Sunday, March 9, 2014
Insecurity Surrounding Money
Here's a duo of cards I pulled this evening, and it did make sense to me! The Base Chakra deals with survival issues, money, security, etc. The Devil is about money, materialism, sometimes greed. etc. Recently, I spent a butt load of money on supplies for my bath and body stuff, and unfortunately I don't know if I'm going to get that money back. It is frustrating to me, as I love making things, but often struggle selling them for many reasons. And, I kinda wish I didn't have to sell them if that makes any sense. I am torn on this topic.
Perhaps I need to have a lighter approach to finances in general. I seem to have a lot of anxiety around finances. I see my bank balance drop and it panics me. In the meantime, before I develop a healthier plan and attitude toward finances and saving, I am going to try to relax and also not spend much money if possible. I've gotten what I needed to get (and more!) and so I'm going to try to stop the spending now and not invest more money in something that isn't really making any money.
I have some nerves due to the upcoming workshops, and I wonder again if this will be yet another venture that I spend money planning for and hosting, and get very little back from it, including minimal sign-ups! That was the experience I had with it the last time I taught, 8-10 years ago. Oye. I just feel frustrated. So, I guess these cards express the darker and more basic side of my fear and frustration. I am going to try to latch onto the positive side of things, but also be mindful of what seems appropriate to do in the moment.