Friday, May 29, 2015

June Answer Deck Trio: Wisdom, Clarity & Strength

Here is my final pull for May, and my last pull for a month, since I'm taking my June divination hiatus. What a great last pull to post with this deck. I wanted a focus for the month of June, and here we have Wisdom, Clarity and Strength. Seems like a nice combination.  I'll have to see how I can apply them to June.

Wishing you all a positive and productive month of June. Be back later!

Much Love,

Thursday, May 28, 2015

The Fortunate Quad

Now here's a draw I nearly forgot to post today. And it's such a nice draw, too! In recent days (even though I haven't posted most of them) I've been getting readings showing abundance, opportunity and the like. Generally speaking, I don't try to expect too much from these readings. Like all of life, it's better just to allow it to come in but take the info with a grain of salt.

This card is (in part, perhaps) in regards to an idea I've been having about possibly teaching a few little mini art classes and workshops over the summer. Now, art classes are something I do periodically and generally on a short-term basis. And that's how I like it! I'm realizing there are scores of kids who are going to be out of school (including mine) and they might not mind having an art class for their kids to go to a couple times a week for a few weeks.

I've done this before, but with a younger group of kids. I'm pondering trying it with an age group of between 7-11. Maybe slightly broader. But I think I'm going to avoid the 'art for tots' thing, as tiny kids don't have much attention span and even though art is very important for people of all ages, I don't know if I want to do the corralling necessary for that.'s just an idea. I find that my mind and body enjoy the stimulation of things happening on a more ephemeral basis. I also have been of the mind lately that I want to release my nervousness around trying out things that come to me--even if I have no idea where they might lead. I might not even like them, but if I have an inkling of something I have to follow it in order to find out how I really feel about it.

With the exception of last year's funky portraits workshop (for adults, in which 3 people named Mary signed up--hehe!) I haven't taught much. Perhaps releasing my resistance to it is a good first step. I may also spend a little bit of time updating my main website, adding artwork examples or at least contact information for people interested in art tutoring or seasonal/rotating art classes.

So that's what came to mind when I saw these cards. I think the act of openness, teamed with a willingness to move forward in a way that feels appropriate, is a magical act.


Wednesday, May 27, 2015

End of May Trio: Love and Growth in the Home

For some reason I find this deck particularly satisfying to photograph, which is probably why I have posted with it fairly often on the blog. I'd guess it is because of the stark black and white images--they are very memorable and full of contrast.

I pulled these cards yesterday morning, and I thought they were an interesting trio. Yes, that's my steering wheel and no, I wasn't driving at the time. I was parked with the car turned off. I just find the steering wheel a convenient way to hold cards sometimes!

There are, as always, lots of ways to go with this, because I guess I saw, in a general sense, personal growth stemming from cultivating love and projects around the home. I'll be home, as I often am, but with my daughter, over the summer, and I hope to find new ways to love from that place. Also, if you want to get really literal you could say, 'Grow to love your home.' We're doing that--seven months into living here, we're finally doing the deeper sorting and organizing and decorating, and we're at the tail end of it.

My goal for the summer, hence my divination hiatus, is to work steadily on home improvements that I've been putting off since we've moved in. For instance, two dark, patchy gray rooms which sorely need a bright coat of paint. And the downstairs den which also needs a coat of cheerful paint. I don't like painting walls very much, but it does have such a profound impact on how a room looks and feels.

Speaking of growth, we're also going to be cultivating a veggie garden (the set-up of raised beds and compost bins being a gift from the previous owners), so that's a very literal meaning for the Growth card. Either way, growth is what's happening in and around our home.

Sending love to y'all,

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

June Tarot Reading Hiatus

**UPDATE** I've decided to come out of hiatus.
Hello Y'all,

As you all know, I like my hiatuses! Hehe. I think taking breaks from things gives us perspective and allows us to focus on other things for a while. I think the creative life cycle of artsy folks relies on this switching between modes for optimal functioning. Don't you?

So, for the month of June I am going to go on a tarot reading hiatus. Both for paid readings as well as blog postings. I'll probably still do readings in private for myself, but there you go!

If anyone is interested in getting a reading then now is the time, before I go on hiatus in five days. I hope everyone has a splendid June, and I will try to drop by some blogs and comment.

Much Love,

The Answer Deck and Navigating Confusion

This deck has such a film noir quality, doesn't it? In fact, I think this filter I used for the photo is called noir. Anyway. I'm tired and I already took melatonin (I scheduled this the night before) so I'd better make this snappy! Whatever you say, me!

It used to be that when I saw negative cards from this deck I would cringe, because this deck has a kind of harsh flavor and personality at times, but only until you get to know it.

This spread of cards brings to mind a loss (rain storm that floods a house, destroys it, then you have to be patient while something is built or other arrangements are made. You have to endure a time of chaos or confusion before things are clear and settled.) That's what I thought when I saw this reading. Of course I feel this is more metaphorical for me--in terms of a personal focus. I am in a searching stage, unsure of what is next but willing to navigate the labyrinth, in which there are many dead ends and numerous clues to follow.

I like that the woman seems calm and meditative in the last card. Even though she isn't sure exactly what she's doing, she knows clarity will come moment to moment as she quiets down.


Friday, May 22, 2015

Independence: Decide for Yourself

Hi Dear Folk,

Here is today's Self-Care Card pull. Independence! Definitely a good card to reflect on. I feel oddly brain dead when trying to describe what this means to me at this point in my life. I guess the obvious thing would be to point out that I can make decisions to change my life at any point, and that is one of the greatest things about being alive--even when sometimes we feel powerless.

I will be back to posting on Monday, using one of my favorites, the ever-charming, ever-dramatic:

...The Answer Deck!


Thursday, May 21, 2015

Revelation: Life Listening

This is interesting, and something I was thinking about yesterday. I do feel it helps to listen to what's required of you in the present moment, including where you're pulled to go. If you feel you have certain priorities (getting finances in order, taking care of a child, planning an event, etc), then you get certain undeniable clues that lead you in that direction. Life has a way of prioritizing, but also of directing. Sometimes life comes in loud and clear, and that is not always pleasant if the message isn't something we want to hear. Maybe we want to go one direction but it just isn't working out for whatever reason. Maybe the timing is off or we've chosen the wrong goal. In any case, listening to our lives is great advice. This probably shows up in different ways for everyone. I've been trying to learn to listen and observe, then act on those signals when appropriate.


Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Priorities: Clarity of Purpose Strengthens Boundaries

This is today's Self-Care Card. I find it to be a good companion card to the Boundaries card of yesterday. What I thought of when I saw this card is that I didn't find my own time and energy to be worth much, since I don't have a harrowing full-time job, and I'm not going to school or raising five children. I think that because I have a very nontraditional approach to projects and I only have one child that my time is less important than someone with that hectic, 'important' schedule.

But I realized how problematic this thinking is. For one thing, I'm denying and downplaying my own life and path, and I'm trying to guilt myself into doing things because I'm not as busy as a lot of people are. I also don't feel good about things that I might feel good about otherwise, if I had this self-honoring in place. I feel like this is one of the ways and reasons I've been canceling out some of my own energy. If you don't prioritize yourself, no one else will do it for you! That's an adult life lesson if I ever saw one.

I also feel I need to place more importance on priorities in general. What ARE my priorities? Do I even have any right now? I am sure I do, by default, but this made me want to take a closer look at my priorities, and see if I want to clarify them, to focus more on them in a constructive way. I've noticed that people who have good boundaries and priorities seem to have a more relaxed, focused energy. They seem to know what they want and take the time to do what they want. They still have stress, but they are more clear on what they want to be spending their time doing, so they don't waste time and energy feeling guilty about doing something in favor of something else.

Interestingly, yesterday I did a little exercise that I saw in a Michael Neill book, about giving yourself a few monthly goals. You don't have to stop at three, but when you know what your priorities are, you can fit the other things around them--making the biggest things your focus and letting most of the other stuff go unless it seems appropriate to work on other things.

Definitely thought-provoking. Wishing you all a positive day with priorities that match your needs.


Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Boundaries: Protect Your Precious Time and Energy

Today's card is Boundaries. This is a good one for everyone. In our day and age it's easy to be bombarded by information, people, and demands. We are constantly being invited to something or other, or we're being harassed via e-mail by companies trying to get us to give them our money. Or, we simply don't feel like we have a quiet moment to ourselves.

For me, I think this is, and has always been, most appropriate in the emotional sense. I've always been very empathic, getting too emotionally tied up in other people's feelings, situations and problems. It may not be apparent on the surface but I constantly think about other people's problems. This isn't helpful for them or for me. Because of this tendency of mine I often isolate myself for periods of time to recover. I'm getting to the point in my life, however, where I simply have to just set boundaries ahead of time, even though it makes me feel very selfish and uncomfortable when I do this.

I like people and I like being involved in my life. I don't want to be afraid of interacting with people. I try to heed the warning signs from my body and mind--when is something too much? When do I need some input from others? When is it just not appropriate and adds to the chaos and noise?

In any case, I love the image of this card. The woman contains her own universe. She holds it with a smile--with confidence. This is what I want. I would love to feel good about who I am, what I do or don't do, and have strong but flexible boundaries--where I can allow love and connection in my life without the messy feeling of entanglement. 

I like that my life is pretty quiet right now. I do think I want some things to work on--whether it's personal goals, or tweaks to my health and wellbeing, or good things that my family can do, financial goals, etc. There have been times in my life that were very chaotic, very stressful, and I admit that sometimes I err on the side of not taking risks, probably because of some of the experiences I've had, particularly with my daughter's health. I like that things are pretty slow and steady right now. I could easily point to several areas that need improvement, including my own energy level, but all in all I realize that I am in a pretty decent place.

Though I know that the only thing that's certain is change, I can, at least, be present and grateful while things are relatively calm, and be willing to seek guidance if things get stressful.


Monday, May 18, 2015

This Time Last Year: Release

I was in iPhoto looking through some old photos for some reason (forget why), when I came across this photo. I stopped and thought it was an interesting card. I felt drawn to it. I didn't remember posting it--I am fairly certain I have not used this deck on the blog. At least not very much? I saw the date the photo was taken: May 20th, 2014. Just about a year ago.

Looking at the back of the card it reads:

"Have a good cry. Grief is the doorway to your deepest self."

When I read this I realized that I rarely cry anymore. I just don't. I am thinking that there is some repression or avoidance going on in this area. Maybe it's contributing to emotional and physical symptoms on another level. 

I am going to pull one of these Self-Care Cards by Cheryl Richardson every day this week and just quietly (well, quiet since I am typing, not talking--hah!) reflect on what that means to me.

I remember the first time I saw this oracle deck. It was about 13 years ago. I was 23 years old, and I had just graduated from art school and I was working in a health food store (which I didn't really enjoy) in Aurora. A co-worker had this oracle deck and I loved it so much that I photocopied the entire deck on the work copier. That's 52 cards. And I then laminated them all with my little laminating machine. The copies were black and white and somewhat faded.

After that, I began putting a card or two in a gift, or tuck them in a greeting card sent to a friend, eventually whittling the deck away to only a dozen cards or so, which I still have. But I also have the entire deck, since I found it at a bookstore last year.

In any case, I am going to try to learn to let go, to release...even if that requires tears.

Have a lovely one,

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

The Garden and the Gate, Reversed

Before pulling this card, I was thinking about how much energy I have spent pursuing various goals. This venture and that, this person or that. I have been living in a truly outside in way, rather than letting things radiate from my center. I've been trying to fill a hole that can't be filled with people, places, things or ventures!

At the same time, as this card suggests, you CAN live a fulfilling life and have plenty of THINGS and money. But, when your focus has been very intensely on achievement, money and finding the 'perfect path' for you, you often miss things that are quieter, more dear, more gentle.

When I saw this card I did feel a sense of relief--of feeling ready to be less concerned with my various goals and more concerned with my sense of self on a broader level.

In any event, I hope you're all well. I'll be back in a week or two!


Monday, May 4, 2015

Bast: Independent Action and Playful Companionship

This card's image is on the cheesy side, but I like it. Go, cat lady! Haha. Anyway. This goes with my recent pulls about craving and creating solitude and quietude. When I don't do so, I experience prolonged unrest. It even impacts my health. This card talks about the balance between connecting and playing with others and the need to be independent.

I am going to leave it at that for now. I also plan to photograph the cards again--I've been getting a bit lazy about just editing pics from my oracle apps.


Saturday, May 2, 2015

5 of Spirals: Shadows, Sickness or Stress

The Five of Wands (in this deck, spirals) is one of the cards in the minor arcana that I get and I think, 'Meh!' But, it's really OK. It's not one which I'd describe as very uplifting, but every card has a helpful message.  Here are a collection of meanings I've come to see with this card:

  • Petty conflicts/minor arguments/bickering
  • Hassles/annoyances/PITA
  • Physical exertion/something a bit tiring
  • Competition (semi-friendly, but not necessarily relaxing-ha!)
  • Putting yourself into the fray (similar to competition, but it's like if you're vying for a job)
  • Infection/sickness (Long story, but several years ago I saw this card anytime an infection would pop up--it came to signify sickness. I've also seen this with another 5--the 5 of Pentacles.)

Now, there are several others, but I am feeling a bit lazy. Here's a good description of the 5 of Wands. When I look over the meanings I typed up then go through my mental catalog of the various meanings I've seen for this particular card, I think that any one or all of these could be true.

I like that this card emphasizes the mental/emotional aspect of the card, one that I sometimes overlook. Stress can be largely in our heads. Petty arguments can begin in the mind. Everything is amplified if we allow it to be. When we face our shadows we help dissolve them or, at the very least, understand them more fully. 

For instance, my husband and daughter have a cold that's going around, and I have not yet fallen prey to it (I don't think?) but I'm not sure because admittedly I felt not so great last week, so it's possible I was the first person to get sick. In any case, infection is relevant as a meaning, as is exertion--as it's been a busy week with various things to juggle, and tomorrow is May Faire at my daughter's school. Mostly, we feel drained and want to rest!

The last thing, which is kind of silly, is that this makes me think of the show we're watching...Once Upon a Time, based on fairy tales but rather dark. Maleficent was featured pretty heavily in last night's episode, and she frequently turns into a dragon. 

Sending you all a peaceful weekend,

Friday, May 1, 2015

Friday: Guiding Children

So, here's the card I got for today!

I guess it makes sense right off the bat, seeing as I'm volunteering today at my daughter's school and that's one of the meanings of this card. I'm going on today's nature walk. Hopefully it won't be a downpour during the walk!

Wishing you all a peaceful weekend,