Monday, June 10, 2013
Vacation and Feeling Safe
This is an interesting combination. I pulled these recently (maybe a few days ago), and they pertain to a short vacation we'll be taking next week and possibly the week after that, depending on what we can schedule. What they brought to mind is how tense/nervous I get while traveling at times. First of all, I'm not always sure how my daughter will do. With some lingering sensory issues and some ADHD as well as mood issues, it can be unpleasant at times (and sometimes just downright impossible) to travel.
Then, on top of that, I have my own sensory issues and anxieties. I belong to a family (who I adore, mind you) who loves to share food and drink and the like--and I have a bit of a germ phobia (well, at least where sharing body fluids like saliva and blood are concerned). I just don't share their enthusiasm for that. I feel like my personal boundaries need to be stronger, and it just makes me nervous. Anyway, it's not something I usually talk about on here.
So, all of this, including financial concerns, makes me nervous to travel, but at the same time I really want to break outside of my usual routine and also see people who I don't get to see very often. Part of how I mitigate this stress of visiting family or friends is by booking a hotel for the night or two that I'm visiting, so that we have separate space to retreat to if we're overwhelmed--if my daughter is a bit fussy or overstimulated, or also if I am. I just prefer having my own space, even if it costs extra money. Ever since I was a kid I remember a feeling of just wanting to get away from the hubbub, the noise and chaos. I'm just very sensitive to sensory stimuli.
I think everyone experiences some degree of stress when traveling, or visiting, and it just depends on their particular issues or relationship with their family. I recognize the need to make plans in order for us to feel safe as well as less stressed. That's what I saw in these cards.