Friday, November 21, 2014

Mountain and Commitment: Misanthropy and Other Tales

Here's an interesting duo I pulled this afternoon. I was pondering it and honestly I wasn't 100% sure what to think of it, but it was thought-provoking anyway. One of them was reversed (and for the life of me I can't remember which one) although the other was not. I don't know. Anyway.

My sense of these cards is that maybe I'm trying to do something the hard way, particularly when it comes to making plans or committing to a course of action. The Mountain card is about, as the quote states, not trying to trudge uphill, but rather to flow around difficulties. So, try...and commit, but don't try too hard? Haha. Well, no. I'm kidding. Ish. I do think I tend to obsess over things, particularly social interactions, adding multiple layers of insecurity and difficulty where they really aren't necessary.

Anyway. Lately I've been a little nervous about school-related volunteerism and socializing. It's a new area for me. I tend to be a bit hermit-like and if I do get together with people I try to keep it to a couple people or one on one. I don't really like groups, obligation or committees. So, I've been feeling a bit squeamish about all of those things. I want to be helpful but I feel like I'm being swallowed up by the Waldorf version of the PTA. These things rub me the wrong way.

Maybe this pull is saying that I can make commitments, but they don't have to be hardcore commitments. They can be easy. I don't have to agree to every piddly thing, every social event, every volunteer opportunity. I find myself easily overwhelmed by it all. And there's extra pressure now because of holiday-themed events where they constantly ask for help. 

So. I do some things I feel OK doing. I made 50 soaps for the school's winter event, I helped with the nature walk today, and I'm sure I'll do some other things. But I don't have to let it rule my life. I have run into several people recently who HAVE let it rule their life and seem up to their ears in stress. No thanks. Not for me!

On top of that, I've made commitments to travel for winter--expensive and stressful. Part of me (ok, a BIG part of me) just wants to say *uck it all, stay home, not bother socializing or all of these events and plans. I feel shackled by them.  I guess I need to find a way to re-frame these things so I feel less misanthropic.


p.s. Be back the first week of December!

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Finding the Missing Pieces, Reunification

Interesting trio of cards I pulled the other day. I think they all make sense. I've been trying to fit in at my daughter's school in a community sort of way and in the process I've kind of forgotten what I really want to do for myself. I find that I become impatient and scattered, and easily unnerved by things. This is a good reminder to call parts of myself back in and get organized so I can focus on my next phase, flowing into it rather than feeling confused and diffused.

Much love,

Monday, November 10, 2014

Influences Around Me and Diarrhea

So, I pulled this quad of cards yesterday using my Wisdom of Avalon Oracle Cards. I was not feeling too great digestively, and I suspected something with my bladder or kidneys and my digestion in general. I had taken some supplements for those things, and was hoping to feel better. I sat down to pull cards for insight. Interesting cards I received!

Looking at this VERY literally (which you don't have to do, but it's kind of funny to do so), this pull could refer directly to the action of diarrhea, a symptom I was having.  We have Letting Go, which is a release of some kind. Err...I guess I don't have to explain that one. Disruption is similar to the tower, something happening suddenly. OK, I don't have to explain that one I?! Hah. Movement...again...err. Not too hard to explain. BM? ?? ? Hee. Then we have the unfortunate recipient of these processes: The Queen.

After I made this silly analysis I started to think about the other layers of meaning in this reading. I moved three weeks ago today, and I am still experiencing the repercussions of that move. There is crap that we're dealing with (moving-related), and a lot of things to sort out. It really makes sense to look at it from the perspective of letting go of previous conditions, embracing the disruption of movement to a new town.

So, I like that I can see a couple of angles for this. I know there are others but those are the two I saw right off the bat. And, they are likely connected. Stress can directly impact the digestive system and other organs. I hope I can settle in and see relief from some of these discomforts.

One last thing I noticed looking over these cards, is the presence of water. Every card except the Queen shows flowing water. Even the final one shows water over an edge. Oh...actually, she's holding a goblet. Drinking more water? Maybe the added message of going with the flow and not becoming stagnant is a good one. It's certainly necessary to open up and move along with the currents instead of trying to hold onto the past.

Hoping everyone has a glorious November.


Monday, November 3, 2014

A Creative Project

I decided to get back to basics and pull a couple of cards from Ye Olde Rider Waite™. I've been seeing a theme lately of a creative/artistic spark. I don't know if it's a business idea, a commission or some other thing, but that's the sort of pulls I've been getting. I got Artistic Endeavor or something similar from several oracle decks in the past few days. I admit I have been pondering a project or two to sink my teeth into, though I don't know.

Frankly, although it makes sense (I'm an artist, I guess), I don't see it. Of course, you could see it as me starting a project for the house (painting some rooms, for example, which I have been planning to do), so it may not be a work project so much as something creative yet practical, which is how I'd describe the duo above: creative yet practical. I am painting the rooms to be prettier (aka, not dark, patchy gray), but it's a house and not a piece of artwork, per se.

Anyway! I don't know what else to say. It's a chilly, rainy day (drizzle and possible bits of snow, though thankfully I haven't seen any yet). I am doing indoor chores today. Well, following dropping off my daughter and then getting groceries I plan to do some laundry and maybe a little more unpacking. I also feel like recuperating from the upheaval of the past month or two.

Lots of Love,

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Halloween Tarot: Current Influences Draw & Blogiversary

Happy Halloween/Samhein/Days of the Dead, etc!

Tomorrow is Halloween, and it's also my 4th blogiversary. Normally I might do a giveaway but I still feel depleted from my move, so I may refrain this year. Instead, I'll offer my kindest and most sincere wishes for a joyful November to all of you.

Here are some cards I pulled today. The topic of my draw was the main/prevailing/current influences for me. I pulled three and an extra to add more depth. As I set the cards down and looked them over the feeling I got from the reading was one of time spent alone and in intuitive reflection. It has a very independent, quiet feel to it. Do you agree?

Here is my thought process: Queen of Bats (aka Swords) is often seen as a capable and independent woman, sometimes called a loner or a bit badass. That's one interpretation I see pretty frequently. The Hermit is seen as the 'drawing away from others in order for self-mastery/reflection', the 9 of Pentacles I see as a woman of means, or a woman who learns to be capable and able in the physical world, on her own. I sometimes see it quite literally as a woman who owns her own business. The 9 reflects the number of the Hermit, something many of my fellow tarotists note when they see the 9 of Pentacles. The woman in the garden is alone but not lonely. This is something I have struggled with for ages. I have always been afraid of being alone--but yet that time spent alone is very self-nurturing, and very telling.

The final card, given for added clarity, is the High Priestess. This is another card of study, of quiet, of yin energy and reflection. It's far more esoteric and intuitive, though, than the other cards. It can refer literally to a woman who follows esoteric studies, or who is a tarot reader. Or it can simply refer to trusting one's intuition. Either way, the energy is similar.

In any case, I do find this reading pretty accurate, as I have been trying to pull my energy back in after feeling frazzled following my move. I can't pull back entirely, but I do find that I need to take time to myself to get clear and in order outside of the world-at-large.

Much Love,

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Do and Don't Halloween Week Duo

Hello Dear Ones,

It has been 11 days since I last posted, and since then I've moved into a new house! Hooray, but also...whew. Tiring. I admit I feel rather frazzled and unsettled. I am one who is especially emotionally tied to houses and I tend to get rather attached. I found myself feeling pretty burnt out and overwhelmed by the move, even though I know it will be good ultimately. I'm trying to allow myself the time and space to feel OK with things. I think any major change can upset our careful internal balances. That is a good thing, as it can shake us out of ruts, but too much chaos can make us feel ungrounded.

Honestly, at first I was annoyed at myself for feeling anxious and shaken up by moving, but then I realized it was rude of me to be annoyed at myself for having feelings and responses to life events. Also, I feel a little chagrined that I haven't done more. I mean, I know I've only been moved in a week, but I think I had this dramatic expectation that I'd have all the rooms painted that I wanted to paint, and on and on. But life doesn't always work that way, and I think it's more beneficial for me to go at this gradually.  Anyway...who cares? I don't have to prove myself to anyone and I'm not entering a contest for who can paint a house the fastest. Though I suspect the people living here before us might have entered that contest--seeing how sloppy their painting is in several rooms!

Anyway. In honor of the week of Halloween (which I've paid little attention to, really, due to settling in), I've pulled this pair of cards. The simple spread I'm using is a do and don't. The first card is the do and the second is the don't. I also think this same configuration could be interchangeable with 'now and later'...kind of like the name of the candy. So! You'll have to excuse the generous use of weird punctuation and dramatic ellipses--I just loved the new cartoon feature on the site.

The recommendation for the moment is rest. The 4 of Swords is the respite card. Not the final resting place, but a break in the action. I know I'll be getting back to it, but in the meantime, having some rest in-between is a-ok. I do find, at least for me, that it often means literal sleep. Like I need extra sleep right now. This may well be true. I have felt rather tired since moving in. Last night I didn't sleep very well. At one point I woke up with my heart pounding from some stressful dream. It's like I'm processing all these stressful emotions at once. However, I feel myself slowly settling down. But I'm also utilizing relaxation techniques to help the process along.

The Hanged Man comes up in the don't category, though they don't have to convince me not to hang upside-down. No, but seriously! I think this shows that I don't necessarily need to sacrifice my sanity to get things done. The key word of sacrifice is often seen with this card. It also shows that maybe the delay doesn't have to be a long one. The Hanged Man can often mean a delay, or suspending an idea in order to have something else work--which is where the sacrifice part comes in.

In any case, I will take a break from the chaos, but not a really long break. I'm planning on allowing things to unfold gradually, as I attend to both practical and emotional considerations.

Much Love,

Friday, October 17, 2014

Whips, House & Stork: Cracking the Whip on a House Move

I wanted to pull a trio of cards from the Tattered Nomad Oracle, just to see what comes up and awaits us for the next week. I suppose I shouldn't have been surprised to see the House card in there! I admit, I was not happy to see Whip as the first card in the spread. Haha! I mean, there's the sexual meaning which is fun and all, and I won't discount that either (hey--we need a stress release during the move!) but I think the general meaning of stress makes sense. On the Learn Lenormand site key words for Whips are:

ARGUMENTS, discussions, separation, sports, physical activity, abuse.

That makes sense to me.  I suppose there is a lot of most of these things during a move. Lots of discussions, separation from one house to the other--lots of physical activity, and stress.

With this move, the next few days things should be a bit on the busy side, to put it mildly. I've been packing for the past couple of weeks or so, and last weekend we stuffed a storage unit full of most of our belongings. What's left is the remainder of the boxes and the large furniture.

Saturday (tomorrow), we'll be consolidating the straggler bits from around the house--packing up the odds and ends and moving everything into a common space for ease of transport into the moving van. This sounds simple but I imagine it will take several hours.  I'll also be cleaning some.

Sunday we will load all of the remaining items from our house into the 26 ft. Uhaul truck, and once the house is empty, we'll clean every room. Dusting, sweeping, mopping, etc.

We'll spend the night at a local hotel on Sunday, and on Monday we'll do two closings then unload the Uhaul into the new house. Then, we have the rest of the crap to get out of storage. BUT, I don't think we'll get things out of storage until the following weekend, to save ourselves some hassle.

Anyway! When I saw this trio my idea about its meaning was some annoyance/hassle/stress around the house move. The Stork pointed to a new condition, and the House seemed literal enough.

I thought the duos I read about on were a bit too pat, but I enjoy them as a jumping off platform for interpretation:

Whip + house (4): home gym, domestic abuse, family arguments
House + stork (17): change of residence, remodeling

Looking at this, we see the rather dramatic duo which includes domestic abuse and family arguments. Now, I don't expect to have horrible arguments or domestic abuse, but I do think moving is stressful on a family. So I think, in this case, the whips and house combo shows stress around a house situation.

The House and Stork combo shows the new house thing. And this duo actually mentions a change of residence, a new house. Remodeling isn't altogether incorrect either, as there are some minor repairs and painting that we'll need to do soon after moving in. :)

All in all, this reading was easy to interpret (in my opinion, anyway), and made sense.

Ultimately, I know this will be a good move, despite the temporary stress.

Much love to y'all and be back later,