Thursday, October 31, 2013

Third Blog Anniversary Giveaway Results!

Whew! I'm a day late and a dollar (or six) short with this announcement.

The winner of my third blog anniversary giveaway is...


Congrats, Thalia! I peeped over at your blogs and I am going to have to do some reading soon! You look like you have quite the quirky sense of humor and good taste in music! ;)

To get your reading, simply e-mail: MagicMentha (at) and I will furnish you with a selection of decks to choose from for your reading.

Happy Halloween/Samhain and Day of the Dead tomorrow. 

Much Love,

Monday, October 28, 2013

Exiting the Cocoon: Making Progress

Here are a few cards I pulled yesterday. These cards pertain to a question I had regarding taking some tentative steps out of my divination cocoon. I've always been very careful and nervous about discussing divination with the public-at-large. I don't like to be vulnerable about such a reviled topic. People can be very opinionated about tarot readers. I can understand why it's a difficult topic to broach. For that reason I have really kept it quiet for the most part. Occasionally I will mentioned it, and as time goes on I am trying more and more to let go in this respect.

I was talking to my husband about this recently--that I have an unfortunate tendency of throwing myself out into the world only to nervously scoot back into the 'safe zone' where nothing fun or exciting ever happens and I'm living in fear of what other people think of me. I have kept up this dance for a long time! I know some of you can really relate to this. I feel like the things I am interested in are often unpopular with the general population: alternative health, divination and the arts. I mean, I think a lot of people adore these things, but there are a surprising number of people who really look down on them. That isn't to say that this is an excuse not to express these things! It's just that I am overly sensitive and I need to just jump out of that cocoon, burn it and not hop back in.

Anyway. Back to the cards. I feel like these cards show this process. There's the card of Understanding, showing a kind of mini revelation. The Conclusion card, also quite self-explanatory, marks the end of a chapter--hopefully the beginning of the end of fear and self-censorship. And, of course, there's one of my favorite cards, the Success card, showing a diploma congratulating you for taking something to the next level.

It is tempting (very tempting!) to stay stuck in our personal ruts. I have no doubt I will slip up repeatedly in this process of being more self-assured. It will be painful at times, but I am going to keep trucking along at my own pace and see how it goes.


Saturday, October 26, 2013

Magic Mentha Site Tweak and Readings For Sale Again

Greetings Y'all,

I edited my website today, tweaking the colors and images and changing the reading offerings a bit. It isn't exactly how I want it but it'll do!

For a while I stopped offering readings but now that I'm getting back into the swing of reading I wanted to keep them up on the site.

I hope everyone is well!


Death and the Devil: Letting Go of Negative Thinking and Other Bad Habits

So I got another cheesy tarot app for my phone. :) This one is the Crystal Visions Tarot. I admit I like it. There are some aspects of it that I don't like, but I kind of like the simple and soothing (yet colorful) art style. I have to admit that it has a naive quality to it, as if a 13-year-old girl drew it, but that's part of its charm. So here's a duo I pulled today. Death and the Devil. Haha! Kinda heavy.

What I came up with for this duo was the end of negative thinking. For me the Devil most often refers to any bad habit or negative spiral. I know there are other bad habits I have (caffeine? carbs?) but I'd say that the worst of all of my bad habits is anxiety and self-undoing.  If I am feeling really bad and in an anxiety spiral, then it feeds all of my other negative habits (not eating well, not sleeping well, negative emotional reactions) in a kind of all-out cluster of misery!

Something else that sprung to mind when seeing the Devil was letting go of my negative body image. That's another big issue that I've been thinking about a lot lately. It impacts my sex life in a bad way, and my self-esteem in general. Something to think about! I wish I felt comfortable lounging around naked eating an apple!

So. I am going to take this reading in that vein since this is an area I've been actively working on via affirmations and cognitive retraining.


Friday, October 25, 2013

Layers of Change and Taking Risks

Sometimes I'll do readings and they make sense to me on a deep level but it's very hard to convey why or how they are meaningful. Such is the case with some cards I've received from the wonderful Wisdom of the Hidden Realms app. These four cards are a lovely example. While they seem very different on the surface, in another way I see them as being connected, like pieces of a puzzle which end up with a picture of a personal journey of transformation. It's very painful to try to explain what they mean without sounding overly cheesy and goofy.

So, since I like doing bullet lists of things I will try to explain each card as I feel it pertains to me personally. I have pulled other very relevant cards from this deck but for the sake of sanity and brevity I am going to stick with these four.

  • The Cosmos--This card is about creativity. It is a fairly simple and straightforward card, which talks about working on creative projects. As an artist I can easily see how this would relate to my life. I feel that everyone is creative, however, so I don't find this is limited to artists. I feel like my rejected little artist comes by to remind me not to ignore it from time to time. 
  • The Sun Dancers--This card is about enjoying life and reminds me a little of the Sun in tarot. It seems to be about getting in the positive swing of things--allow things to be worked out in a really uplifting way--as if you're dancing your way through something. 
  • The Swan Queen---This card is a little bit like the High Priestess. This, along with the Sun Dancers, came up with I was asking about reading tarot more seriously as a professional label. I felt like this was a bit of a confirmation for me. This card recommends going within yourself for guidance, really relying on your own intuition. And also to be patient with things, which is always a good reminder.
  • The Phoenix--This is a classic death-like card, something in your life burning away to reveal something newer and more appropriate. This card is a reminder of how necessary it is to periodically blaze new trails in your life. I have known for a long time now that I need to break out of stagnation and ruts that have held me in place. I like a quote that I read from the card, which I am including below, along with a quote from two of the other cards:

I wanted to add to this post that today I took a risk. Instead of staying sort of small and quiet today, I decided to break out of my comfort zone a bit. I had my little Albano-Waite mini deck with me when I went to the coffee shop and I spontaneously offered to read for two of the employees who work there. I know nothing about them, just that they are friendly and I've seen them there before when I came to get a snack or coffee. Both loved their readings and thought they were relevant and helpful.

Then I walked down to the rock shop and did two more readings for two employees there. Again they told me how much they enjoyed their readings and that they love that I took the time to come by and read for them. All of them seemed genuinely surprised at how the information resonated with their experiences. I think three of the four had never had a tarot reading or had only had one many years before. I think taking this risk and having a positive reception was really comforting to me. Even though I know this isn't always going to be the case, it's still nice when things like that happen.

Now I'd like to extend this risk-taking into other areas of my life, with the creative projects mentioned above in the Cosmos card, and any other venture that feels good to me. I am not sure yet what form any of this will take, but I am staying up to the possibilities.


Wednesday, October 23, 2013

School Behavior Improvement Trio

I pulled these cards about an hour and a half ago while I was parked and waiting for my daughter to get out of school. I wanted to see if it would address my daughter's behavior and mood issues which seemed to be worsening recently (much to my dismay!) and I was pleased that not only did they obviously address the issue as evidenced by the cards received, but the reading was not negative, which I appreciate.

The first card is the Hierophant, which gave me the theme of the reading, about the school--showing the structure of a school and a learning environment. I actually removed all of the minor arcana from this cheapo $1 deck. I found they were very hard to read and I didn't even know what the suits were, they were so obscure. Plus there was no instruction booklet. The cards I liked were the majors, the aces and the court cards. So I left those in. They seem to give accurate readings.

I don't always use the phrases/positions mentioned in the cards. For this reading I was not doing a past/present/future, but this could be used that way easily. If I had to choose I guess I would select the present for all of these, as it pertained to a present issue that I am hoping to resolve.

The Heirophant has a really strange phrase for the present, which is 'learning to be a good neighbor' but when I thought about it, this actually makes sense for my daughter. Her primary issue in school, as mentioned by her teacher and observed by us, is that she gets very easily upset by everything and struggles socially because of it. The King of Cups in one of my previous readings in that topic gave me a hint as to this issue, but the positive cards around it made me hopeful that this issue could be mitigated or circumvented. In any event, learning to get along with others in a group setting is a big part of managing the emotional hurdles of school. Her teacher was pleased with my daughter's enthusiasm and her scholastic performance, but her mood and behavior needed some work.

Another confirmation card is my daughter's designated card, the Page of Wands. My fiery and moody little Sagittarian volcano child obviously needs support (as well as boundaries and structures, more key words from the Heirophant), and I am trying to be patient about this, even as I get tired of the crankiness, whining and behavior issues. I remember that a child needs time to evolve--we all do, but being a kid takes a lot of energy, and so many changes are happening all the time.

The final card seemed to be the card which was answering my question--which was my plaintive wondering about whether this situation would be resolved. I guess so, since the Star is about healing and hope. I guess I need to give this situation time and patience. I am trying not to be a control freak about it. I'm keeping in contact with my daughter's teacher and trying to let the consequences of her actions speak for themselves. Plus I am trying to focus on keeping things healthy with good sleep, nutrition and other essentials. My experience with my daughter has been that trying to force change from her is not fruitful. I have to present the information and then let it go, allowing her to progress in her own time, no matter how annoying or painful that might be in the present.

This week (although it's only Wednesday) was an especially bad behavior one, with my daughter getting several warnings on Monday and Tuesday. I dropped my expectations today, knowing that if I worry about every little thing my daughter does I am going to go crazy. I was pleased, at least, that she didn't get into quite as much trouble today, even though she seemed quite fussy when I picked her up, crying about losing part of her hair clip. Oy.

I do appreciate when readings seem to address my pressing concerns in a straightforward way.


Quandary Quad: Busting the Status Quo, Flying Free

Here is a pull from the somewhat intense Ghosts and Spirits Tarot (app). I really liked the feel of these cards. There weren't any cards that made me cringe, which is always nice. The cards I received were the 2 of Swords (upper left), 8 of Cups (upper right), Hermit (lower left) and 9 of Cups (lower right). I did not choose a topic when pulling these cards but since the Hermit has been a recurring card for work-related stuff, I felt it related to creative and career-related pursuits.

The first card drawn was the 2 of Swords. To me this indicates a balancing of ideas, a decision in the making. Often, the person knows what they want but have refused to make an official decision, to move beyond that original thought. This is certainly the case for me. I find that the 2 of Swords often represents a painful quandary, or maybe something we just don't want to look it (which is demonstrated in most decks as someone with a blindfold on). In this deck there is no blindfold, but the man appears to be blind and have opaque, unseeing eyes. He almost looks like a husk of a man--there seems to be a 'freeze' going on. Very little color or life is in his face. I feel like this is a really good visual representation of being 'on hold'. The brief description is about what you'd expect:

"You may be at an impasse, unable to break the stalemate that is paralyzing you."

Yeah. Absolutely. I have no doubt in my mind that this is talking to me! So, naturally, the next card felt like a suggestion to me. In fact, the next three cards, taken as a whole, felt like a really positive suggestion. The first thing I noticed about the following three cards are that they are upper number cards. Two nines and an eight. Something coming to a natural conclusion. Once something is done you can't go back. You can try but life will suck a lot when you do that. Things fall apart for a reason. That brings me to the next card...

The 8 of Cups is the 'leaving things behind in search of something meaningful' card. In the traditional image the cups are upright. They may still be full. You don't HAVE to leave but you want to. You want to be more fulfilled on an emotional level. That is one of the biggest keys to this card. It's not just leaving for the sake of leaving and change, but because you desire true fulfillment and joy. This particular version is more intense and dynamic than the more somber/reflective 8 of Cups, showing a man with a bag, walking away into the night in search of something. This dude (ghost) is galloping off with his horse--almost like a knight or maybe even the Chariot. There's an energetic feeling to it.

"You're treading water and need to move on. Break away from entrapment and allow yourself to be free."

When we go to the next card we have one of my favorites in this deck, the Hermit. This card is the positive side of being alone. Seeking out solitude in a freeing kind of way. In fact, the woman's arms being spread wide open has a kind of receptive quality to it. Receptive to wisdom and experience perhaps. I like that the two cards portraying women in this draw both have their arms spread in a motion of openness and freedom. That is what I associate that arm gesture with.

"It is important to unplug and release all the mental debris that may be rendering you fatigued and uninspired. Sometimes a time-out is just what you may need!"

This really speaks to the part of me which has been embracing my alone time. I no longer dread it. While occasionally I might miss my husband and daughter, I find it has been like a missing nutrient--one that I've been severely deficient in. I find myself appreciating the alone time more and more. I am able to hear my inner voice more--and not feel so crazed. I find that I am more able to honestly assess what I really want and need versus what I thought I wanted or needed but wasn't really clear on. I am slowly gaining clarity during this time.

That brings me to final card, the 9 of Cups. This is the wish fulfillment card! I love this. I always feel good when I see this card. It feels like a step toward true fulfillment, the understanding of my own desires and self. Again there's a sensation of freedom, flying...openness.  I feel like the sky is the limit, or that is the message that this card is emphasizing:

"Wishes do come true! You are flying high after overcoming obstacles that had prevented you from truly soaring."

Now...the hard part, which may not be nearly as hard as I think it is, is to break out of stalemate land with the 2 of Swords.  I've been vacationing here long enough and I have to say I'm pretty fed up with it! I am going to really work on contacting my true desires, ones based on happiness and personal preference and not lack, and use this current retrograde period to assess the situation and see how I need to move forward.


Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Pathway Spread About Financial Independence

I decided to use the Halloween Tarot and the lovely Pathway Spread to look at the concept of doing my own business. To me the 9 of Pentacles (Pumpkins here) often means a woman who owns her own business, or works on her own. I realize more and more how much I need this hermit-esque solitude, even in work situations. Whether I am working with other people or not I like to be able to go my own way or have a separate task that doesn't involve a lot of checking in with others.

The 9 of Pentacles shows the situation, which makes sense because of what I just mentioned.
The Fool represents what to do: trust, take a leap, be open, etc.
The 9 of Swords is what NOT to do. Don't worry! Yes, keep that anxiety under control.

That is all for now--my daughter is bugging me.


Monday, October 21, 2013

Birds and Key: Communication Solution

Happy Mercury Retrograde! Hah! You have the dubious honor of partaking of this great period of time, eh? :)

Anyway. I decided to go back to Lenormand a bit. I still intend to post some pulls with the Ghosts and Spirits Tarot App, since it's so ghoulishly delightful, but I decided to do another of my Lenormand duos for my own learning pleasure.

I wanted something I could confirm within one week, so here is the allegedly confirmable pair I pulled on this day. We have Birds and Key. Because Birds represents a kind of communication/speaking energy and the Key represents solutions and a go-ahead, I felt this showed communication solutions. I found this a little strange for Merc RX, considering that this is a prime time for snafus in the land of communications, but at the same time it's also a great time to clear up any misunderstandings. So I can see how this could go either way.

Let us head over to and see what they say about this pair:

Birds + key (33): good communication, promising connection

Alright. So that's pretty much what I assumed it would be, based on the card meanings.  The reverse meaning, surprisingly, is actually a bit different:

Key + birds (12): power couple, important phone call

POWER couple? Hahaa. For some reason this struck me as really funny. I imagined a husband and wife in power suits with portfolios and the like. The important phone call seems more likely. I hope it's not a BAD important phone call. Well, when I pulled a clarification on this duo I got the Sun card, so that doesn't seem bad. The Sun is usually good news.

Well, then. I will try to update this within a week to see if I can pinpoint what this was about.

Much Love,

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Self-Employment: Avoiding Familiar Pitfalls

Oh Gosh...

This app has terrible image quality, hence my decision to make the image smaller (and mess with it a lot in, but that didn't help much), but I admit I am still enjoying the pulls I've been getting.

So here is a card that I got when I asked what I should be working on. It really resonated with me, like a tuning fork. One thing I've learned about myself over the years is that I prefer to be self-employed. Even if what I am doing doesn't make very much money as a conventional job would.

What I have to do is to figure out is how to put myself out there job-wise, and do it joyfully and without insane expectations. That's always a challenge with any venture, but I think that I've realized I just need to focus on the enjoyment of the venture--whatever it is--and not obsess over the financial aspect of it so much. I think my ever-present mistake has been in putting my focus in the wrong place, and placing a lot of negative feelings into things which should be at least somewhat enjoyable.


Saturday, October 19, 2013

Lovely Card Alert: Hermit

Ghosts and Spirits Tarot App

Top row: High Priestess, The Star--Bottom row: The World, Queen of Swords

With the recent paycheck, I decided to splurge a bit and buy a couple of tarot/oracle apps on my phone. One of them was pretty cheap (this one) at $3.99. This is the Ghosts and Spirits Tarot by Lisa Hunt. I asked my husband to help me find an interesting tarot app and this is the one he chose! Now, ordinarily this may not be my first choice but I found I love it! The imagery is really spectacularly energetic, colorful and macabre, but also has some very mellow pieces of artwork in it. I highly recommend it! I may even get a copy of the real deck. There are titles, but I cut them off in the image above so I could easily fit as much of the artwork as possible on the card.

The descriptions have a little story/fable that goes with whatever the image is, along with a short explanation. Like so, but excuse the cut off title/various parts:

Anyway, I am going to use this deck this coming week since I like the October flavor it has. :D


Friday, October 18, 2013

Set Your Sights Higher

Excuse the quality of this image--a bit grainy in parts. I got this cheesy/goofy Magical Mermaids and Dolphins app on my phone, just for the heck of it. Here's a card I decided to post for today's full moon. I admit I often lower my standards, or don't even try. Maybe this is giving me a little push to try harder, reach higher.

Hope everyone is well!


Thursday, October 17, 2013

Bouquet & Tree: A Gift of Good Health

Here is a draw from yesterday.

Recently, I felt the tight grip of seasonal colds loosening. After well over a month of being sick back and forth, we are starting to see things clear up. When I saw this duo and then looked up the possible pair meanings I saw the phrase, 'Good health' and I have to say I was very hopeful, but detached. Hah!

Now that we're more than a month into the school year I am also growing accustomed to that, though I admit I hate getting up so early in the morning and having to be somewhere early. Not my favorite thing. I am not a morning person whatsoever. I try to go to bed earlier but it's still a bit of a struggle feeling decent about being up and about at first light.

I have to go soon to get my daughter. The latter part of this week has the kids getting out at 12:45pm due to parent-teacher conferences, so I don't have much time.

Much Love,

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Rest of 2013 Focus Reading

Haha! Chloë told me she liked it when I added leaves and natural objects to the readings, so I gathered up a few and I realized how ridiculous and over-the-top the items I had chosen were, so I opted to do something ridiculous and make a face! Less is sometimes more...hahaa! The pumpkin-like things are actually a sort of ornamental eggplant from an autumn bouquet I got last week. ANYWAY!

This duo is supposed to represent a simple focus for the remainder of 2013. We have Bouquet and Ring. Here's one possible interpretation, care of

Bouquet + ring (25): happy marriage, good contract, proposal

Or, switched:

Ring + bouquet (9): engagement, proposal, happy agreement

Basically it means the same thing. Making some sort of pleasant contract or connection. I'm already married and I would say that I have a happy marriage, but I wonder what (if anything) else this might be referring to? Maybe there's a situation I could find myself in that would be a positive agreement?

When I finally decided to do a clarification I got Man, which made me think it might be about my  husband. Then I had a flash that maybe it was about my husband's job. He's been in the beginning processes of looking for a new job. Maybe this is what this is about.

Well, I will think on it some more.


Parent-Teacher Conference Outcome Reading

UPDATE: I meant to update this yesterday! Anyway. The parent-teacher conference wasn't too bad. It wasn't quite as glowing as I had hoped, but it wasn't too bad either. Overall my daughter got good comments, but she does have trouble with emotional reactions and interactions (King of Cups, perhaps?) and that was the main problem that she had--getting easily upset and offended, feeling emotionally overwhelmed or bothered/fixated on things. But in terms of academics and enjoying school and the like, she is doing quite well.

Using the Ator Tarot app on my phone, I decided on a whim to pull some cards about today's parent-teacher conference with my daughter's teacher. My husband's appointment slot for this conference is in 2.5 hours. I just wanted to see how things looked.

I liked the confirmation of seeing my daughter's card (Page of Wands) as the first card I pulled. That lets me know it is about her. The second card was the 4 of Wands and I thought, 'Nice--that's a pretty positive, stable card, indicating early success.' Then I pulled another card and it was the World, which is about moving on to a higher level, evolution, maturity. Not bad!

I did one more card just for the heck of it and I got the King of Cups. I wasn't quite sure what this could represent. Did it represent emotional maturity? Emotional repression? Was it something about my husband while he attended the conference? Anyway. I am not sure but overall I got a good feeling from the reading. We are a touch nervous because my daughter did act out some in the first weeks of school and we don't entirely know how she's doing, although we have some ideas from what has filtered through. Then again, the entire class has had some adjusting to do. This age group (for my daughter's teacher) and this school is all brand new.

I will update this post in a few hours when I find out how it went.


Helpful Husband, Parent-Teacher Conference

When I saw this trio today I thought of my helpful husband. At first I only pulled two cards: Man and Garden. This combo I read to be a man out and about, a famous or society man. But that didn't quite feel right to me. It seemed like it might be more literally referring to a garden. My dad is big into gardening, as was his dad. But I wondered if this was about my husband helping with something in the yard or garden. Then I decided to pull a third and final card and received House, which made me think it might be about help around our yard, house and garden, and home in general.

I added the leaves because he's already been doing a lot of raking, but mostly to form an impressive pile that our daughter can jump in and destroy. :) Another thing that this pull made me think of was my husband meeting up with my daughter's teacher at the school today. This week is parent-teacher conferences and it was more convenient for him to meet up with the teacher on his way back from work. I know this doesn't necessarily fit the traditional meaning, but there's the man (my husband), and a building where they'll meet, and the garden part made me think of the school because the school is a Waldorf school which is very nature-based and they have a large garden out front because gardening is a big part of the actual curriculum for each student.


Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Clover Mountain: Blocked Luck, Delayed Luck

Update: I thought of another possible meaning: luck with my daughter's school. The school's name starts with 'Mountain' so this could be a literal description-- I have seen that happen! 

I got bored so I decided to post. I have to go out somewhere with my daughter but I thought I'd share this image anyway. I know it's a geranium leaf and not a four-leaf clover but what the hey. :D

Much Love,

Monday, October 7, 2013

Blog Hiatus: I'll Return on October 30th

Repeat Message: Letting Go

Here are two separate draws from different decks, both pulled today--the River Queen is from my Wisdom of the Hidden Realms app and Letting Go, Steeping into Silence is from the Gateway Oracle. This looks very similar to a draw I did the other day which mentioned letting go and patience.

Here is a quote from the River Queen, not just for me but for anyone else who might appreciate its message:

"You will travel far as long as you let go and let flow, even maneuvering around the greatest blockages like water streams around big boulders. No obstacle can hold you back now if you're willing to surrender to the natural flow of events. Be easy on yourself and others, and watch how smoothly you move forward. You be be surprised where the river takes you."
For me, the idea of letting go seems wimpy and uber-passive, lazy on some level--like a new age cliché. And it is in some ways, but in other ways it's really a timeless and wise thing. I am going to try to really embody this advice and see where it leads me.

Love to y'all,

Mountain and Sun: Eventual Success

I pulled this pair of cards and the meaning seems to be 'eventual success' or as says:

Mountain + sun (31): success finally occurs

The reverse order meaning is pretty funny. I had to laugh considering my daughter is named for a volcano:

Sun + mountain (21): delayed success, volcano

I guess this is generally good--although Mountain does represent a slow change, something taking a long time to come to fruition. I guess my patience and letting go cards of late will have to be applied in this case.


Sunday, October 6, 2013

Sunday Duo: Business Venture and Debt Paid Off

Here is a duo that I pulled with my husband a bit ago. We're both laying low in the study, waiting for our daughter to wake up. I'm glad she's resting now. She has a stomach bug. Poor thing! She threw up a few times, then dry heaved. I gave her water to drink so she wouldn't dry heave again. I hope she feels better by the end of the day.

I am not quite sure what to make of these, save that they are both about financial stuff. When I saw these my husband set to work paying the bills. We have to put some bills off for the next paycheck. I feel so helpless and powerless when it comes to money things! One of my big goals is to do what this duo describes: to start an actually profitable business venture (what a thought!) and to pay off our debt and start some savings.

Perhaps I can really take some time, do some research and figure out how to make this happen.


Friday, October 4, 2013

To Let Go and Have Patience

Here is the duo I pulled late this afternoon. I didn't have a question, simply wanted to know the main themes going on right now. I received this sensible duo of letting go and patience.

I have to say that these two things are not necessarily my strong suit! But that's precisely why I should work to embrace them. I tend to be controlling, anxious and impatient!

So I will do my best to use these as my mantra for the month and the rest of this year in general.


Thursday, October 3, 2013

October Focus Trio

I decided to get out the Tattered Nomad Oracle and the three cards I pulled disturbed me a bit. Hahaa!! At first. My question was about what to focus on in October. But after reading about these cards a bit I came up with the phrase:

"I need to be honest about what I care about."

I think I am definitely lying to myself! I keep saying, 'Meh...I don't know what I want." But I think I know perfectly well what I don't and do what, but I am not comfortable making a choice (choice being another meaning of the snake card) and potentially upsetting others.

I also looked to Helen's Lenormand Dictionary for helpful clues:

Card 7 (Q♣): Snake General: !, problem, complication, betrayal, rival, traitor, jealousy, trouble, dysfunction, disorder, deceit, sabotage, detour, drainpipe, plumbing, hose, cable Location: bathroom, detour, winding road or path, scenic route, river Colours: green Health: large intestine, digestive system, disease, illness, disorder, side-effects, complications, STD Timing (houses): 7 years

Card 24 (J♥): Heart (love life) General: :), love, desire, generosity, compatibility, affection, fondness, preference, favourite, object of affection, happiness, passion, bliss, kindness, giving, sharing, compassion Location: central area, hub of activity Colours: red, pink Health: heart, blood vessels, organ transplant Timing (houses): August Timing (other): Friday

O.K.  When I see this list I also see some health stuff. The Snake talks about digestion, the intestines, etc. That is something I've been working on fixing. I have weak digestion and I need to be mindful of remembering to help it along by taking digestive enzymes, eating easy-to-digest soups and cooked vegetables, etc. I tend to feel rather off digestively and this sounds minor but it can be very distracting if it's ongoing.

Of course there's the meaning of taking a winding path when making a decision. It sure seems like I am doing that. One of the ways I am lying to myself is that I think I have to wait around for an answer to pop up. Like suddenly I will know, with 100% certainty, what it is I would just LOVE to do. Wooo!

The heart connected with the snake can be about betrayal, cheating, etc. I know in my heart (pun!) that this isn't the meaning for me and my particular situation. It feels more like a heart's desire, passion for life kinda thing. Hopefully it doesn't mean literal heart trouble, but anyway.

I feel that I often (very often!) hold back my connection and love to others out of fear and hesitation. It happens far more than I would care to admit. I feel like I am incapable of fully letting go in a setting where there are other people. Even my husband! I still feel embarrassed and insecure about myself.

Anyway...well, if anyone else has some ideas let me know.

Much Love,