Here are a few cards I pulled yesterday. These cards pertain to a question I had regarding taking some tentative steps out of my divination cocoon. I've always been very careful and nervous about discussing divination with the public-at-large. I don't like to be vulnerable about such a reviled topic. People can be very opinionated about tarot readers. I can understand why it's a difficult topic to broach. For that reason I have really kept it quiet for the most part. Occasionally I will mentioned it, and as time goes on I am trying more and more to let go in this respect.
I was talking to my husband about this recently--that I have an unfortunate tendency of throwing myself out into the world only to nervously scoot back into the 'safe zone' where nothing fun or exciting ever happens and I'm living in fear of what other people think of me. I have kept up this dance for a long time! I know some of you can really relate to this. I feel like the things I am interested in are often unpopular with the general population: alternative health, divination and the arts. I mean, I think a lot of people adore these things, but there are a surprising number of people who really look down on them. That isn't to say that this is an excuse not to express these things! It's just that I am overly sensitive and I need to just jump out of that cocoon, burn it and not hop back in.
Anyway. Back to the cards. I feel like these cards show this process. There's the card of Understanding, showing a kind of mini revelation. The Conclusion card, also quite self-explanatory, marks the end of a chapter--hopefully the beginning of the end of fear and self-censorship. And, of course, there's one of my favorite cards, the Success card, showing a diploma congratulating you for taking something to the next level.
It is tempting (very tempting!) to stay stuck in our personal ruts. I have no doubt I will slip up repeatedly in this process of being more self-assured. It will be painful at times, but I am going to keep trucking along at my own pace and see how it goes.