|"Life is a mystery. Everyone must stand alone." (lyrics I heard when posting about this card)|
As I quietly but wearily shuffled I asked for some guidance on how to deal with this. What will make it easier to get through this? I just felt like I was desperate for any sort of information to cling to that might alleviate some of the nagging stress of the extreme mood and sleep side effects. At first I pulled a few cards but I realized that I was having a hard time focusing; everything sounded loud to me and I couldn't organize my thoughts. I decided just to pull one. The card I got (after double-checking the whole roman numeral thing) was the Hermit. In this deck, it's Chang O. Here's what the book says:
Chang O, the Chinese moon goddess, was exiled to the moon because of her need to obtain divinity. With a white hare as her only companion, she spent much time alone contemplating life's mysteries.
Meanings: The need to go within to gain knowledge to one's own divinity. Withdrawal to better contemplate life.
O.K. Yeah. I mean, it's the Hermit. I need solitude, peace and time to breathe, meditate and relax. If you literally have someone crying, fussing, screaming or hitting you all the time you can't do that. So I know I need to just take as much time as I can to myself. I can't exile myself to the moon, but I can go sit in a coffee shop or something when my husband's home.