decided to revisit me I opted to make note of it here. Haha.
Just a silly little anecdote for you all.