|Past Issue, Present Obstacle, Future Outlook Spread|
Looking at these cards I'm a tiny bit puzzled. I know this sounds silly but this is not what I expected. For a spread detailing so many obstacles, I expected more defeated-looking cards, wouldn't you say so? Well maybe not. It takes some thinking to figure out why a certain card presents in a position, so here goes...
|1. ) 10 of Cups 2.) 9 of Cups 3.) Ace of Pentacles 4.) Temperance 5.) 10 of Pentacles|
In the present obstacles place we have the 9 of Cups, which is interesting. Normally the 9 of Cups indicates something that we want coming to us with relative ease. To me, this either indicates that I don't know what I want or there's some obstacle to getting what I want. I think both could be true, but I feel that most of my hang-ups are internal, even if some of them are justified. I'm afraid for the health of the baby, for how my daughter will do, and mostly uncontrollable but scary genetic factors. I actually told my husband last night that I was afraid of my desire to have a child and thought it was 'dangerous' because of the risks involved.
In the past issues still unresolved place we have the Ace of Pentacles. This made me think of health and money, two topics commonly seem with the pentacles suit. We have struggled with my daughter's health issues, especially over the past year plus, and at the same time we've struggled with financial concerns, largely stemming from those health expenses. This week, in fact, my husband accidentally forgot to account for a bill that's going through and we're -70+ in the hole and his account will likely bounce. He gets paid on Friday but we don't think it'll happen in time to prevent this, and I don't have any money to cover it (plus I need at least a tiny bit of money to pay for food.)
I hate having money issues. I'm incredibly lucky to have the supportive family and friends that I do, but for some reason we're always in the hole. I know we could use some pointers on money (which I've looked into and will do so more in earnest soon) but part of it is this ongoing medical chaos that is taking way longer than I would've hoped. So I think the Ace of Pentacles in this position makes sense.
In the past obstacle (resolved, I'm assuming, since the other one was unresolved?) we have Temperance. When I see the image of Temperance pouring something between two cups I often think of the balance of medications and supplements my daughter takes, epecially as they are almost all liquid. This card is also about maintaining or attaining some sort of healthful balance. This shows me that we've made some progress with that. I think this is true but we still have a ways to go so I don't know if I'd say it is resolved (unless I've completely misinterpreted this.) However, if it turns out to be true that my daughter's main issue is her B6-deficient seizures, then maybe it's more resolved than I think and it just needs a little time to catch up as we get the details worked out.
In the how to move forward position, the final card, we have the 10 of Pentacles. This is the family security/money/housing/practical card. It's also about inheritances and money and property received, although I don't see how that would happen but I like to bring that up whenever I see this card anyway. This is an interesting companion to the 10 of Cups, and would be most helpful. I like the stability that it adds to the reading. I could do with the feeling of solidness and security that the 10 of Pentacles offers since I've felt like life has pulled the floor out from under me over the past few years. I literally have lost faith in a lot of things, namely my ability to create or do anything without it being a disaster...