Wednesday, September 28, 2016
I've had this blog for nearly six years now, and although I enjoy having it on some level, and I like being able to go back and look at some of the thoughts I had back then, I can feel myself losing interest in blogging! Maybe this blog malaise is temporary. It often is, anyway. It could be that I'm so bad at commenting on other blogger's posts, but I haven't had a blog comment for about 32 posts! In any event, when it comes to blogging, lately I've felt I'm just going through the motions. I want to re-invest my energy in something that really pulls me. I don't want to just do it to do it. This is what I hope to spend the remainder of 2016 doing. Whatever that is.
Monday, September 26, 2016
See the charming South American pouch I found at the thrift store from Cusco? I found it and my Tarot of Pagan Cats Mini deck fits perfectly in it! The box was falling apart completely and I needed something sturdy. Hrmm...trying to decide if I like this effect I used on the photo. It is a combination of a softening effect and one of the Prisma filters. Seems a little too murky. Oh well! It's not that bad.
As I drew three cards for October I decided I wanted to DO something with this information. I find that, too often, I'm very passive about the divination I do here. I mean, at times I will use the information as a jumping off point, but I admit I've gotten lazy about that.
And this trio is an especially warm and active trio, I think. The Sun, Empress and Magician all showed up to play. These are very creative and 'sunny' cards. What comes to mind when I see these? I guess the energy of creation, of bringing something out into the world. Making stuff, nurturing people and things along, and feeling empowered to do so. It's actually a very vivid and encouraging trio.
I'm going to try to actively keep these concepts in mind for the month of October, and the remainder of September for that matter. No need to cool down activity as the weather begins to cool. For many people, things actually become busier and more feisty as the year winds to a close and the holidays approach.
Saturday, September 17, 2016
From Biddy Tarot:
"His journey is undertaken because of a sense of restlessness and unhappiness experienced as the result of achieving all he has desired, yet finding those things to be less fulfilling than expected. This individual has chosen to forsake the familiar and the comfortable in the pursuit of higher goals."
From Teach Me Tarot:
"As he leaves his Eight Cups behind he is symbolically offloading his emotional baggage for they will not be needed or indeed welcome on the journey. He leaves them in a safe place for they are too heavy to carry and will slow his progress. One day, when he has journeyed sufficiently, he will return and deal with them one by one. He will be in a much better frame of mind to unpack all that his baggage contains. He will then wash his Cups in the Sea Water, returning them to their original clean and pure state."
From Psychic Revelation:
"The 8 of Cups often means that you will choose to leave a situation that is no longer working for you - whether that's a relationship, a job, or a neighborhood. There may be some sadness involved, but in general, this separation, is in your best interests. "
From Aunty Flo:
"This card represents less of holding on to the past as it is a fear of moving forward. This is something that you need not fight as really, where else are you going to go? Now is the time to seek the higher road for your own health and sanity. It is obvious when this card comes up that you have tried your best and you have taken the steps to make the right choices for you. In the end you cannot change the past and you must accept what is in the present. Our lives are not stagnant things and while the energy around you may be turning sour, it is up to you to save yourself from that around which is unhealthy or holding you back."
From Tarot Teachings:
"The phases of the moon in the eight of cups give a confirmation of the progress we make in phases of our lives. As we satisfy areas of our lives with timeless understandings required to be at peace - it's time to move on to the next chapter, and fulfill our destiny to move onward in a natural evolution."
I love this card, and I enjoy reading what other readers think of when they see this card.
Friday, September 16, 2016
A lot of the time, the most important part of reading tarot or oracle cards is the hopeful message they can impart. I can read them over and over again, giving me a healing focus and a place to center.
In this case, I pulled a few cards recently which had encouraging cards indicating a need for relaxation and personal healing. Something in this reminded me that all of us have unhealed wounds that we often ignore until they speak up loud enough for us to listen. As a parent, I often feel this with my daughter considering her medical history. She's doing so well now, but that anxiety that built up after years of struggle is one that is just under the surface, and gets triggered from time to time. I know this is something that every parent lives with, especially parents with children who have ongoing health issues. I am so grateful my daughter is doing as well as she is, but there are times when I doubt that I can move on from the experience I had with her, or I doubt her ability to learn and continue to grow (even though she's proven that she is incredibly tough and has done nothing but grow!) There is something of PTSD for all parents, really. We care so much that it hurts.
The cards I've gotten, and in particular the quote from the Broken Heart (reversed) card that you see on the bottom right, really resonates with me. I know that I have to continue to let go of my grief and fear. It won't help or serve me in any way. It doesn't protect me or my daughter. The Broken Heart (reversed) card says that it really is time to heal. It's past time! It's always time to heal. The Star provides the opportunity and the reminder of self-love.
The first quote (I forgot which card that's from, oh well!) speaks to the parts of me that sometimes find difficulty in moving on creatively or personally. It's about feeling confident in moving forward in whatever direction I choose. What matters more than anything in this case is that I feel pulled to the goal. That it feels good to me. It's not about being impressive or making money. It's about being self-honoring. I really like that phrase.
Wednesday, September 14, 2016
Sunday, September 11, 2016
This is not particularly interesting, maybe, but I found it a funny visually and possibly déjà vu-ish! This time last year, in early September, I pulled the duo on the left, using the marvelous Tattered Nomad Oracle by Shaheen. I posed it on my lap atop a paisley skirt with the phrase, 'Sick, Sad Woman' as my blog title. That was one of the meanings for this duo that I saw floating around the internet and it amused me. Then, recently, I pulled the duo you see on the right (which was edited using the Prisma App) again on a paisley skirt with the blog title, 'Stressed Woman'...hah! You could even add them together and get the sum of 'Sad, Sick, Stressed Woman.' Both could've been true! I have been down with a cold for the past week, but I wasn't too sad. Mostly sick. Then again, I guess I have been a bit anxious, though it wasn't so much about my cold. The cold actually afforded me some much-needed alone (Hermit) time. I admit I have noted, in looking back through my blog, themes coming up during different times of the year. Seasonal, cyclical themes and seem to come visit me annually.
Anyway. I guess that's all.
Saturday, September 10, 2016
I like card #1 in this deck. It's like this oracle's version of the Fool, even though this isn't a tarot deck. It does, in fact, refer directly to the Fool in the description, citing three versions of the fool from Ciro's tarot decks (see the image on the left) on the ground. This is the longest and most interesting description of a card in the deck, actually. There are two alternate meanings to the main meaning, but with similar implications. Basically, this woman is feeling vulnerable and wanting to take a risk, maybe taking a long time to do so, perhaps choosing between multiple options. It's that step before the Fool. Card #52 is a natural card to come after this card, so I liked getting these cards together. It's all about goals, direction and decisions. It feels very empowered next to the somewhat timid and vulnerable character in Card #1. But vulnerability is necessary in life, and so I really can relate to the feelings in this first card, but also the raw, directed energy in Card #52. All in all, a great combo! I find that taking action in a direction that pleases and inspires me gives me great energy and drive for life. That's something I hope to recapture in the latter part of this year.
Friday, September 9, 2016
I felt like blogging today, partially because I am still sick and I've been in an introspective mood. I've been thinking about alone time, so it's very appropriate that I received this card today. In fact, it's the very card I had in mind when I pulled the deck out, so I was very surprised to see it. But, these things do happen when the mind quiets down.
Originally, I had a host of social, familial and other such visits and obligations this past week. But...due to illness, we had to cancel them all, including my volunteer spot for walking yesterday with my daughter's class! Instead, I spent all day in bed, rejuvenating my body, mind and spirit. It started with missing my niece's birthday this past Saturday, when my daughter came back from Eco Week with a cold, and then on Monday it passed to me. This entire week's social calendar has been wiped clean by the presence of this cold. I felt awful because one of my closest friends has a birthday today but I can't see her and risk giving her a cold as a birthday present. Not only that, but my voice has been (mostly) gone for more than 2 days, emphasizing the hermit energy yet more! Speaking of Hermit energy (tarot major #9), today is 9/9, during Virgo season. Stop! Hermit time. Hehe. I made a sign explaining my predicament in case anyone tried to talk to me.
In any case, I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel as this week draws to a close. I still don't have my voice back, but I feel a lot better physically and otherwise. My sense of smell is slowly but surely coming back, and I might be able to taste dinner tonight. What a thought!
As you know, things often just happen to us and force us to (in my case, literally) quiet down and return to center. I've noted that I've been feeling nervous and, admittedly, a bit obligated, about all the social engagements involved in a community school, plus friends and family. It's not that it's bad stuff, it's just that sometimes I really do need and want to be a hermit. I'm not like some of my friends who seem to thrive on near-constant activity. I tend to avoid extra events on a social calendar. I like to streamline my life in that way. But, I admit that sometimes this makes me feel guilty or that I'm rejecting other people. This isn't really the case, I'm learning. It's just a different mode.
So, I love that I pulled this card and that I had this week to myself (despite not feeling well), and I'm feeling ready to 'get back into it' with a bit more calm and awareness.
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
Tuesday, September 6, 2016
After seeing it on various other tarot blogger's pages, I decided to pick up the Oracle of Visions by Ciro Marchetti at the Lighthouse Bookstore in Boulder. I was originally looking for another deck that they didn't happen to carry, but when I saw this one I decided it was a good time to get it!
I'm under the weather today--fighting a cold--so I'm not going to go into excruciating detail with my reading. The key words for this card are Time and Life. The card talks about the human relationship to time, and to use time to its fullest. But what does that mean to me right now? Well, honestly, I'm not sure. Right now, I could use the time to paint or do laundry or some other mundane chore. But what is 'best' or 'fullest' use is up for debate. For instance, the most 'useful' thing I can do right now might be to take a nap and try to recover from this cold.
Tuesday, August 30, 2016
The concept behind these Transforming Dragons cards is interesting. Each card focuses on a vice or block. I find this a unique twist in terms of oracle reading. I think there are a million and one ways to read with tarot and oracles, and this is an excellent idea! We often don't want to admit our issues. Sometimes just mentioning them gives us insight.
The cards seem to be highlighting the reverse of these cards as a suggestion. Instead of being prideful and not wanting to do more, try more, these cards recommend an openness, a sense of learning, a vulnerability and willingness. Learning and understanding are also the antidote to rigid, prideful energy.
I have to admit, this one was slightly offensive when I first saw it, but then I realized that we all get stuck in our own little paradigms and forget to open up to possibility, to learn and be available to change and new information. A good reminder.
Monday, August 29, 2016
Have you ever had one of those days where lots of little crap goes wrong and you are left feeling anxious and agitated? That is what today has been like for me. Even though nothing was too life threatening I felt this tremendous sense of pressure. So, I was surprised to see this card. I wasn't expecting the single card reading I did to actually be helpful in any way.
This morning when I was cooking my daughter breakfast before school she came to me in an agitated state saying that White, one of her gerbils, was bleeding from his ear down under his chin. She was worried what had happened to him. I was hesitant to look, not wanting to see this potentially gruesome scene, but I went anyway. Sure enough he had a bleeding wound. I watched him anxiously for a while. I wasn't sure what to do.
After some thought I heard a couple suggestions to separate our two gerbils, who have been together for 2.5 years since birth. But it didn't sit well with me. I even went and bought a little cage/play pen but I returned it right after, when I came home to discover the two gerbils curled up together asleep. I couldn't bring myself to separate them, as they are social animals. Plus, I wasn't convinced that the injury was a result of fighting. I wonder if mites are a possible cause, as I have never seen these gerbils fight in all the time we've had them.
Anyway, a few other stressful but fairly insignificant things happened, but I think the stress and pressure of worrying whether White's injury is/was fatal or whether I had done the right thing was weighing heavily on my mind. I'm a bit tense this week, also, because my daughter is going on a three day trip which she seems to have mixed feelings about.
All in all, I think I'm overthinking things. I think the advice given in this card about allowing things to happen in their own time, one by one, and not put undue pressure on each thing, is the best course of action. It's far better to not borrow trouble from the future and, instead, do each thing well and not just a bunch of things in a fit of frantic energy.
Speaking of which, I just burned my lunch (and probably scorched my only remaining sauce pan) that I was heating up because I forgot about it and I was distracted by these things I've been thinking about. Oy!
Now to follow this card's advice...
Thursday, August 25, 2016
Here is a trio I pulled yesterday from The Fortune Teller's Mah Jongg, a very impressive little oracle consisting of 144 cards, some of them repeats, based on the Mah Jongg game. I like that there are extras of cards, since it's a card game and it's made to have multiples of things. This makes it easy to see a repeat of a theme or message in an oracle reading.
I admit this deck was a bit intimidating at first. The readings they suggest are complicated, not unlike Lenormand readings with a Grand Tableau or whatnot. But, being a person who loves doing things her own way and who loves shortcuts, I often just use this as I would any other deck.
Each card has a meaning that can be impacted by the cards around it, which is true of most oracle decks, but this seems especially true with this deck. It gives examples of how different pairings enhance or change certain meanings. This is, again, not unlike the Lenormand.
In any case...I have found this to be a surprisingly simple deck for reading with, even given all that complexity I just mentioned. Over time, I've learned the basic meanings of the cards, but I'm sure this is something that could take decades to do well.
The basic meanings of the cards I drew:
Peacock-From what I understand, this represents an older woman. There is a young woman card too, which is the Peach. This can also be somewhat lucky (but not too lucky!) as the book states.
Seven Stars: This is a card about hopes and wishes, ambitions, fate, and other lofty sounding things.
Toad: This card is primarily about health and healing, but can also be a warning not to overreach your ambitions.
This trio came up in response to a query I had about what to focus on right now. My impression of this reading (which is highly personalized, I'm sure) is that, at this time, my main focus is family and my health, but that personal ambitions may take a back seat or even be too lofty at the moment. That doesn't mean I can't do them, but I feel like it's saying that my personal health and well-being trump that. This makes sense, as I was simultaneously wondering how I could bolster my physical health.
The Peacock made me think of my grandmother, who is living nearby with my parents, who I have been visiting a couple of times a week. She has very limited mobility and no short term memory (and is also very weak). I've been thinking about her a lot since they moved her back here about a month ago. She's 90 and I don't know how much longer she has. I know when my parents were out of town in Texas I felt a lot of guilt over not being nearby to visit my family, since care-taking for elderly relatives is a very intense and tiring affair, and my parents were very burnt out.
All that is to say that these things have been on my mind lately. Maybe a little too much---I can't think of much else. The Toad card brings the focus on physical health, which certainly applies both to myself and my ailing grandmother. I feel that this will transition into something else at some point, but at present, this is what has been in my thoughts lately.
Wednesday, August 24, 2016
Monday, August 15, 2016
I pulled this duo just now, to see what might come up. I looked up various meanings for this duo, and while many had promise, I ended up going with one that popped into my mind, which is medical news. The Rider brings some sort of information, person or visitor of some sort. Tower can be an institution/building/official/governmental establishment, among other things.
I guess I thought of this possibility since it seems to be a topic of interest today. My mom, grandma and sister were in town today (along with my dad and sister's BF to meet us for lunch), to see if my grandma's cast would come off after having been on her broken arm for two plus months. Unfortunately, the verdict is that it cannot come off. It was a very bad break, and if she weren't 90, it would have been operated on, but she is not strong enough to undergo such an operation. So, she will continue with the cast and/or brace. They were told that even a really young patient would have a long recovery from this type of break, and that it normally would require the aforementioned surgery.
Another possibility is my brother-in-law who has been in and out of the hospital for his ongoing issues. An even more mundane possibility is my husband going to the eye doctor this afternoon. In any case, health care of all sorts is highlighted!
Thursday, August 11, 2016
Here's another one of those readings I did yesterday, pointing to something ending and it being time to leave something behind. Of course, I'm not entirely sure what this means, but I think we're always undergoing little deaths and births and rebirths. My daughter's going to be back in school soon and I'm glad that's almost happening. Haha. Anyway...
From the Butterfly Oracle Cards for Life Changes, I pulled this card to post today. I did a few pulls yesterday, and I felt like 'Moving' and 'Leaving' kept coming up. No idea why, but there it is.
In addition to the most obvious meaning, which is changing residence, this can mean moving in other ways. Exercise, changing your scenery somehow (through redecoration or other means), etc. I think this works well as a general rule. Why not? We all need a change of pace, even if we don't make a dramatic move (such as moving to another house/state/country) in order to keep things from stagnating.
Wednesday, August 10, 2016
Tuesday, August 9, 2016
The other night I pulled a card from a cheesy unicorn deck I have. Haha. Gotta love the cheese! Anyway, I got the 'Finish What You've Started' card. I wanted more info, so I pulled one more card--the Creative card. So, in other words, make some things! I definitely have not been in maker mode this summer. I've pondered some things but haven't really followed through with them.
So...here's a nudge from the Corny Unicorns™.
Monday, August 8, 2016
So, here we have a duo for this week from these lovely Butterfly Oracle Cards. Decisions and Finances. This duo speaks to having to make a choice (or multiple choices) regarding your finances. This could come about in a number of ways: changing jobs, budgeting and investing, meal-planning, finding new streams of income, doing away with a job or a spouse changing or losing a job, or other finance-impacting decisions. For me, this is relevant on a number of levels. I hope it is for you, too!
Friday, August 5, 2016
I like the message of this card I drew the other day from the Goddess Guidance Oracle Cards. I was sitting and (aptly enough) feeling impatient as my daughter enjoyed the day and swam at a local lake beach. I just wanted to get on to the next thing as fast as possible. But why? Sometimes I do things on auto pilot and I just feel like I'm rushing around for no reason whatsoever. This card is not only about patience but about a kind of slower, more gradual approach, one infused with the understanding that things take time and there isn't a need to rush--that rushing, instead, often leads us to make mistakes or throw babies out with bath water. In any case, it's a good reminder for me.
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
Here is a duo that I pulled. I used the addictive Prisma app to edit it. Gotta love that thing.
So here we have Dog and Bear. Dog represents loyalty, friendship and the like. Bear can mean a variety of things--some of which are resources, money, a boss, a powerful person, a mother, diet. The list goes on. Here are some examples of this combination (in short) that I came across:
Hmm. Something to think about. I might have an idea of what this is pointing to but I will ponder it!
Dog + bear (15): financial advisor, powerful friend
Dog + Bear: adviser, consultant, wealthy friend, overbearing friend
From Faery Godmother Fortunes:
Bear/ Dog- a friend in authority, friends in high places, a friend with the power to help your situation
Dog+Bear: Mighty friend. Elder friend. Benevolence and softness.
I had just finished reading an article about today's New Moon in Leo when I decided to pull a card from the Power Animal Oracle Cards. I received Lion, which I found very appropriate. I decided to fill out the reading by adding another card, which was Lizard. I thought the combination was very good and needed very little explanation. My focus was how I want to use this fall, creative-focus wise. I think a little personal courage and focusing on one's dreams and possibilities is always good advice.
Thursday, July 28, 2016
Last night I pulled some cards from The Fortune Teller's Mah Jongg, and they were this very glowing group of cards about renewal and bright prospects and all this happy, clappy, hopeful stuff. Naturally, I liked that. But anyway. I kind of wished I had saved the reading from last night to post it, because it felt like one of those 'special' readings, something you want to take note of. But...since, I didn't do that, I picked up the cards, shuffled and pulled again this morning.
The first card I received was (again) Phoenix, followed by Earth and House. I found this trio interesting, and there are some possibilities for interpretation. The Phoenix card is a very positive card of joy and renewal, and the Earth card can mean stability, land, and other types of acquisitions. The House card is often, quite literally, a house.
In the book, the combination of Earth and House is described thusly:
The meaning of Earth as an element is stability. With the House (5 Wan) it represents a picture of a building standing on its own land.
Although I'm still not entirely sure what to make of this, one possible meaning would be the happy renewal or resurrection of some house-related or property-related prospect. Maybe renovating? This might make sense for us, since we still have several rooms to paint and touch up. If I do get more clues as to this reading, I'll try to post an update here.
Monday, July 18, 2016
A little divination story for y'all. But first a slight backstory. Lately, divination has been a hit or miss passion for me. Sometimes I'm in the mood for it--other times I don't feel particularly connected to it. But, I'm not as worried about this as I might have been in the past. A creative person (which basically means every person!) goes through cycles...ebbs and flows, ups and downs, fertile and fallow times. Rarely is there a consistent, intense passion. We all have dips in our interest in things. This is normal. I used to think it was abnormal. I thought something was wrong with me when I didn't feel like doing something. You just lack work ethic, I might tell myself. Or perhaps I was doing everything wrong. But now I know this isn't so. If only I could've just told myself, 'Don't worry about it. You don't need to do everything all at once. You don't need to force everything.' So...now I'm back to reminding myself of that.
But, sometimes, when you're on, you're on. And that's good too. I've noticed a phenomenon lately when reading. When I try to 'push past' my resistance to something--or try to 'force' myself to read a certain way, all of the flow and magic evaporates. All the mojo goes away. If I just relax a bit and let go, see what happens, something will gently move in.
Last night I pulled a card using my Energy Oracle app. As I did so I engaged my 'Let This Go, Intuitive Response Mode™! When I did that a card image popped into my mind; It was the Anxiety card in this deck. Not only that, but the card also showed up reversed in my mind. This image was fleeting. Almost as if it didn't happen. I was thinking about freeing myself from anxiety, from the constant feeling of needing or wanting to control everything in and around me.
You can guess what happened next. I pulled the Anxiety card, reversed. This sounds like a fluke, but this happens surprisingly often when I'm relaxed an in an intuitive flow. But when I try to get a vice-like grip on intuition it evades me. This isn't anything new, but it surprises me. Probably because there's a big part of me that still feels skeptical of anything unseen, intuitive or mysterious.
So, my main goal now is to relax into that space more, and then take action if it's appropriate.
Tuesday, July 12, 2016
I've been enjoying these Butterfly Oracle Cards. I bought them recently at Barnes & Noble, which is pretty amazing because I haven't really felt drawn to buy decks the past year. I find myself feeling rather neutral about most decks lately in terms of purchasing. Part of this is that I feel like I don't want a bunch of decks I don't use. In any case, I happened to see these in the store and someone had opened one of the sets so that I could look through them (which normally isn't the case in B&N), which tipped me more toward buying them, despite a few cards seeming cheesy to me!
So, the topic of this reading for me was related to work, creative commissions, and tarot readings. In essence: self-employment. So, I felt this reading was already telling me something even before I looked into the meanings more deeply. I was feeling like I was resorting to sort of extreme measures to get people interested in buying things from me, such as, 'Ten dollar tarot readings for the next two months!' And when no one responded to that, honestly, I kinda felt relieved! And I realized why. I didn't really want to do what I set out to do--I just did it for the money. Which is never a good premise! The card which popped into my head when thinking about this topic was 'Changing Your Mind' (see the image of the reading, above), and so I was glad to see it come up when I did my reading. It's just what it sounds like--you may do something then feel like it wasn't what you really wanted. I do this a lot because I often do what I think I 'should' do rather than what I really want to do. But, happily, more and more often I have been doing what I really want to do, because life is too short for anything else, right?
This reading, to me, reads both as a simultaneous glut of information as well as a linear, time-based story. What I mean by that is that you can look at it as a whole and it makes sense. But I also see it as steps. First, I change my mind and do what I really want to do. Then I take a break to gather my thoughts. Then I figure out what I want from self-employment. The Hobbies card says that what you really enjoy and do regularly gives powerful clues to what you really want to do business-wise. I think that's true. And finally...the way to move forward is to take a step in that direction, creating momentum from inspiration, thereby welcoming new ideas and new conditions.
Thursday, July 7, 2016
Last week I was feeling especially bleh and under the weather. Having a sinus flare-up and just feeling generally 'meh', I pulled a few cards. This trio felt really good. The money thing was also a concern but, also, abundance represents feeling expansive within--not just having enough money and 'stuff'...but more an expression of feeling in a place of personal flow.
It's been about a week since I pulled this, and even though my sinuses are still acting up a bit, I am allowing for a more peaceful feeling to permeate things. And when I get frustrated or 'stuck' in the sticky zones of my life, I can find that space where I see that things can improve and change, but at the same time not be afraid to stand in present circumstances and be patient with them.
Monday, June 27, 2016
Thursday, June 23, 2016
Yesterday, while I was waiting for my daughter's swimming lesson to finish, I pulled a few cards for myself. The cards I received felt fairly positive, and they seem centered around emotions because of the majority being cups. A low cups number (Ace) and a high cups number (9 of Cups), implying, maybe, a kind of sense of closure or some kind of journey taken, on an emotional level. This was paired with the 6 of Wands, a card of triumph, recognition and victory.
I find this trio interesting because, if anything, I feel as though I've been struggling emotionally. I have a moody pre-teen who is very off and on about wanting to do anything this summer--activities or socialization. On top of that, she seems irritated by me much of the time. I know well enough to know that this is more of an individuation process rather than something to take personally--because once we take things personally, that's when we begin to suffer!
But, on the other hand, she is also very capable of articulating what is going on with her, when I can get her to talk about it. She does have a great deal of emotional wisdom underneath the currently crusty exterior. Her sense of personal space and independence is paramount right now, and I'm trying to respect that rather than force her into numerous activities.
That said, however, I do put her in little classes and activities, at least the ones she approves. She's in swimming twice a week and she has a few things coming up in July: pottery wheel, a mini camp looking at music/rock and rock equipment use, etc. She wasn't fond of the dance/movement class or teacher we tried last week. And even though I'm not happy about losing the $52 on that class (you can't get a refund after the class starts), I think the other things will work out. Namely because I am just going to have her go to them regardless of what she thinks. Ha.
Anyway. Yesterday I pulled this trio. Today was sort of a rough go of it, as we had a long, semi-emotional discussion about connections and socialization, but I would consider it important and a good exchange. Maybe this trio is pointing to the wisdom of exploring emotional topics, and not skirting them. Sometimes a really good, intense conversation about something is needed to make progress on something that's been stalling.
Additionally, sometimes it's good to know what you're working with, and know the reasons behind a person's current head space so that you can go into something with clarity rather than complete frustration, as parenting often is a rich soil to grow frustration in, especially at key transition times (toddlers, puberty, etc). I'm trying to stay open to the conversation and not let myself drown in upset if things 'don't go my way' or if my daughter doesn't want to do what I think should be done. I am working on having a truly synergistic relationship with her--not one based on some kind of mutual annoyance. Haha!
So. Yes. We did still have a good outing together, the two of us, despite a bit of a tense start to the day. I can think of many scenarios (not just involving my daughter) where clearing the air, exploring our emotions did a lot of good in a relatively short amount of time.
Wednesday, June 22, 2016
Here are two runes I pulled today! Nauthiz (Necessity) and Gebo (Gift)
I was really proud of the graphic I pulled together for this, even though it's not all that amazing or complicated. I just like the vintage images. Anyway!
So...in reading the various meanings and key words of these runes, I thought of something. There are many ways to interpret this, but what came to mind first and foremost is that it is a need for me to really engage in my personal gifts and passions. The consequence of avoiding our true interests is suffering. Suffering is something I saw mentioned in the Nauthiz rune descriptions a lot. I find this is true for me. When I don't actively connect to my creativity in some way--in any way that works for me at the time--I feel the pain of withdrawal, disconnection from myself on some level.
Gebo is about gifts and generosity, but I did see this more as my personal offering to the world, rather than the mundane meaning of exchanges presents, even though gift-giving is one of my favorite things to do and I do it often!
This duo seems to invite me to explore my creativity and see it not as a frivolous journey but as a true necessity, just as important as food, water, sleep and other basic needs.
Tuesday, June 21, 2016
I thought this was a kind of silly story to convey...
I wanted a different sort of background for my Tea Leaf Fortune Cards pull, and I thought, 'Why not use one of my own paintings?' I plucked this seashell scape painting off my bathroom wall to use in this fashion, but then I paused and thought, 'This would only look decent if the cards I pulled had some sort of aquatic/oceanic theme.' Amazingly, this realization didn't deter me as I pulled a card.
I laughed when I pulled Goldfish, as it seemed amusingly appropriate. I was going to keep it at that and not push my luck, but what fun would that be? So, I chose a second card to round out my reading, and got Sunrise, which shows the sun rising over an ocean vista. Ha!
Besides being visually on point, these cards also have a lovely message. Increased funds, understanding and the chance of a fresh start leading to new and interesting places.
You'll have to excuse the overly patterned image here. I found the add layer function over at BeFunky.com. Haha! I do love color and pattern. Anyway. Rather than posting a complicated reading, I opted to post this single card pull using my beloved Tea Leaf Fortune Cards. In my opinion, this serves as an extension to my last post. Again, the suggestion is that if I put in some effort, it will bear fruit. It seems so simple and so obvious, but it really is a good reminder. Especially if we've felt particularly stuck around something, feeling blah or powerless in any way.
Sunday, June 19, 2016
Admittedly, as you may've noticed, I haven't been as active on the blog lately. Sorry about that! I've just been sort of 'meh' about it, and when that happens I try to go with the flow and not force it. Although I do still like playing with my cards, and I do still find myself doing it most days, I feel like the readings are a bit perfunctory, and 'skim the surface' rather than go deep. You know the feeling, right? When things are felt on a deeper level, when you're engaged in what you're doing...things click into place. Since that hasn't been happening, and I suspect the reason is mainly because I'm distracted by other things, like trying to figure out a balance for the summer, I have mostly not been posting my readings, since I often feel I'm not doing the readings justice.
In addition to the usual summer distractions, I have felt my focus go toward practical projects rather than esoteric things. We painted our dining room and then the bar/seating area in the kitchen. I seem to think more along those lines these days. I think that's how our energy and creativity flows.
In any event, here's my July forecast using the Tea Leaf Fortune Cards. I felt like this one clicked for me and I wasn't struggling with it in any way. The July card actually came up without me pulling it to represent July, so I went with it! So, in terms of cards received, we have Hammock, talking about a vacation. In this case, I just assume it means the summer break. And even though the Boot card seems at first to be contrary to taking a break, it made total sense to me. Recently, I've realized I do need to increase my efforts in some areas in order to see change in them. The one I mentioned already is getting some overdue house projects done (re-painting the badly painted rooms, for instance), some of which have gone undone for a year and a half.
The Dark Woman next to the Eagle card seems personal, like it's telling me that if I put in the time and energy (Boot) then I can get some things done in this summer interval. It jives with what I've been feeling and serves as a positive focus for productivity balanced with relaxation and self-care.
Wednesday, June 8, 2016
Wednesday, June 1, 2016
I saw this cool quote over at Wayfarer's Mark:
"The days of childhood are behind, and the days of wisdom are yet to come. Eihwaz is the rune of shifting identity – you are becoming something new, and there is a great need to embrace it."
Monday, April 25, 2016
Thursday, April 21, 2016
Do you ever take photos or scans of readings then forget what you were reading about? D'oh! I hate it when I do that. In this case, I'm not 100% sure what I was reading about, but I think it was about my husband's work prospects for this year. Then again, maybe not? In any case, why not just tap into the positive concepts listed here, and not care what it's about? Why not, eh?
Hope, Growth, Patience and Gain. It seems very linear, showing that first inkling of fresh energy, the hope driving something toward a path of growth, the patience needed on that path, and the gain that follows. With this energy, I could see anything being nurtured to fruition.
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
Tuesday, April 19, 2016
Excuse my super-artsy photo of this. Hah! The lighting on this side of the kitchen is really low, so it's hard to get a good photo. I used flash but the images are still a bit blurry of the bottles themselves. And then, as per usual, I had to add some random artsy effects to go along with it. Despite that, I'm sure you get the idea!
I just love my little essential oils shelf. It is from a local thrift store. The story about how I got it is sort of silly. I saw the shelf at the thrift store one day several months back, and I picked it up to look at it, but set it down only for a moment. A little boy, maybe 7 years of age, saw the small shelf and picked it up and ran off with it. I was disappointed because I had wanted the shelf but I lost track of it and someone else picked it up. I chalked it up to finders keepers and left it at that.
A week or so passed, and my mom, remembering that I wanted a shelf for my essential oils, found and purchased the shelf for me, not entirely remembering that I had seen that very shelf when we were together the last time at this thrift store. Maybe on an unconscious level she had remembered, but I was thrilled to get my mini shelf. My husband attached it to the wall near our tea nook (it fits perfectly on the thick wall edge, the place where the two walls meet) and ever since then I go over there, pretty much daily, to figure out what oils I am using for the day.
It's true, I don't really have a ton of essential oils. I'd love to have 200 times this, but the nice thing about having the smaller amount is that I can easily see what I have on hand because it's on the wall in my kitchen, within easy access, where I can select oils to use in salves, soaps, cleaners, bath soaks, solid lotion bars, cooking and more! In fact, I'd argue that this is why I try to keep the number of decks I have to under 40, so that I can actually use them. Even now, I'm pondering going down even further--maybe to 20 decks. But for now, I'll keep the number where it is.
Just yesterday I combined my two bottles of organic oregano oil (that I love adding to soups or Italian meals, or even taco meat), because I needed to make room for the bottle of Desert Essence organic lavender and tea tree oil essential oil blend. Plus, I really like keeping the oils on one shelf so I don't do something silly like accidentally drink drops of essential oil because I confused them for my bottle of liquid vitamin D3...hehe!
The older I get the more I want to streamline what I have, getting rid of or using up what I have already before getting something more that I don't really need. This is, admittedly, a habit that's hard to break, because I love fun, pretty and aromatic things. I'm always wanting to buy amazing oils, lotions, candles, and on and on. I could go shopping every day and buy something new--but I'm trying to break out of having to do that on a regular basis. It feels good to be more frugal.
So that's my Tell n' Show for today.
Monday, April 18, 2016
I got out The Answer Deck today, that diminutive little gem of a deck that can really pack a wallop. Sometimes this deck is a bit too intense for me, which kinda proved to be true today when I was reading with it, but I still love it nonetheless. In some ways, this reminds me of another of my favorite decks: The Tea Leaf Fortune Cards.
This reading was interesting to me, though its true meaning is sort of unclear to me. On either side of the reading we have Greed and Wealth--two cards which would definitely make sense to see together. With one often comes the other--due to human nature. The woman in the reading--does she reconcile the two? A desire for money and not wanting to be greedy? Or is reconciliation referring to something entirely different? I will definitely try to keep these concepts in mind this week.
Thursday, April 14, 2016
I felt like pulling the runes out last night, so I went ahead and pulled three runes and these are the ones I got. Granted, I am not as familiar with runes as some people are, since oracle cards and tarot are my primary divination choice, but I do love to use I-Ching and runes on occasion, and I find their answers to be very interesting and a refreshing alternative to tarot.
I looked up the various meanings to these three cards, and I was glad to see that none of them were merkstave (aka reversed), and for some reason I liked the pull so much that I left it out overnight next to my bed and fell asleep with it there.
Here are some super basic meanings for these runes, just for reference:
Dagaz: Balance, awakening, awareness, new change, vision
Thurisaz: Protection, regeneration, a catalyst, force
Jera: Cycles, a year, completion, harvest
So, I felt like this reading was somewhat momentous--showing a kind of almost forceful new beginning but with good consequences. I had no idea whatsoever what it was talking about, really, but this morning when I woke up and I was making breakfast for my daughter and she was getting ready for school she approached me and asked me how she would know if she had gotten her period. I asked her about it, and it turns out she had started her period!
The best part about all of this is that she seemed totally calm and nonchalant about it. I explained in a matter-of-fact but cheerful way how to use pads and when to check them and gave any other advice that came to mind. We were both almost relieved--I had been noticing her moodiness and growth over the past year or so. I was very impressed by how smoothly it went. I thought about how much I had agonized over how to deal with it, since my own menstruation cycle did not begin on the best of terms. I was in the middle of math class and it started--and I was teased and tormented by my classmates. Ugh!
But...I was so proud of my daughter and how she really took it into stride. She said something really funny and cute along the lines of, 'Oh, well that all makes sense! I look and feel like a little woman." Of course, that could change, but she knows I will be here if she has any questions. There is something to be said about allowing a space for things to come in--letting yourself soften into the experience instead of cringing and waiting for all hell to break loose, a habit that I am trying to extricate myself from.
I remembered the runes I pulled last night when I came back to the house after dropping off my daughter, and I reached for the bag and pulled a rune about my daughter's cycle, and the Dagaz rune came up again, which was part of the trio from last night.
Wednesday, April 13, 2016
Wednesday, April 6, 2016
Here is a very vivid duo from the Psychic Tarot for the Heart (app) that I pulled. I got the 3 of Swords a couple of times yesterday and I kept thinking, 'Ick, ick, icky...no thanks.' But when I saw this duo I saw in it a gem of a recommendation. And that is, that if you feel sad, tired, isolated or otherwise constricted into a ball energy-wise (see the figure in the 3 of Swords), then the solution is to open up. I love how this is illustrated in both of the cards. The arms spread open, things flowing again. As I was saying to a friend of mine today who I met with--sometimes, even though sadness makes us want to isolate ourselves, we are better off opening up, whether it's to another person, or to a journal, counselor or other outlet. Keeping energy tightly closed down is a sure fire recipe for feeling unwell.
I've noticed, lately, that I feel (somewhat inexplicably) tired, drained and overwhelmed. I mean, I can point to mundane day-to-day reasons why, but I think the underlying reason is that I have not really been paying attention to what needs nurturing. I am somewhat going through the motions with most things. I'm not taking many emotional risks or really seeking out my heart's desire. When I find myself feeling sad, blah or otherwise flat-lined about things, I think opening up possibilities and seeing what else I can bring in is a great idea. I am going to work on this instead of ignoring my physical and emotional cues that I am not really functioning as well as I want to be.
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
The other night I was doing my nightly ritual (by ritual, I mean that in the loosest way possible) of unwinding and pulling some cards before bed. I like to use mellow oracle decks when doing this--as I don't want violent, insane images to haunt my sleep.
I was thinking about my maternal grandmother, and our recent visit to Texas to visit with her (along with my other grandmother and other relatives if we had the time) and how I'd felt this sense of urgency to see her, since she turns 90 this month and is losing her short term memory to such an extent that she simply cannot remember anything moment to moment.
I thought about how ambivalent I was about the trip, which we took during my daughter's spring break from school, and how part of me didn't want to see my grandma with advanced memory loss, perhaps a shadow of her former self, and how the other part of me was screaming at me urgently that if I wanted to see her I needed to go this year.
Anyway, as I reflected on the trip I thought about pulling cards about this trip, but I had no idea how the cards could possibly reflect the spring break trip to see my grandma. I thought about the only card in the deck, that I could recall, that has an older woman in it--which is that red hat lady in the Express Your Individuality card. This spunky lady reminded me of my vibrant grandmother, who I have always enjoyed and admired. Even with her considerable memory loss, I still see her this way.
In any case, I pulled four cards out of the oracle deck and turned them over. What I saw amused me. We have the Travel card, the Spring card, the Everything's OK card, and the Expressing Your Individuality card, the one that had been in my mind when thinking about my grandma. I felt like I couldn't have hand-picked better cards to represent what I had been thinking about.
In short, I was glad to have seen my grandma, and both of my grandmothers, even though it isn't really easy to see them in their current state--weakened. It still felt right, and important. It's this sort of thing that keeps me reading oracles--the things that can be plucked from the cards to affirm whatever's happening right now.
Monday, April 4, 2016
I really love the fantastic, dramatic aspect of this card. It's a lot like the Tower, but, in my experience, it isn't necessarily as stressful as the Tower. I'm probably asking for trouble by saying that, but there you go. Like the Tower, this card can show weak links in a plan, or can show starting from scratch altogether--going in a new direction out of necessity. This is OK by me. I won't even begin to speculate about this card's presence in my pulls recently. I think I've gotten it two or three times in the past week or two. But that's OK. I'm just putting it here, mostly because it looks cool. And to keep a record so I can go back and take note of when I pulled it.
Much Love to You Folks,
Friday, April 1, 2016
It's the first day of April, otherwise known as April Fool's Day. I admit it...I am not much of a prankster. But, I can admire people who feel comfortable pranking others. I probably am not the best sport in terms of being the recipient of pranks...but anyway!
I feel like the month of March flew by without much explanation--I guess--except for the trip we took in the middle of it. I've just felt like time has flown by every day. I feel a little frantic and overtired, like my hormones and adrenals are struggling to keep up. I'm not a bad mood, per se, but I just feel a little off kilter, which I think happens a lot to most of us.
Because I still find longer readings overwhelming, I decided to simply pull two cards. The first card is the Inkpot card, showing something needing to be worked out in some way. The Ladder card as the other card shows that success, and those improvements can occur. There seems to be the implication here that it will require work. There's a single card pull that I lazily didn't photograph that happened right before this--it was Table--the card indicating hard work.
So, there's a sense of improvement through good, old fashioned hard work, or simply putting energy into something. Not to the point of burnout, which will have the opposite effect that is desired. I think this is a kind of pat on the back, or maybe a shove forward, a call to keep moving forward.
Thursday, March 24, 2016
I know I haven't been around much. Excuse me! I decided to do a very, very simplistic pull, because I find myself both impatient with tarot and oracles and also easily overwhelmed. Therefore, I decided a single card pull is just the thing for me right now. Instead of a sprawling reading about March and April, I decided to do this. So, this is what I got.
Cobweb is an interesting visual and concept for a message about protection from negative influences. Despite the incongruous image of a spider's web being protective, it's one of my favorites in this oracle. To me, the idea of the cobweb is more frightening, like being stuck in a web while a spider inches its way toward you, ready to gobble you up. You could turn that around on its head and say that being held back, immobilized from things problematic--say going headlong into a busy streeth--might be a very good thing.
In life, we often feel like we're subject to forces beyond our control. That could be life's subtitle--Forces Beyond My Control. But, it's a nice thought to think that, regardless of what happens, we always have a core of self-belief and goodness that transcends all that scary, sticky stuff.