Thursday, May 31, 2012

Eagle and Windchimes: Knowledge Brings Power and Peace of Mind

Last night I was restlessly shuffling through my Tea Leaf Fortune Cards when I decided I just needed to get to bed. I chose one last card to exemplify the energy of the day, what we had learned, which is that my daughter has two copies (is heterozygous for one of each) of a gene that is responsible for proper methylation of the body (this is a complicated...very complicated...thing to describe, so I'll just refer to you the website if you're curious). This process, which is damaged and incomplete but this gene mutation is crucial to many systems in the body.

Some problems that can result range from clotting issues including miscarriages, addictions, severe depressions, bi-polar and anxiety, chronic fatigue, a number of birth defects, neurological issues like my daughter has with seizures, adhd, autism, etc, and a whole host of other things (such as dementia in old age). It's really an astounding, mind-blowing topic. I think it's one that needs a huge amount of attention but it's still relatively unknown to most people. Neverthless, the blood test for MTHFR gene is often covered by insurance and you only need to take it once in your lifetime. There are a number of recommendations for people who carry this gene. You can read the basics of it here.

Anyway. I will not go on and on about it because it would take way too long and I am not exactly an expert, but I have definitely been reading a lot about it lately. It's very common to have at least one of these genes and also very unknown by the average person. I sure as heck had never heard of it! This gene may express differently in different individuals. My point is that these two copies of this gene may be largely responsible for my daughter's seizures which, thankfully, have not occurred for almost 2.5 years now. This is no doubt thanks to grueling dietary changes, and intensive supplementation, including the methyl b-12 shots she received last year and will receive again in another month.

So...anyway. I forgot to finish my original though about this draw. Last night I drew 'Eagle' which was a repeat of this reading about the blood test results. It is about triumphing over obstacles as the card above shows. It is a really wonderful card, I think. The book's description states that whatever obstacles I'm facing I will triumph over. I hope this bodes well for these results. To me...knowledge is power. That is a huge cliché, but it's just true. Knowing something difficult or painful may cause a good amount of angst at first, but that's a small price to pay for being able to move forward in your life with the right information.

Now that I know my daughter has this, I will take similar steps to get tested and support my own methylation processes. It's pretty much guaranteed that I also have it since my daughter does. And if you look at my family history of many of the conditions mentioned, it is easy to see how it comes into play.

To be honest, I feel relieved, which is where the 'Windchimes' card comes in. If nothing whatsoever showed up on these tests I would be more confused, more upset. Idiopathic? How is that helpful? If you can't find a cause then how can you treat it? Hearing from my daughter's doctor that this is likely the biggest player in her issues (along with 1 or 2 smaller issues with diet/allergies and yeast) was actually really helpful. I feel now that I'm officially on the right track.

The 'Eagle' and 'Windchime' card were chosen again today. In fact, I had trouble finding the 'Eagle' card which I was going to photograph for today's post, but I ended up having to shuffle and draw more cards. These are the cards I got!


p.s. As for the other blood test results, my daughter's vitamin D level is good...very good, and her iron is still a little on the low side, which we will address once we've done another round of anti-fungal treatment.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Note to Self: STOP WORRYING!

Here is the draw I did last night. Actually, my husband did this reading for me. I occasionally appeal to him to do a reading for me, since I think he does a good job of it. It isn't his favorite thing to do, but he begrudgingly accepts my request (usually) and proceeds to give me some real insights into the situations I ask about.

What was the topic? Well, I've just been in an icky sticky blah funk lately. It has been this weird cloud hanging over my head the past several weeks, really since we've moved in to the new house, and I can't quite figure it out. It seems like nothing I do puts a dent in this combined ennui/anxiety/crankiness.

So my husband's on-the-fly spread was to have me choose three cards representing the situation and a fourth card (the one on the top row) to show a way to navigate the situation. I thought the results were immediately striking and on target.

The 'Well' and 'Sea Horse' cards both represent family issues. One is positive and one is neutral, and that may or may not be important. But to me the primary thing was that of 'family' being an issue for me. Amidst these two family cards we have 'Dagger' which clearly indicates a great deal of tension and anxiety, outright fear, about family.

My husband and I both drew the same conclusion from this reading, which isn't  hard because it's one of the less cryptic readings I've done. It really gets right to the point. Now, I don't have to do any searching to figure this one out, really, because I know what it's referring to. I definitely expend quite a bit of energy, for instance, worrying about my daughter. Will she start having seizures again? Was it a mistake to remove the meds? Will she ever do this or that? Will she ever STOP doing this or that? What am I going to do about this or that? I think I invented fretting, or at least perfected it...

Additionally, I've been concerned about whether my parents will have to leave town due to my dad's job not being renewed and his having trouble finding another one. I also feel empathy for my parents, because  really this impacts them much more than us. Yes, we'd miss having them nearby and it would isolate us further because really we don't have many local friends, but mostly I care about how this impacts my parents. I know they'll figure something out but these worries are in the back of my head.

There are other family worries on the list, but it would be silly to list them all. The point is that I think I don't realize how much I've been worrying until I sit down and think about it objectively like I am now. And I'd say 95% of the time my worries do not come into play. Once in a blue moon something will line up with my worries but most of the time my fears are never anywhere near what is happening in reality. Even if they were, there is nothing my worrying could do to stop events, particularly events in other people's lives that they are having to deal with.

Oh...right. I forgot about the thing about my husband's schedule potentially changing (again) to one we don't really like. Haha. Ugh. That is funny because we're waiting for him to hear about it today but his boss and co-workers keep putting it off and putting it off because no one wants to deal with it. It's driving my husband (and me) nuts. Again...I just need to let it go.

As the suggestion/way forward card we have 'Whale' which describes 'Great worry over nothing.' This I took to mean to just stop worrying. I find it interesting that this reading had a sort of repeat message feeling: two anxiety cards and two family cards. It shouldn't surprise me to think that perhaps all my intense crankiness/tiredness and other icky feelings and symptoms may be nothing more than excessive worry.

Tomorrow I get the results back from my daughter's blood tests. We get to see if she has the gene which makes methylation difficult for her (her body's ability to use B vitamins and other co-factors, and to detox itself) and what we would need to change in order to further to support that, as well as the other blood tests for a few other deficiencies. Hopefully it's good news but whatever it is, we'll deal with it and do the best we can to help her.

It's time for me to let go of all these anxieties, big and small, and replace them with appropriate thoughts and actions. Trust in myself and in the people in my life to deal with their respective issues and concerns.


Saturday, May 26, 2012

Show and Tell: Hanging Herb Garden

About a month ago I purchased two petite hanging baskets filled with flowers from the health food store. They were cheaper than the usual baskets (probably because they aren't huge) and I thought they were lovely, but even though I tried to take care of them they ended up getting quite scraggly, ugly and wilted over the next few weeks. Finally I gave in and dumped them, since they were only a vague shadow of their former selves.

I had these adorable empty white pots and lonely, empty hooks and I wanted to replace them with something heartier, that even I couldn't kill. After a trip to a local garden center, I changed my mind from my original plan of purchasing succulents (which I love) to getting some herbs that I could actually use in cooking. I chose mostly part-shade herbs so they wouldn't mind being indoors. I hung them near the sliding glass door so they'd get some light during the day.

Here are the herbs I got:


Lime basil

Blue Spires rosemary

Chocolate mint

Lemon verbena

Just thought I'd share. Hope y'all have a great one.


Friday, May 25, 2012

Unfinished Business and Musings on Freelance Work

I thought I'd go ahead and post one more time before going away for the long weekend (Memorial Day break) when I'll return on Tuesday. I have been thinking about how unstimulated I've been on a mental level, but also in general. Creatively, emotionally, etc. While I feel that helping my daughter and doing things for her is of monumental importance and I don't necessarily want to relegate that duty to #2, I'd like to at least add something new to my repertoire and try to challenge myself a bit, as well as make a bit of money, which would be very helpful right now with finances being on the tighter side.

The single card answer to my query about how to approach a potential (part-time) money-making venture (from home, more than likely, or on a very limited away-from-home basis) was this card. 'Desk' is an interesting work card. It shows a desk strewn with unfinished work. The card's description makes it clear that this relates to a person's career but that they have unfinished business, work that needs to be done. It's like someone got up mid-way through a project and never finished. How funny!

Well, I do feel like that sometimes. Like I start something venture-wise and then never really go anywhere with it. It would be nice to have a true work-focus, where I have that sense of 'hey, I can do this!' and I sit down, do what I've set out to do, and then move on to another project. I suppose seeing that I'm an artist and generally involved in more creative-type pursuits, that freelance or other short-term work is more realistic for me to focus on, and possibly less draining, than some more involved, full-time job. My full-time job is still with my daughter.

This has me brainstorming on what sorts of projects could truly hold my attention and would actual be worth taking the time and energy to work on. I would rather not have to rely on trying to harass someone into 'buying a product' from me, and I've decided I don't really want to set up an Etsy shop or other such thing. It just doesn't seem right to me. I feel like whatever it is I am going to do needs to be a project that I know in advance will be compensated for and I won't be grasping after every penny.

I am thinking seeking out small illustration projects (spots, as they call them) or some other short-term assignments might be a good idea. A person would commission me to do this and I would finish it in a week or two then be done, move on to something else. That would also keep it interesting. Or, perhaps having a service such as art tutoring or classes on a limited basis, or maybe small murals or other things. I don't know. That might be a bit much, but you never know.

With my background in art, some (but not a ton) of graphic design, I might be able to pull this off, but I am not entirely sure how to begin. I guess I should do some research.

See y'all on Tuesday!


Learning to Read: Bit by Bit...

"Butterfly in the skyyyyyyy. I can go twice as highhhh..."

Sorry. I had the Reading Rainbow song stuck in my head when I saw the Rainbow card.

In fact, this is weird but I can't get it out of my head long enough to concentrate on anything else.

When I saw this duo I thought maybe I'd make some progress on my daughter learning to read. She has made progress from when we began, and considering some challenges she has faced I am impressed that she is doing as well as she is. I am trying not to worry about the exact timing of these milestones.

We've been working on it with her for several months now, off and on, but it's uphill progress, as she can be very stubborn and quite ADHD, and since I'm in charge of her schooling (for now) I want to make sure to get this going as soon as I can. That said, I am not trying to shove it down her throat.

I remember how I always enjoyed reading and it was easy and relaxing for me, but this isn't always true for everyone. I try to remember that as I see my daughter avoid certain things. Perhaps she'll excel in areas that I avoid. It works both ways. She is definitely a very physical and active child--which was definitely NOT me!

This also reminds me that I can play some old episodes of Reading Rainbow for my daughter, since they are available for free via YouTube. It might ignite more of an interest in learning to read. I know I always loved seeing the books they featured on the show.


Thursday, May 24, 2012

Memorial Day Mandate: Have Fun!

We have a three day holiday weekend coming up here in the U.S. (Memorial Day) which is one of the few holidays that my husband gets off. So in a fairly unimportant reading I decided to pull a card representing what to do over the holiday weekend. My parents are out of town so we won't be able to do anything with them (which is fine, of course, since they live here and we can see them normally) and as far as I know there's nothing else going on, so I guess the idea is just to try to have fun. Wow! What a concept.

Of course money is limited and I honestly don't know what to do, and what we were kind of PLANNING on doing involved organizing the garage and sorting through dozens of post-move boxes for donation (which isn't exactly what I'd call fun) but I think fitting in some chores doesn't mean we can't also have fun.

Good Times,

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Disclosing the Self: Cup or Tankard

I drew these cards to represent my niggling feelings of low self-esteem and self-consciousness.

I was thinking of how much I worried people would see of me that they may not like, or how much I was really willing to show/share? In truth I think I show most of myself most of the time, emotionally speaking. So why, then, if I'm not necessarily a secretive person, am I so concerned?

Well these cards hold some interesting clues. The first card, 'Cup', mentions criticism. Perhaps I'm afraid of criticism...valid or otherwise. Maybe the avoidance I feel is actually because I know on some level that the valid influence of other people might be more powerful than I realize. Also, of course, when your self-esteem is low, other people's opinions are more painful and impacting. If I stand on my own two feet, I will be able to accept valid and constructive criticism much better, because I am not toppling over anytime anything even remotely unpleasant happens.

That was my issue in art school with critiques. I could not help but take every remark personally. When you put yourself into your work and then a group of students systematically tells you what about it isn't working, it is a definite test of your sense of self. And I admit I definitely need to shore up my sense of self. It's not about developing a thicker's more about feeling more comfortable with everything you have to offer, and accepting that it's OK to be wrong and to listen to others.

The 'Tankard' card is the allowance of fun into our lives. I think I avoid this more positive aspect of influence from others. I was just talking about this tonight with my husband. We're both largely anti-social and dislike parties, groups and the like. We even recoil at the odd or occasional get together, even if we know that we'll probably enjoy it and be fine. We just don't naturally gravitate toward social activities. Then again, I think because of that we don't enjoy ourselves as much. Without the risk of connection there's also a lack of connection. Makes sense.

Hope y'all are having a lovely one.


Show and Tell AND Wordless Wednesday: Skeleton Key Socks

Vaguely Good Family Times Reading

Excuse this funky effect. I love it, actually, but the text may be hard to read. Here's what they say:

Caterpillar: Things will not always be this way. A change is coming.
Four-leaf Clover: Great good fortune.
Tree: Affairs with your family.
Rainbow: The most difficult part of a situation is over.

I can't say this reading tells me anything TOO specific, but I like the presence of the 'Tree' card in connection with such positive cards about passing through a difficult change into something better. I'm hoping it means bluer skies for my family, both immediate and extended.  I know this recent removal of medication has me worried, but I also tend to worry about family in general.


Tuesday, May 22, 2012

My June Forecast

So, as May is winding down (can you believe there is only slightly more than a week left?) I decided to do a pull for June. I admit I get nervous pulling for a month in advance (or a year, etc) but I always take things with a grain of salt, no matter the time frame.

The four cards I received for this month are 'Vase', 'Gong', 'Eagle' and 'Lobster'. Hookay, then! First impressions, first impressions. Well, I have to admit I am confused by the 'Vase' and 'Gong' combo in particular. I will definitely be looking out for that.

The next card, 'Eagle', reminds me of this reading about my daughter's blood deficiency levels since it came up for that topic. Either way, who doesn't want to triumph over trouble and/or obstacles? Of course we'd probably prefer to have fewer obstacles, no?

The final card is the usual cautionary tale about money, 'Lobster', and I'm not surprised to see it. I've been seeing a fair amount of this cards lately. There's another card, 'Shark', that is also about being very careful with money. Yippety-skippety, right?

Perhaps this exciting event will cost money which will make things tighter? Hm.

Anyway. Hope everyone has a delicious June. We'll see how it goes.


Monday, May 21, 2012

Show and Tell: Tea Cabinet

In our new kitchen and dining area we've installed a tea cabinet. Actually, it's a cabinet that normally would go over someone's toilet (in fact, we have one of the same style in the upstairs bathroom!) but we thought it would be perfect for tea (speaking of which, I see some spilled tea on the middle shelf) and so it is! My tea collection is not super distinguished but it suits me. I'm avoiding black teas because of my finicky bladder, hence most of the teas being herbal or rooibos.

I just thought I'd share. Hope you're all going to enjoy a hot mug of something delicious and healing...a decoction, a tincture, a brew, a steeped history of roots...a tea for all occasions.


A Ray of Night Sunshine

Last night I was fretting (as I tend to do) over medical things for my daughter. I won't bore you with the details but it has to do with her vitamin deficiency levels and something I feared may have lowered them from their recently, hard-won, normalized state. I was doing a lot of research and e-mailing her integrative doctor (and of course since it was Sunday and the weekend I wouldn't hear from him until Monday at the earliest) when I decided to stop and draw from the Tea Leaf Fortune Cards.

The card I received was like a (literal?) ray of sunshine in the night. I got 'Sun' which is not unlike the traditional 'Sun' card in the tarot. I also thought it was sort of funny because I got the 'Sun' card on 'Sunday' but that's just a cheesy thing to say and has no real bearing on the reading, I don't think.

Anyway, regardless of what is happening in my life, I have to hold on to the sunshine and not get trapped in the darkness, worrying and researching until my head explodes.

Hope you all have a warm, though not scorching, day.


Friday, May 18, 2012

Bird-Flying and Waiting for Blood Test Results

I thought I'd go ahead and post before taking a short weekend hiatus from blogging.

Isn't this pretty?! I love the look of the leaves, feather and flowers together. It reminds me a little bit of the quirky art from Under the Pink. If I had little adorable apothecary bottles and a graphic of myself curled up I might use it, but nah. Plus I would never look as gorgeously resplendent as Tori did...

This morning I had the (as usual) daunting task of getting my daughter's blood drawn. Blood curdling screams, anyone? So, yes. With the usual bout of tears and screams, she recovered quickly and I took her to get a toy and a baby present for her doctors (who are a husband and wife team) because they have a baby due in the next few weeks.

Anyway. We're testing a few vitamin levels as well as a gene which tests for methylation impairment. If she has this gene then we know she'll probably have to supplement with easy-to-convert B vitamins for the rest of her life to avoid seizures. Part of me hopes this gene turns up because it would explain so much. But if not, I have to know that we're doing everything we can to help her regardless.

Oh, and I did another reading and got 'bird perched' for the same topic. I may post that, too.

Anyway, I will get the results when I go in to consult on May 30th.

Love and See Y'all Monday,

p.s. ok, since I'm feeling too lazy to edit these, here are the other two draws I pulled:

My Husband's Work Commute: Great White Whale of Whining

Here are the cards I pulled for today.

I think they reflect my crankiness over my husband's schedule woes. My husband commutes an hour each way to work, which adds two hours to his work day, which is bad for all of us.


He recently moved to a new schedule which had him leaving early and gave us more time together in the latter part of the day and he left work before the nasty 5 o'clock traffic hit.

Until this morning when I got an e-mail from my husband saying his boss wanted to have people there later. So now he's going to change the schedule we were finally glad to have but had only been in place for a week. Ugh.

The new hours my husband would work would put him smack in nasty traffic on both ends--making him either have to leave early to beat the traffic or be late every day, probably adding another 30-40 minutes to his day with just driving.

I am just cranky. I feel like as it is I don't see my husband enough. He's gone all day, plus extra for the long commute, and then he's on call for a week every month, meaning both weekend days he's gone several hours each day because he has to do rounds.

These cards suggest these issues are temporary. Well, I suppose ALL issues are temporary, seeing as you die. Hah! Little mortal joke. But the combination of the 'Temporary problems' and 'Great worry over nothing' makes me think this isn't going to be nearly as bad as I think.

I hope not.


p.s. see y'all Monday.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Cobweb: Balm to a Nervous Soothsayer's Spirit...

So, I suppose this makes me sound superstitious (but then again having a tarot blog arguably makes me even more so) but I was afraid to do any readings after removing my daughter's medication entirely yesterday. Yes, it's true that it was a tiny amount of medication and this has been a long time coming, and I shouldn't be nearly as nervous as I am (or I should since it's natdural to be nervous about your children, especially if it's a serious health thing) but anyway.

I nervously pulled this card today and this is one of the cards I like the best in this deck. Visually it's very pretty, although instinctively when I see cobwebs on a flower I want to brush them off, but the vision of the cobweb with the dew drops on it is a pretty sight. Then again, the spider may return at any minute...

The card's description is pretty straight forward and doesn't differ much from what you see written on the card itself, so I won't bother quoting it. There is still something soothing about this card appearing, even if it's all pomp and superstition.  :)


Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Something to Celebrate: No More Medication

I realized I hadn't posted today, but I wanted to. The most important reason to post something is because I officially removed my daughter's medications today! Woo! Let me say that this has been a very long and slow process, lasting several months longer than originally planned. And to be honest there is no telling for sure what will happen in the future. But when you consider the minuscule amount of medication she was on in recent weeks, and her being seizure free for almost 2.5 years now, I feel like we have something to celebrate. In fact, this is probably one of the few things I TRULY care about.

So I'm having an impromptu dinner with my parents tonight, which actually wasn't planned because of the medication thing, but it happens to fall today when we spontaneously decided to go for the medication removal. In truth, we can't really go any lower on her medication without removing it. It's so low that we have to add water to it for her to drink it easily. It's like 4-5 drops.  I recognize that this is a big step, even though she has been on such a tiny amount this year and has had no seizure activity, and we're addressing the issues which we believe triggered the seizures, but with these sorts of issues it's still very scary. So I'm trying to respect my nervousness on this topic but also be open to it.

These cards are interesting. I got 'Fire' which is a sort of intense but vague card. It can mean passion for better or worse. The connecting cards are important. Actually the original card I was going to post was 'Firecracker' which means excitement. This trio is appropriate, though, I think. 'Jug' and 'Fan' are definitely party-like cards. There is a certain excitement but relaxation indicated. Maybe the fire is literal grilling which we'll be doing.


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Colorful Visions of Happiness

I found this charming high resolution desktop background on Wallpapers Wide. There are some nice desktops on there. Anyway. I hope the people there don't mind me using this image in this post. I guess if they do I'll take it down. Oye. I just couldn't resist this colorful guy to announce today's post.

I decided to go ahead and come out of hiding, even if only a couple times a week. I do miss posting, even when I don't really feel like it THAT much. Funny, right? I guess it's not that funny, but that's why I'm here, yo. Thank you for your patience and general awesomeness as I fumble headlong into another day.

I asked what was happening in my life that I wasn't fully aware of. I got 'Happiness' and 'Great Happiness'. Strange. Not what I was expecting, to be honest. Perhaps I am not honoring the happy moments in my life. That could be a strong possibility.

Well, I hope you all have a good evening.


Show and Tell: Painterly House Touches

Click for the full-sized pic

Here's a collage (mediocre but I got really sick of dealing with it) of some of the wall art I've done in the new house. It's taken out of context and looks a bit strange all together but I've enjoyed doing it, anyway. I apologize for the size of some of these images--you can't really get a good feel for some of them. Ah well. Hehee. I guess you get the idea. ;D

Still have a lot of things to do downstairs--there's nothing on the walls and it's very boring, and hardly any furniture. But I'm sort of sick of it and I've been procrastinating (big time) on a portrait I have to do. I don't really feel like doing anything else artistic for a while to be honest. At least not painterly. Maybe making some things like candles. I dunno. Maybe not.

I'm still feeling grumpy and in a funk but I'm trying not to push it. I figure that there's a reason for these moods and I simply have to work through it. If not, then I guess I'll grow a beard, live under a bridge and eat children that walk over my bridge. So be it!

Have a lovely week, folks...


Monday, May 7, 2012

May Divination Hiatus

Hi Dears,

I've decided to take a (for real) divination (blogging) hiatus.

After several weeks of lackluster posts (at least I felt lackluster when writing them) I've decided I'd like to focus on something else for the rest of May.

Of course, I am still planning on reading and commenting on your blogs so I won't be totally out of touch.

Hope you're all having a good May so far. I want to make more of an effort to make mine go well.


Despite the Evidence, Signs STILL Point to YES...

Thanks to seeing this lovely gem on Sharyn's site, I used a random, single card topic and then found the corresponding card in the Granny Jones Tarot. Thanks, Sharyn!

I performed a single card draw on the topic of whether my parents would be able to stay here in town or whether they'd have to relocate. We really WANT them to be able to remain here but time is running out and my dad needs to find a job.

The draw I did the other day seemed glowing, but today yielded another rejection in the interviewing process. What is next? I have no idea, and obviously neither do they.

Nevertheless, the draw was once again positive, so we'll see, won't we? I love the snuggly image of the couple and their animals in front of a fire. The key words of peace, security, stability and family all seem important here.

Regardless of what happens, I want my parents to be well and happy.


Saturday, May 5, 2012

Tarot in the Dark: Vase & Owl

Oops. I wrote 'Advise' instead of 'Advice'...whatever.
I haven't done this segment for a while so I thought I'd dusk off Ye Olde Tarot in the Dark, even though it's inappropriately light outside, but hey, that's alright. :)

In any case, I pulled these cards last night. You can't see them very well in this small photo so I captioned them. They're 'Vase' (left) and 'Owl' (right). The subtitles read:

"A secret admirer."

"Advice from a wise person."

I found this to be a strange combination, but maybe not. Technically, all of these combinations are kind of strange and thought-provoking, which is a large part of why they're so fun.

I wonder if someone older and wiser, someone who likes me or likes something I do, is going to give me some advice to help me along in a creative or other capacity? I am not sure but I wonder this. Either that or something very literal involving owls and vases will happen. I'll try to let y'all know.


Thursday, May 3, 2012

Job Interview Results? Stay Tuned...


So far the news is still not good on the job front. My dad received yet another rejection. There ARE a couple of other possibilities that have come up, though. Not sure if either are viable ones yet, but we'll see.

So without going into it yet again, I will say that my folks are playing the waiting game when it comes to my dad's job. He knows he does not have the position he's currently in. Political B.S. and 'downsizing' as it were. Anyway. I found out today when I had my parents over for lunch that my dad has an interview for a position here in town. Of course I have no idea how many other people are interviewing (if the other interviews are any indication it will be quite a few) or anything else about it, but here are the cards I drew.

Don't they seem really positive? I hope this is true. My goal is to post an update next week. The interview itself is on Monday, I believe, but often it takes several days to a week to hear anything. Hopefully he'll hear something sooner rather than later. And I DO sincerely hope it is good news. They deserve it!

Much Love,

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

A Tea Leaf Fortune Cards Recommendation: Royal Ambition

I thought I'd post one last time before next week. I am feeling the need for another short hiatus.

I've still been in a funk. Low energy, slightly sick, just feeling completely directionless and uninterested in anything. So I decided to pull a couple of cards regarding that mood. I was wondering what I should do.

The two cards I received were 'Lion' and 'Throne'...strange, right? It's almost as if it's saying to act like a Leo. Active, fiery, authoritative. Sounds pretty opposite how I'm feeling. I suppose it makes sense to do the opposite of whatever isn't working. Well, maybe not always the opposite, but certainly something different.  As we've all heard, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. I guess we're probably all insane. But isn't that also (kind of?) the definition of persistence? Doing the same thing over and over again? Well. Whatever.

I will try to take the active, fiery and passionate aspects of these cards and put them to use. Of course, in order to do that I have to wake up from my fugue.

Wishing you all a wonderful rest of the week and weekend.

Leonine Love,

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Sunrise: Boosting My Self Worth Through Creativity and Newness

The topic of today's post is my feelings of self-esteem and self-worth. This is something I've struggled a lot with. I'm sure many of you can relate to this, even if it's only in a couple of areas. This is a problem that is definitely insidious; it's hard for me to break free from it and it comes up so automatically.

Where did this come from? Well, I could speculate until the cows come home but I doubt, for the purposes of today's post, that it'll do any good. Plus I don't feel like typing that much. I loved the message I got in response to my question, don't you? In order to stop kicking oneself, we have to look forward to new opportunities and new ideas. What else is there? To dwell on perceived failures is just not productive from any standpoint.

This card's message reminds me that every day that I wake up is a chance to do something new and fresh, even if it's only on a very small scale. I don't have to BE and DO everything that I guilt myself into doing and being. Or even any of it. But latching on to the sweet and inspirational newness of an idea or venture is very invigorating--and I miss that. I want to recapture that feeling, and actually appreciate it.

Hope you all have an especially fresh and creative May!