Tuesday, December 31, 2013

New Year's Eve Decisions

Happy New Year's Eve, Folks!

I have done SO many readings the past several days, and I guess this year in general, which is all fine and dandy, and I always get something interesting out of it, but there also comes a time where you simply have to jump into the icy cold pool of decision-making!

I've been getting lots of repeat messages of making a decision, focusing my efforts, not being paralyzed by fear or simply insisting on things being uber-safe. I get it! I get it! I think?

Not to mention, I've also read a number of articles and commentary mentioning the path and the journey being as important, if not more important, than the destination. Yes, that's right! I am spouting clich├ęs! Live with it. ;)

So, why be so precious about my decision-making? Before I know it, ten more years will pass and I'll be in indecisive no-man's-land. Or at least it will feel that way, so long as I look upon everything I do as worthless or wishy-washy. Time to change perspective and also direction. Or at least have any sort of direction, even if that direction is only a rough draft. In reality, all of our goals and plans are only dress rehearsals. The real thing is often not what we expect. And that's usually OK. Things rarely go according to plan, right? That is maddening. Yep, I know, fellow control freaks! I understand your pain. One of my recent mantras is:

"Surprise me in a good way."

Admittedly it's still kinda control freakish, but not as bad as I am a lot of the time, which is I don't want anything unexpected or stressful to pop up, even if it's good stress!  So. I am going to be happily doing-focused in this coming year, and much less about dithering. I can't promise NO dithering, though, so don't expect that. I'm talking to myself more than anything, here...

Sending you all warm and wonderful wishes for 2014,

Monday, December 30, 2013

2014 Reading: Travel, Inspiration, Health and Patience

I decided to do a reading going into 2014, and I opted to use the somewhat complicated Fortune Teller's Mah Jongg. I don't use this deck in quite the way recommended--I don't use the layout they recommend, but I use the key concepts for each card and sometimes use the pairings they mention. Nevertheless, I find it a thought-provoking oracle!

Just to keep things kinda straight in my head I will list each card and its basic associations:

  • Tortoise- Things are moving slowly, be patient. Health, longevity, wisdom, eventual success.
  • Fire- Danger, inspiration, burning up of resources, accidents
  • Heaven- Completion, followed by beginnings, fulfillment, achievement
  • Seven Stars- Hopes, good ideas (need follow-through), dreams and ambitions, next to Heaven it shows ambitions realized (woo-hooo), possibly connects to writing/literature
  • Water- Correspondence, travel, health and healing, with Heaven a sign of international travel (whoa, okay)...
  • Earth- Land, estate, moving, real estate, stability, fixed assets, following Water it shows travel to another country over water (? More travel stuff!)
  • Dragon- Luck, fortune, sudden fortune, gambling and risks, in the final position possible travel (it was the last card I drew)

Wow! Interesting. I noticed a couple themes. One of the biggest themes seems to be travel. This is interesting because this is something we've been putting off for quite a long time. We last traveled in either 2007 or 2008. Since then we have gone no farther than a few hours away--well, the farthest was six hours away, to the family land (my grandparent's ranch), but we have not visited family on the other side of the country or my Texas family, partially due to weird scheduling conflicts, largely due to financial reasons, and finally due to my daughter not traveling well AT ALL up until recently. Even now it's not exactly fun, but it's better than it was. 

Sometime this year we set about making a plan to travel in 2014, but sadly we have no money saved and frankly, as my husband put it, if we had more money we probably need to put it towards other things rather than traveling. Having no savings is not a good idea! There's nothing to fall back on. As it is, my daughter's dental visit with the filling she needs will set us back, and that's just for one filling.

O.K. Enough rambling. So there's the mention of patience, that was the first card I received. The Tortoise is about things happening slowly but surely. The Fire card is concerning--I don't like how it mentions danger. I will try to look on it as the 10 of Wands--marshaling resources, not burning out. I am not entirely sure, but fire as an element in divination often means inspiration and creative ideas, but it can also mean burn-out if taken too far or in the wrong direction. Always good advice!

Heaven plus Seven Stars talks about completion of goals, realization of ambitions. It isn't very specific, except that it seems to be about career/creative goals. From there onward it seems to just mention more and more travel stuff, so maybe it's a big hint to travel to see family in 2014. Maybe the Dragon can get us some free accommodations. ;)


Vault: Be Bold

I thought I'd come out of hiding a little bit early to post with the Graven Images Oracle App. This is a new app that I purchased recently, and I do enjoy it. I've used this oracle on-line before, and it's nice to have the app to use--very convenient!  

Anyway, here is a repeat card that I received today. This is maybe the third time in the past few days that I have received this card. I love the message of the card, which is that while things may be relatively calm and undisturbed inside a vault, it isn't very exciting. Hehee. Yep. I feel like that sometimes. I avoid taking risks or doing anything too stimulating because I don't really like the added stress--but with risk and stimulation comes satisfaction and fulfillment.

I feel that my task is to come out of my little vault in 2014 and take more risks. I've been playing it quite safe the past several years. And numerologically (if you believe in that, which I'm not sure I do, but I like to look into it, anyway!), I am about to enter a number 1 year cycle, which means doing new things, trying new ventures, and taking risks. As this 9 year cycle full of endings and culmination draws to a close, I checked back and saw when my last 9 year cycle began, and it was the year I decided to try to get pregnant, effectively ending my childless life, in 2004. The following March, early on in the 1 cycle, I got pregnant with my daughter. Back then I didn't know what cycle I was in or anything of the sort. Anyway.

Since my husband has been 'fixed', I don't think that I will find myself pregnant in 2014, but I may have to give birth to something fresh, new and bright. I hope that I will find myself enjoying the daring initiation of the new year, and new experiences in general. I want to be less lazy about taking chances, less fearful, more of the beginner's mind, the Fool in the Fool's Journey.

If you're able to get this app on your phone I highly recommend it. Or the deck itself, of course. Some of the cards are a little dark or dramatic, but overall they are well-written and not too extreme in their advice.

Love and a Beautiful Ending to 2013,

Thursday, December 19, 2013

New Beginnings and See Y'all in 2014

Hello Dears,

I am on the verge of getting sick (though fighting it off, I hope!) but I wanted to do a quick post. I think I may go on a little posting hiatus. I think I may return on January 2. You guys know me, I may end up coming back early if I get sick of being away. Mostly I am just paying attention to the weariness and stepping away from some of my usual things.

During this time away I will try to get caught up reading and commenting on as many of your blogs as I can remember to do--assuming my brain wants to go along. Hehe. I really miss catching up with everyone you all are doing. I've just been super tired lately. I think feeling this way is quite common around the holidays. Despite our best efforts we get sucked into the stress of it all.

Anyway. Here is a card I pulled from the app on my phone and I thought it was a beautiful card to focus on for the upcoming year. We all want to feel a fresh start to a new year, even if it's largely an illusion. Honestly, though, any day/week/month/year can be a fresh start if you make it so.

Lots of Love and See Y'all Soon,

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Contemplation and Decision for a Happy Life

Again I didn't feel all that motivated to post today, but at the same time I felt like it would be a good exercise for me, a way to get a little bit more focused. Here are two cards I pulled just now, using a couple of apps on my phone. Contemplation Time and Time to Decide. There is a similar theme with these two cards, especially when you read the descriptions (not shown). I've been seeing a lot of these kinds of cards show up in recent days.

I suppose these things have been on my mind more than usual as the year draws to a close and 2014 looms large on the horizon. So far I have zero plans for 2014, and I would like to change that. It's not that I want to be really intensely goal-oriented, just that I really want to have an interesting and worthwhile year, not one where I just float along aimlessly, without any care or passion. My tired, somewhat depressive feelings lately have indicated to me that it's time to make a decision about how I'd like to move forward in 2014. As each year passes, it becomes less and less about money or even life purpose, but more about being happy and involved in my life. I do think that making money and feeling confident are a part of this, though. What I have noticed about people is that over time they start to realize that their time is limited and they want to get serious about enjoying their life. I know, it sounds funny when worded that way. Haha!

So, I will try to take myself and my happiness seriously and take that time to contemplate and decide things for the coming year.


Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Smile and Uplift Your Thoughts

So I wanted to post something for today but didn't really feel like it. I've been rather tired and blah the past few days. Or maybe longer. Not sure. Part of the issue is that I haven't been sleeping that well. I think I'm in a bad habit of processing mental and emotional stuff in the evening. It's a pretty common habit, and I have to counter it with relaxing activities, baths, journal writing, or whatever else might help. I have to break the cycle of stress or worry mode. Along with that, as these cards suggest, my thoughts have been generally rather blah or depressive. Nothing horrendous or serious, just a feeling of malaise. Tiredness as the year comes to a close and not feeling particularly directed for the year 2014.

As I briefly touched on here on the blog, I may just allow this feeling of surrender and defeat--at least to the extent that it allows me to take time out to allow something meaningful to surface that I can pursue. But when I do this, I think I have to be especially mindful not to fall into bad habits of anxiety and depression, two common bedfellows in a fallow period. I would like this so-called 'quiet period' to be healing and positive rather than depressing and aimless.

So, I will try to take the advice given in these cards.


Monday, December 16, 2013

Holiday Time Give and Take

So I pulled a card from the Psychic Tarot by John Holland, an app I got not too long ago. Overall, I enjoy the artwork in this deck and the slight departure from traditional Rider-Waite imagery. In this case, I got the 6 of Pentacles. The color is more like a wands color, but that's OK.

This reminds me more of the 2 of Wands as far as the image goes, with a man standing on a balcony, looking out over two fountains over a pool with a path leading to some unknown horizon. But I guess the feeling that is being conveyed is more along the lines of satisfaction. It's funny, because I feel more like the 2 of Wands than the 6 of Pentacles, and this subtitle is more along the lines of the 9 of Pentacles or maybe the 9 of Cups, but no biggie.

The principle thing about the 6 of Pentacles is about the proper balance of give and take--and how important they are in our lives. If we swing too wildly in any direction, we may soon find that we have to compensate for that. I was thinking about this a little recently after spending a lot of money on party stuff and my daughter's birthday, and then giving a bunch of stuff away.

But when I thought about it, giving things away is not really a deficit. I often feel full in a way that you cannot get in any other way when I give things to others. It definitely fulfills a need that we all have--to give back. That's part of why I am volunteering at my daughter's school. Today is volunteer day, and even though it can be tiring and chaotic at times, I definitely feel like I am fulfilling some sort of internal, emotional vitamin deficiency when I volunteer. Ditto when I visit with dear friends or family.

Sometimes, though, the biggest deficit we have is in relaxing and letting others give to us. Not being tense, full of pride or otherwise blocking the influx of prosperity and caring from others. Proper giving and receiving are a gift to the world.

This card mentions giving back, although I didn't include that quote because I'm tired and lazy, but this quote here emphasizes the receiving part. I find the striving toward a common goal party interesting. I guess, for instance, in a school environment you are all working to benefit the mental, emotional and physical health of the children there, or really any group setting.

Anyyyyywayyy. I am getting tired of writing. Hahaa! I am kinda sleepy today. I had some coffee but it isn't really working. I am going to lay low for a couple of hours before I have to leave for volunteering.

Sending lots of goodness to all of you,

Thursday, December 12, 2013

A Dose of Love and Authenticity: See Y'all Monday

I am gonna take a quick blogging break (yet again, and apologies...I am wayyyy behind reading and commenting on all of your wonderful blogs) as the end of this week and weekend will be quite busy. My daughter's birthday is tomorrow and I need to get her a couple of gifts, make her cake, go grocery shopping for her birthday party on Saturday and then host the party. It will be good and I want to do it for her, but I have to make sure I focus and get things planned out, especially since my husband will be on call and has to be away for several hours on both weekend days, though he should be able to attend the party.

I am super, uber tired today. I keep waking up really early and can't get back to sleep. I may go back to taking magnesium and relaxing herbs every night (like valerian root) to try to get in a good space before sleep so I will be more likely to stay asleep. That and to avoid eating heavier meals later in the day, which I think is part of why I've not slept well the past couple of days.

Here's the card I got to post today. It's mega cheesy but I still think it's an important sentiment. In the description, it talks about removing any masks or mechanisms you've put in place to hide your true self, to be more open about who you are. This vulnerability is still pretty hard for me in some areas, and in other ways I'm not even entirely sure who I am. But in a general sense, I like the idea of being wholly yourself in the world. But in a way that is beneficial and loving as much as possible. I don't want to be a jackass.

With that, I will leave you all to your weekends. I hope everyone is well.


Wednesday, December 11, 2013

The Money Trio: Repeat Message Alert

I received this trio of cards today. I pulled from three separate oracles and kept getting this message. Normally there is some theme but this was more obvious than usual. Of course, I don't mind messages about an influx of abundance, and of course about money management in general, but this feels more 9 or 10 of Pentacles-y rather than 5 of Pentacles-y.

Wishing all of you much love and abundance,

Monday, December 9, 2013

Release and Embrace for December: Ennui and Defeat

I saw Neopagan Priestess doing a release/embrace spread several times recently so I thought I was due for another one! I just wanted to see what would come up as 2013 comes to a close.

So, what do we have here? I thought this duo was especially slumpy and hilarious. It probably is kinda accurate. I feel a little burnt out and lacking in motivation as this year draws to a close.

In the Release position, we have the 4 of Cups, which I associate with ennui, boredom, feeling like you need to get back in touch with what you really want and need. There are ideas and offerings but none of them sound quite right. This makes sense for what I have been experiencing over the past week or two. I keep thinking, 'Welllll, maybe I could sorta-kinda do that?' But it doesn't QUITE fit. Like a puzzle piece that is kinda close but isn't quite right. I prefer to hold out for the puzzle piece that fits. I don't like forcing things...I tend to regret it later. So, I think releasing this feeling of crappiness, or at least releasing a tight grip on the kind of 'blah' winter/creative muddle blues might not be such a bad idea.

In the Embrace position is the 5 of Swords. Normally when I see this in a spread it says 'give up!' It's time to give up the fight, let go...admit defeat! I think this is what I should do. Admit that I don't really know yet what to do in 2014, and that I can allow that quiet space around the holidays (well, when I mean quiet, I mean just creatively) where I don't yet have a master plan for next year but I'm gently and non-aggressively flirting with ideas. But...even that may be overkill right now. This card in this position makes me think I need to drop all of my swords and walk away for a bit to regain clarity.

Love lots,

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Take Time for Yourself and Be Back on Monday

Hey Folks,

I am having a busy upcoming weekend so I decided to take off from blogging until Monday. The holiday sale that I'm participating in (doing readings, selling soaps and solid lotions) has set-up and a reception tomorrow (Friday), and the sale runs through the weekend. I will probably not be there the entire time, but I usually stay for 4 or more hours on each day.

I have some work to do--I have to inventory all of my soaps and lotions, then label all of them accordingly. It isn't that big of a deal except that I feel tired and drained today, so I may have my husband assist me just to give my sinus-pain-addled/almost-got-into-a-car-wreck-today brain a rest.

I pulled this card from the Flower Therapy Oracle Card App I have, and it talks about taking time to yourself to relax. This sounds like a good idea, particularly with a busy weekend coming up. Thankfully my husband took tomorrow off to help me and so we can hang out together.
See you all on Monday.


Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Ace of Pentacles: Tangible Results

A quote from LearnTarot.com: 

Your ideas are ready to be turned into something tangible. Figure out what will work and make it a reality.

Monday, December 2, 2013

December 2013: Cash Messages

I wanted to pull some cards for December using the always marvelous Tea Leaf Fortune Cards, but instead of pulling my quad of cards (4, sometimes more), I decided to stick to two. I definitely got a common theme! At least there's balance...right? :) I both have to be careful about finances and also may be receiving some money. That sounds about right. December tend to be a high expense month for most people due to the holidays. And even though I don't actually do Christmas or holiday gifts anymore, I do still seem to spend money anyway, because I do things like holiday baking (though not so much anymore since I am trying to avoid too many carbs/sugar), and I have lots of family members and friends that are Sagittarius, including my daughter, so I can't help buy them gifts because I love buying and making presents for my dear friends and family.

Anyway...for my daughter I have to think about her birthday party, which falls between my two little sisters' birthdays exactly (Dec 6, 13, 20), and I have some of my daughter's birthday gift but not all of it. I tend to buy one or two slightly more expensive things (when I say expensive I don't mean REALLY expensive, I just mean more than 5 bucks), and then a few really affordable things, like something from the thrift store. I like to also buy from small businesses as much as possible. Thankfully my daughter enjoys a lot of things. We actually bought her an early birthday present the other day--a little weaving loom from a local store. She was so excited about it, thanking us profusely for it. It's so funny! I never know what will elicit that reaction from her or anyone else gift-wise. That's why I try to use my intuition during gift-shopping or making. It isn't always the fancy gifts that get the most appreciation. Sometimes it's just something that is especially interesting at the time. This loom was $14, which isn't too bad, and as long as she doesn't step on it and crack it, it should last a long time.

O.K. I went on a long tangent with the gift thing. Anyway. The 'Purse' card does make me think of the birthday and holiday shopping I do. I am glad we stopped doing Christmas presents, as it gets really insane with a large family to buy gifts. The most I do now is put a few things in a stocking for my daughter--but even that I am going to try to cut back on, because those small things can add up quickly! It really doesn't matter what you get. I remember being really happy to see a tangerine in my stocking at Christmas as a kid. I loved everything else, too, but the sweet taste of the citrus fruit was just as thrilling as everything else.

I am going to be participating in a local holiday sale and show this coming weekend (the 7-8th), and I am a little nervous about it, even though I've done it several times before. I always get nervy about things, even if I've done them countless times before. I'm looking at the weather forecast for the week and I admit I am not thrilled with it! It has been so beautiful and unseasonably warm this past week and now we're headed into the single digits, even into the negative temperatures in the evening. Ouch. I hope people still want to go to the holiday sale. That is Colorado for you. One day it will be 60 degrees and sunny (like today), and then two days later it's a high of 10 degrees and snowing.

I guess I have come to the end of what I wanted to say, so I'll wish you all a safe, joyous and productive month of December!


Themes for 2014: Family and Teaching

I pulled these cards on Saturday which pertain to the year of 2014. I was looking for some themes to latch onto and this is what I got. Actually, I admit I did this a few times. One time I got the 3 of Pentacles (a work project, job or other collaboration), and another time I got something else, but I can't remember what. I decided to do a pair of cards rather than a single card. These are the two cards I received.

So...what do these cards bring to mind? I guess for the 10 of Cups I immediately think, 'Family' and for the Hierophant I think of some sort of structure or institution, but most often I think of the Hierophant as being a learning environment or a teacher/student dynamic. Recently I received the Hierophant and it set off a train of thought about teaching art and intuitive classes. I was thinking about doing a kind of unofficial art therapy thing--where we do journaling or journal-making, mandalas, dream interpretation art, Day of the Dead and honoring ancestors, that kind of thing. Something with a psychological and intuitive basis. Nothing too confusing or difficult for people to get involved in--just something with an emotional element that might be enjoyable to work with.

I've done this sort of thing before, but not recently--maybe 9-10 years ago, before my daughter was born. I think I miss the dynamic of teaching, especially older children/teens and adults. I find, especially since I have been volunteering in my daughter's classroom the past couple of months, that I still feel out-of-sorts when around younger kids as a group. It doesn't mean I don't like them, just that I prefer to teach older kids and adults. The things I like to teach take some patience and focus, which kids understandably don't have until they are older.

So, this is something to think about. Perhaps I will find the balance between teaching and family life in 2014.