Bored and Back: Become the Master You Seek

O.K.

So I tried staying away...haha! I told you I'd be back sooner! But I decided to come back, at least a bit. May not post quite as much, or at least I'm sticking with my timed Internet visits. It helps me to manage how long I'm on the Internet.

I was lured in by a deck recently: Art Through the Eyes of the Soul Oracle. I've seen it that past several times when visiting the book store and I decided I wanted to buy it. I'm glad I did. It has been fun working with it. It's very mythical/archetypal as it uses various wisdom traditions in each card.

Today's card is 'Master in Tibet' - Become the Master You Seek. I like this card a lot. I got it recently with another card and today I got it again. This card is about finding wisdom within rather than always relying on external sources. Being confident in your abilities and gifts is another important message of this card. This is a good one for me. I often wallow in insecurity. I need to develop more mastery, especially as I get older. I don't want to feel this insecure ten years from now! Anyway.

Here's a quote from the card:

"What you search for may not be what you find. Realization that the power of the universe is within you, is the fulfillment of the quest."

This reminds me a lot of what I've been reading in Deepak Chopra books. I got one at the same time as I got this deck when I went to the bookstore recently. The book I got is called, 'The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire--Harnessing the Infinite Power of Coincidence.' Basically it's about the two modes of existence: local and non-local. And how you can break away from the limitations of the local mind and tap into the more universal mind. That's a pretty crude explanation and the book is very well done, but you get the idea. The card also talks about being actively engaged in your development, using your own gifts at your disposal. This is another thing that I was reading in the book...it gives lots of advice and exercises on how to interact with opportunities that arise synchronistically. I like this! I try to do this in my life, but I think there are many times where I allow anxiety to get in the way. One of my goals is to truly differentiate between my fears and my intuition.

My husband says he knows when I am intuiting something. He says my information is calm and persistent in this state. When I'm stressed, anxious or centered on something else, the energy is frantic.  This does go along with what I've noticed as well. The problem for me is that my over-riding anxiety and intensity often diminishes what could be a more powerful flow of intuition. Perhaps on some level I am trying to escape this information that's coming in. Maybe it's a kind of culpable denial. Anyway. It is something I am really working on right now.

With that, I am going to leave y'all to your day. Hope all is well.

Love,
MM