Sunday, August 20, 2017

Repeat Cards: Endings and Finding New Foci


Here is a quad of cards I pulled today. I noticed some repeat cards: Death, 8 of Cups and 8 of Wands. This is one which FEELS like it's about something very specific but I can't quite put my finger on it. It seems clear from these recent pulls that some chapter is very consciously ending and another beginning. This isn't a bad thing, but can sometimes leave an emotional toll as it's happening.

I do feel, in general, the 8 of Cups shows leaving the known for the unknown, and the Death card enhances this meaning. I like the description I saw over at Aeclectic:

The querent may genuinely care for these familiar cups (things or people) whether or not they lived up to expectations. A crazy new dream, however, is calling to him, maybe has been calling for a while. His instincts are to follow the dream. But good idea or not (an inverted card might suggest that it's a bad idea or an illusion), he'll need fortitude to do this. It is easy to give your emotions freely to what is known, harder to give them to what is unknown. Yet the unknown is what will likely raise you up to a new level.

Yes...that's definitely the hard part for me--having the strength, dynamism and fortitude (which I think is what the Chariot is about here), the energy and will, to do something else.  Nothing changes until you do (the title of a book of an author/speaker I like to listen to), and that can sometimes be a painful reality to wake up to. No one will hand me a new reality on a plate-I have to decide to take it on.

Much Love,
MM

Saturday, August 19, 2017

Abandoning Career Delusions, Deciding to Just Do Stuff


Here is the reading I did for myself today. I didn't have a topic, but I wanted to see what themes came up. I feel like I understand the gist of this reading, but there is always a ton of room for interpretation. Tarot reading is a lot like dream interpretation in that way; there are standard meanings and dream symbols, but there is a lot of wiggle room when it comes to what certain things mean. And, ultimately, the most important meaning is the one the reader/dreamer gives to the scenario. 

Just because it's an easy format I'll explain each card in turn:

  • Son of Pentacles: As the first card in the draw, I always feel this holds significance and usually sets the theme--shows the topic/crux of the reading. In a general sense, the Son of Pentacles represents a practical beginning. Something new in the arena of career and/or health. There are always multiple options in this area. Some examples might be to start taking classes in a certain area. It could mean learning the ropes in some way. It could mean implementing a business idea or money management plan. It could mean starting a new diet, health or exercise regime. But whatever it is shows a focus in money, career or health. 
  • 8 of Cups: This is a repeat card for me today. I pulled the 8 of Cups this morning (with another deck--on my phone, actually) and it resonated as well. I actually love this card, as melancholy as it often is. Abandoned success--moving on to something more meaningful. A search for purpose, often new vocation or an entirely new focus. This version is particularly intense and poignant. Look at all those shattered cups! Normally, the cups are seen as totally whole, still entirely intact. The person has chosen to abandon the current situation, no matter how viable it is, because it no longer holds any meaning or draw. In this deck it feels even more dire that a new direction has to be taken. Ill health and stagnation are mentioned as current realities, or near-future realities, if action isn't taken. It even uses the phrase, 'Nothing good remains for you here.' Wowza! 
  • 3 of Pentacles: This is the work card in a collaborative sense. My first thought was that, while the 8 of Cups shows a mountain in shadow, the 3 of Pentacles shows an illuminated mountainside. Things are clearer, and you're collaborating with colleagues in some way. Maybe the way for me to gain more momentum in a work arena is to reach out to others--people I can work with instead of feeling like a lonely island. I've tried to do freelance for so long, with minimal success and also minimal enjoyment. I wonder if I should pursue something more social. Part of me really cringes to read that because I like being independent. But it may not be the best option for me right now.
  • Two of Swords: This is the stalemate card--a card of indecision and confusion. Well, actually, that's not entirely true. It's not so much confusion as it is not really wanting to decide or make a choice. You know what is happening and you're well aware of the options, but you are stalling. The original image is one of a person wearing a blindfold. They've chosen to close their eyes to the truth of the situation because they don't like the fact that they have to make a decision. How long can a person go before actually taking that first step out?
  • Fool: Don't you love this card? Cute birdy. He's a baby bird having to trust the flying process, even though he's never done it. This is great advice for me. I've gotten lazy about taking chances. If I don't have to take any chances I just don't. I wait around until things become so annoying or unbearable that I jump. Jump and grow wings on the way down, to quote a saying.
  • 8 of Wands: The final card of this reading is another one of my favorites. I like that the last two cards of this reading are very pro risk-taking and dynamic. This is one of the speediest cards of the tarot. Things happening immediately. This, along with the Fool, was my recommendation/homework duo. Taking chances, taking action. Not hesitating. Jumping off that cliff, trying stuff out.
So, my takeaway from this reading is that, in order to find the meaning I am looking for in a career sense (and perhaps health-wise, too) I have to just get out there and take chances, and maybe collaborate more with other people who might be able to assist me on my path.

Love,
MM

Friday, August 18, 2017

Late August Trio: Rooting Out Bad Foundations


Here's a trio I just pulled focusing in on the remainder of this month. I can't believe we're less than two weeks away from September! I can already feel autumn in the air in the mornings, and stores are putting out their Halloween and fall decorations.

I thought this was a rather intense answer to my query of what to focus on for the rest of this month, but it was an interesting answer, which is good. I think? I find that when analyzing readings it is better to not try to be too fatalistic about intense cards. I don't do it when I read for others so I don't want to subject myself to unnecessary fear.

The sense I got from this reading was mostly visual, especially the tree imagery. But if you're looking at the meanings themselves the 6 of Cups can represent the past, nostalgia, childhood, or even our own children. But one of the main meanings that carries through is to not dwell too deeply on the past, to not get sucked into it.

I feel this message of not getting drawn too far back into our own histories is shown here with the Death and Tower cards. Both are indicative of major change and endings. The former describes a timely death--from summer to fall for instance. The latter describes more of a rude awakening--something that wasn't too good to begin with and has to be re-built due to poor foundations.

On a very literal level, this also reminds me of all the dental visits we have this month. We're all WAY overdue for them, and we're finally all going to the dentist this month. My daughter had a checkup a week or so ago, and as a result has to have a baby tooth pulled because one of the roots isn't dissolving and the permanent tooth needs to come in. Nothing major, but the image of roots and uprooting in this trio definitely remind me of that. Her appointment to have that done is on Monday. It's a very simple procedure with only local anesthesia. I have my check-up next Thursday.  But you see what I mean about the symbolism?

Anyway, I admit the Tower is not my favorite card to see. I don't mind the Death card, but paired WITH the Tower it seems quite pointed. However, I am not going to let it bother me too much. I admit I'm nervous since my daughter's school starts next week and I sure hope this year goes more smoothly than the last.

On a final symbolic note, this reminds me a little of the dream I had this morning. Side note: the 6 of Cups seems like it can mean 'multiple children' just from the images I've seen for the 6 of Cups, showing two or more kids. Anyway. In the dream I found out I was pregnant, even though I had what I thought was my period, but it only lasted a couple of days. It turns out I was pregnant, and when this came to light I was very excited. When I woke up I was a little sad, because it uncovered a latent (buried) desire to have a second child that I put aside years ago when my daughter's health issues were most intense and the idea of having another child was really not doable.

And now, after my husband has had a vasectomy about five years ago and I'm in my late 30's and have put that all to rest, I still have those thoughts from time to time, but when I'm awake I realize it's not really what I want anymore.  But I also have found that accessing my creativity easily is pretty stilted as well. So I'm hoping I can break through that inertia and sadness that has crept up over the past several years and held me hostage. I think the best thing we can do for ourselves when we're overcome by grief, responsibility or just weariness of the world is to move forward with as much joy and sincerity as we can muster--because life is too short to be bummed out.

Love,
MM

Thursday, August 17, 2017

September Tea Leaf Reading


I whipped out the Tea Leaf Fortune Cards (one of my favorite decks, as you might notice if you follow my blog) and pulled some cards for September. I admit, this deck can be a little snarky to use, so I wasn't sure how this pull would shake out, but at least this particular pull was very positive. I didn't push my luck by pulling more than four cards for September.

In any event, these are the cards I got, and I am totally good with that, especially given some of the other pulls I've done with them this month which I've not shared here with you. Ha! I'll take my mellow card pulls where I can get them.

I like the theme of lightheartedness, good news, guidance and clarity, and then work success. This is all of the things I've been hoping for and brainstorming lately, but unable to quite get there. Perhaps with the current retrograde and so much up in the air, both career-wise and otherwise, I just need to work some things out and be patient in a few areas. It's not easy--that patience thing.

Much Love,
MM

Thursday, August 10, 2017

The Illuminated Tarot: Six Card Pull About My Daughter


Bullet points from what I see in this reading:

Top Row:
  • Finding balance through using my intuition, getting time alone to ground, moving through transitions with self-confidence.
Bottom Row:
  • My daughter learning emotional balance and blossoming into maturity as a result.

These brief comments are based on the specific question I put to the cards and what I saw upon pulling the cards. I could spend longer interpreting it, but I find my initial interpretation is usually the most accurate and spontaneous.

Much Love,
MM

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Something Fun: Tarot Mad Lib

Hi Lovely People,

I've been having fun doing online Mad Libs. There is a site where you can craft your own Mad Libs, and I made a couple (amateurish but fun). One of these was tarot-themed.

Here is the link to the tarot Mad Lib I made if you are interested!

Just for the heck of it. :D

Love,
MM

The 3 of Wands: Clarify Your Goals and Burst Forth


There is something about this deck, The Wild Unknown Tarot, that just really reads in such a simple, elegant and beautiful way. I truly think they did a gorgeous job of matching the meanings to the images in a way that wasn't too flowery or overwhelming. I like all stripes of tarot decks (well, maybe not quite all) but sometimes it's refreshing to have a deck with only a paragraph or two of description that is very evocative and poetic, but in a way that's extremely easy to relate to. I find that the trend nowadays seems to be toward making the tarot and other oracles more accessible, which makes sense. We don't want the tarot to seem untouchable or confusingly mystical. We want everyone to use it with ease and practicality, right?

In any case, not only is this one of my favorite cards visually in this deck, but I am pretty fond of the description as well. Plus, I think it's relevant to me. Yesterday I pulled the 3 of Wands (with another deck) as the first card to represent my journey into the remainder of 2017. Now, this adds another layer of meaning to the 3 of Wands, and a confirmation of yesterday's reading.

Don't you just love the colorful, rainbow-y vortex into another dimension of creativity shown in this card? I also like the concept of reclaiming your creative mojo hinted at in this version of the 3 of Wands. I do find myself either worrying about what I 'should' or 'shouldn't' do creatively, or even whether I need to get permission to do something artsy--if I have an audience. For instance, I've been waiting two weeks for a response from a local coffee shop about showing work and have heard nothing back. But, creativity doesn't have to wait for anyone else. I need to remember this. Regardless of whether I have an audience I need to pinpoint my creative goals and just go for it. If one venue or idea doesn't work then I can just skip to the next one without relying too heavily on any one of them. It puts my personal power firmly back into my own hands, which I think is what I need--since I've felt pretty 'blah' and defeated creatively in the past year.

So, here's wishing all of us the creative impetus to trust our own impulses and rush forward in a burst of colorful expression.

Love,
MM

Monday, August 7, 2017

End of Year Tarot Reading: August Through December


Here's a pull a did for myself regarding the influences of the latter part of this year, from now through December. I haven't yet analyzed it (except briefly) so here are my general impressions of each card:

3 of Wands: Setting off into unexplored creative territory. The guy only has his bindle, or whatever you want to call it, full of stuff. Not much stuff. He's traveling light. I feel this sense of creative freedom when looking at this dude. He's smiling gently. He isn't super stressed about the journey.  This is absolutely how I would like to feel ending this year. I feel like there was a lot of chaos and a lot of difficult things to process this past year. I would love to just dive into something creative and joyful, or at least not overtly stressful.

Intuition: One of the majors, and a 'theme' is the very straightforward Intuition card. Being guided by it, having it play a role in my life. It also feels a bit 'Halloweeny', doesn't it? I love the fallish part of the year, weather-wise and theme wise. Sometimes I get nervous about the school year (this year more than ever because of her puberty/changes on so many levels), but I want to retain that sense of wonder at the end of the year. Where things are wrapping up and you can reflect on all that went on. This past year (beginning at the end of last year) was hard at times, with my daughter having some stresses/anxieties at school and puberty happening, and my grandma dying. I just felt consumed by those two things, I think. My own desire to further my interests creatively or otherwise, really took a back seat, which is OK. I don't mind that necessarily, but what I don't like is feeling like I'm so stressed that I can't/don't want to focus on myself. Anyway...I'm rambling here.

The Mother: Again, I could probably just point you to the thing I just wrote about having stress about parenting the past year. That stress has really covered my entire mothering experience, but with my daughter moving into 'young lady' status, and having to navigate her unique stresses, I think I felt especially pressured this past year. I want to embody all the best aspects of mothering rather than just the intense anxiety of it.

Desire: This is a card I haven't really figured out. I mean, again, it's a pretty basic theme, and there are a lot of ways to look at it. This is going to sound silly, but when flipping through the deck I sort of avoid this card. I don't know why. Sort of weird and telling, right? Like I'm afraid of the concept of desire. But the card itself just feels like it's someone looking at their ideas and passions--something that's really necessary in order to have a focus and move forward in life.

The final card I chose, as an overarching theme for the remainder of this year is the 10 of Wands. In this deck it has a different flavor than the traditional card in some ways. But there are some similar threads, such as managing your energy in a way that benefits you. This guy is a master at working his energy. He is like a powerhouse of well-managed personal energy, a bit of a departure from the guy struggling with the bag of sticks on his back. This card really radiates power and purpose. I think this, again, points to managing our energy well. Learning how to direct it into the ideas and activities that serve us well. Everything else is necessarily burned off--or beautifully balanced.

All in all I think these are good and important themes that I can certainly try to remember going into the rest of this year.

Much Love,
MM

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Door to Door Organics: Resuming Online Grocery Shopping


So here are three cards I pulled about resuming an online grocery delivery service we have around here called Door to Door Organics. The basic premise is that you first pick the size box of produce that you want, and then specify whether it is fruit, vegetables or a mixture. The sizes are Bitty, Small, Medium and Large. From there, you can shop for other pantry items and have them delivered as well. The selection isn't perfect, and I still have to get some items at the store, but it reduces grocery store trips quite a bit. I've done it on and off for the past several years but after getting sick of being at the grocery store so much again recently, I've decided to resume it, with a specific budget for how much I can spend per week. I'm trying to lower my food budget, which is higher than I would like it to be.

When I pulled these cards I found them interesting and a little humorous. The Door card seemed sort of tongue-in-cheek, echoing the name of the company. The Box card also made me think of your selection of produce box, and the Jug card made me think of a few things--one being a jug of milk (in our case usually almond or coconut milk), but also the opportunity to make things easier and more fun for myself by not being at the grocery store so much. I think the idea of budgeting and meal planning doesn't SOUND fun at all, but when it enables you to have more freedom and less time at the grocery store (and hopefully more money for other things, ultimately) then it is worth the trouble.

Love,
MM

Friday, August 4, 2017

Windfall: Money Management or Dumb Luck


What this single card draw from the Butterfly Oracle Cards makes me think of is that today is pay day and I plan on the budgeting for the next week or two. I think this shows that in a very simplistic way, but it could also refer to something I'm unaware of? In any case, I think money management is definitely highlighted, with a few upcoming expenses on the way. Granted, I would always love a random windfall, but I also believe in making my own luck and abundance.

Love,
MM

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Stars and Sun: Happy Success or Idealism Unrealized?



I was thinking about how it's been nine days since I e-mailed a local coffee shop about showing a series of my work (a dozen pieces that I would make specifically for that purpose) and wondering what the deal was with the delay. I know sometimes a delay means nothing but a person being swamped or distracted and other times it shows that the person isn't interested and either a.) doesn't plan on getting back to you or b.) is trying to come up with a tactful way to reject you.

I pulled out the always marvelous Tattered Nomad Oracle, and I got this duo: Stars+Sun. Pretty cheerful pair, though the results of this I've yet to see. I'm not too worried about it. I feel fine with it either way. It'll be interesting to see what comes of it, if anything. I can always find a better option!

Much Love, 
MM

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Wordless Wednesday: Buddha Mojo


Knot: When Things Unravel


This deck amuses me sometimes. Part of the reason for that is its to-the-point and sometimes snarky attitude. Well, maybe not quite snarky. Just frank. Admittedly, I don't know what this card is talking about, but that's OK. I just thought it was funny. I think the only specific idea I had for this reading was something to look for in August. I try to hold to the idea that whatever falls apart isn't something you should force to hold together.

Love,
MM

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Short & Sweet August Outlook


Happy August, everyone!

I did this shorter Tea Leaf Fortune Cards reading because sometimes more succinct really provides a meditative focus--something more pointed. This reading seems to indicate a renewed focus on career. I'm not quite sure what form this is taking, but it does reflect a lot of my present thoughts.

Sending you all good August mojo,
MM

Sunday, July 30, 2017

A Slightly More Extensive School Tea Leaf Reading


Not gonna make much of a comment on this. Overall, it looks very positive, which is representative of most of the readings I've done on this topic. Cautiously optimistic.

Love,
MM

Thursday, July 27, 2017

Butterfly & Bridge: Positive Changes for the School Year


Here is a duo I pulled regarding my daughter's upcoming entrance into middle school (6th grade) which is such a big milestone! I admit I'm nervous. With her having recently gone through puberty and starting her cycles, I am hoping this school year is much smoother than the last. I have noticed some maturity emotionally on her part just the past few months and I'm hoping that carries over into the school year, helping to mitigate any mood issues or other snafus of this age range, and for my daughter in particular.

This duo feels very positive and encouraging on this front, but of course I don't plan to be complacent--we have several supportive ideas that we're hoping to have in place during this time, others we've already begun, and I always have a back-up plan. I still love seeing these kind of cards in a spread, as I often see them when I'm feeling discouraged or nervous about an outcome, and they are usually correct in their interpretation of the situation, which is a good foil for my often worst case scenario outlook.

Love,
MM

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Showing My Artwork: Rider & Fish


Yesterday I was out and about with my family in a local coffee shop and I noticed (not for the first time) a series of art pieces for sale. There were maybe a dozen pieces by a single artist, and when I asked the barista about it, she explained that there was a new artist each month showcased. I have been to this particular coffee shop many, many times, which includes a bunch of times before it changed owners, and have considered showing some art pieces there, but beyond a handful of painted necklaces I have not done this. The barista also commented that it was very common for several pieces to sell. This piqued my interested and it made sense to me, since I noticed that most of the shows were of smaller pieces that were priced lower (under $100), and that this was the sort of work I did as well--I tend to do smaller pieces rather than giant paintings, and I tend to put a lot of detail in my work rather than make the work bigger. Small and medium-sized pieces are actually still quite time-consuming, but I think that I have never been particularly drawn to making large pieces.

In any case, the barista gave me the business card of the café owner and said I could contact her about selling some pieces, so I did so this morning, passing along to her some examples of my paintings and asking a few questions. So, this two card reading I pulled reminds me of that. In fact, I pulled it a few minutes before actually deciding to follow through with the e-mail. The Rider card often shows a message or delivery or some sort. The Fish card is frequently about finances or career. So the combination definitely seems like a message about a business-related proposition. Looking at LearnLenormand.com:

Rider + fish (34): financial news, business news, a businessman

Over at the TarotTaxi.com site it says:

Rider + Fish = Financial Mail


Well, anyway. You guys get the picture. I admit I am always nervous when putting myself out there in any way. Regardless of whether I end up doing the series. I definitely get a bit of commitment phobia when it comes to these things. Haha.  Overall, though, I've been pondering doing something like this for quite a long time, so sometimes you just have to bite the bullet and do it, busting through the ennui and trepidation along the way.

Love,
MM

Sunday, July 23, 2017

New Moon in Leo: Industrious Beginnings


Happy New Moon in Leo, folks!

So here's a three card draw I did regarding today's new moon. Generally speaking, new moons are allegedly an auspicious time to set new goals, especially in the area indicated by the lunation. I don't know about that--but I think it's a good a time as any to set goals, so why not?

The three cards I pulled were:

The World: A card that usually indicates something coming full circle--a metaphorical or literal graduation from one state to the next--accomplishment, travel, a pleasant and achievement-oriented ending, as opposed to a rude awakening as in the Tower. I definitely get a finish line kind of feeling from this card.

Daughter of Pentacles: I am not 100% sure but I think this is the Page of Pentacles? I'm a little confused--I suppose I could consult the book about this but I'm feeling lazy. I guess my impression of it is the most important part anyway. A lot of the time the Page of Pentacles is the student--or new physical beginnings. Something practical. This little fawn/deer seems very shy and vulnerable, but there's a certain beauty to that.

Son of Pentacles: Now...is this the knight? Ugh--I guess I should research this but I don't feel like it. This one feels a bit more active--maybe it's the antlers. It seems more dynamic. If it is, in fact, a knight, they often indicate progress and movement in a reading. Because it's the suit of pentacles it could, again, but something relating to physical concerns (money, career, health). So, in both Pentacles cards I see this thread of new physical beginnings. The fledgling start-ups after something else has already been completed in the World card.

I do think this is an opportune time to come up with career, health and money plans. I've been trying to find new ways to save and budget money, as well as tweaking dietary stuff. And I definitely am always brainstorming career ideas, and for some reason that is becoming more of a focus with school approaching for my daughter--I'm hoping I can focus a bit more on that when she's in school this time. I don't know how that will pan out but in order to start something I have to have an idea of what I want--a kind of outline. Maybe that's my next step.

Much Love,
MM

Friday, July 21, 2017

The Artist's Motto: Create Stuff or Die

Here's my single card pull from The Artist's Inner Vision Tarot. The Empress. This is my 'advice' or guide post for the day. My take: be a mom! Haha. Ok. Er. Done. Kinda.

Well.

Also, it's a very creative and nurturing card--which can have many applications. Here's a quote from the card description:

The Empress signifies a time of domestic security and peace. She can represent an impending marriage, fertility, motherhood or simply domestic bliss, a happiness that is only achieved through the sharing of a close and personal love. This can be sexual in nature, or it can be a caring, sustaining, parental love. The Empress is also harbinger of creativity, bringing not only the birth of children, but the birth of ideas and creativity.

As an artist and mom, I'd say this card applies to me about 100% of the time. You know that biker slogan, 'Live free or die'? Well, artists and makers of all sorts kind of have a similar slogan which could be, 'Create stuff or die.' The moment we stop being creative and nurturing something to life, is the moment we stop really living.

Ok! Well. That about covers it for now.
Have a swell day,
MM

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

For the Love of Love: Two of Cups

Good Morning, Everyone!

I have to say, I really love the 2 of Cups in this deck. I love the glow (literally) in their faces and the swirl of hair and the water theme.

This was a pull I did this morning, and I was thinking about how I really missed my husband when he's away at work.  Which is good, honestly.

If I didn't miss my husband and want to be with him, that would not be a good thing in my opinion! Sometimes love is painful just because you always want something from your partner--more love, more understanding, more time, or sometimes the opposite--you have too much togetherness and just need some time apart to regain your sense of self and disconnect from the consuming idea of 'other'...

But mostly I really love my husband and never feel like I see him enough. I think I often see this as a weakness--I worry that I am too dependent on my husband. But I also realize that's the nature of love: you risk a lot of yourself when you love someone, when you're married or partnered to someone. You engage in a very deep kind of vulnerability that's really only matched by having a child.

When you decide to love someone you risk the pain of losing them and all the other details of what comes with that. But, I like that. And I like my husband. I believe it's extremely important to craft meaningful alone times as well. Appreciating yourself is an art. I definitely didn't do it well for a long time, and honestly I still need a lot of work in this area, but right now I am going to celebrate my love of love.

Love,
MM

A Career Focus Pull: Lots of Good Advice



Here's a pull I've had in draft for quite a while--maybe a few weeks? In any case, I've been enjoying working with the Dreams of Gaia Tarot.  This reading was about creative and career focus, and I thought the answer and insight given was pretty interesting.

Admittedly, I realize these meanings aren't the same necessarily as the traditional Rider-Waite (something I actually love, but sometimes I add both the meanings in for added measure) but here I did pull from somewhat traditional meanings--it's a hard habit to break, but I also gained some insight from looking at the card's images and descriptions.

First thing I noticed when looking at these cards is that three of the five cards depict strong female characters. I love that, as it gives a feminine bent to the reading. Looking at the cards individually:

7 of Fire: In this deck, the 7 of Fire shows a woman who is divining the future. I now see this as the oracle/tarot reader card. I think this really fits because one of the main creative services I provide is tarot readings. In fact, at present, I really am only offering tarot readings and small custom paintings over at my website. This may change at some point, however.

Key phrases from this card:

  • Only you know the answer
  • Look beyond the surface
  • Heed your intuition
  • Inexplicable coincidences

10 of Earth: Rather than a generational image of grandparents, their kids and children, this shows a solitary woman, which reminds me more of the 9 of Earth, the woman in the garden. But this woman really beckons to you, doesn't she? Of course the 10 of Earth always invokes a kind of richness and fruitfulness--as it's the highest number of the suit of earth. There's something sort of provocative (I don't necessarily mean sexually--I just mean sort of questioning or sassy--maybe chiding) in her expression, as if she's saying, 'Get a move on. Come with me, where things are good and you have what you need.'

Key phrases from this card:

  • A time of reward
  • Move through life with surety
  • Understand your place and purpose
  • Everything is coming together

5 of Fire: Two dudes fighting. It seems cheesy--almost like they're WWF wrestlers going at it in an arena. But it's all staged. In a career reading, which this is, I see the 5 of Fire as 'throwing in' to the ring of life. You can't know what will happen until you decide to compete--even if the whole thing is staged. It's healthy to put yourself out there.

Key phrases from this card:

  • Focus on your vision, not what others are doing
  • Avoid pack mentality behavior
  • Base your concerns in fact

4 of Fire: The reversed 4 of Fire shows up. This card, again, is very different from the traditional. It's someone shooting an arrow--which is a really good image in terms of having something to interpret. But it's upside-down. There's something lacking in the follow-through and method of this archer. That makes sense. I definitely tend to shoot myself in the foot as it were. The upright card recommends the need to focus. I see this in a couple ways. The reversal shows being completely out of whack with your desires--maybe I could benefit from a widening of my focus? Maybe I shouldn't pinpoint so tightly in on this one goal? My husband often tells me that I tend to think I can only do one or two things and I'm useless at everything else--but if you open up your eyes and see the other possibilities that life has to offer then you start to realize that you could be shooting arrows anywhere you want--or better yet--put down the bow and just go meet life up close.

Key phrases from this card:

  • Devote time to regular practice
  • Be willing and prepared
  • Establish a creative process
  • Creating impetus and momentum

8 of Earth: Again, this looks more like that lady in the 9 of Earth in a traditional tarot. It's another wonderful and affirming earth element card. I really like this. It's a very reassuring card, and I appreciate that. It recommends looking at your next big step, and making plans for the future in general, knowing that you can accomplish them.

Key phrases from this card:
  • Confidence in your future outcome
  • Money does not buy happiness
  • Do what you love, love what you do
  • Make plans for the future

So...that's it! I could go on and on but this is already way longer than my normal posts. Ha! I agree with the concepts in this reading regarding my life/career focus. I'll definitely refer back to it and see if I'm still really in touch with my personal goals.

Love,
MM

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

A Straightforward Reading About Career vs. Parenting


Last night I had (as my evening ritual) a deck of oracle cards that I use (and change out, just to add variety) for an evening reading and wind down period. What was on my mind is whether I want to make a more concerted effort in the realm of career and life path--or whether it's not a very good time. Without going into much detail about my daughter's health history, even though things are going dramatically better than they were 7-8 years ago, I still feel a lot of trepidation about going into the work force in any significant way. Especially given some rocky patches my daughter has had this past year whilst (even though I'm American I'm kind of digging the very British word whilst) going through puberty. And I realize and honor this stress in myself. Call it a kind of post-traumatic stress disorder, but also it's my own intuition telling me when the time is or isn't right to move forward in this area of personal goals.

Anyway. This is the trio of cards I received when thinking about this readiness or lack of readiness, as it were, to move forward. I have to say I was pretty floored by the answer. The Adult Children card came up first--and although my daughter is clearly not an adult (she's 11.5), she is adult-sized (taller than me, a size 9 shoe and developing into a young woman), and has displayed wisdom beyond her years despite obviously not having the emotional maturity of an adult. The card's description talks about this either being about adult children, a child beyond his/her years, or something about yourself as an adult child. But in any case, I feel this directly responds to my question about my daughter. The second card that came up was New Career--showing the advent of a 'boost' in interest in a new career direction and/or also just fresh energy being injected into a stale or stagnant career. Definitely true.

And just to bring it all home I pulled one more card about whether I should take action or not around this area, and the 'Take the Next Step Now' card came up, which again seemed very difficult to misinterpret. All in all the reading was very direct and literal. I find this to be true when I'm focused and sincere during a reading. If I'm flighty or don't care that much about the reading (which is never true when I'm reading for clients, but is often true when I'm impatiently reading for myself) it just doesn't go smoothly. If I care about it and I'm lending it my full attention, the readings seem to be extremely clear and helpful.

I just thought I'd share this with you all, as I find this happens frequently during readings, and sometimes I forget to share it with others. It's also great to record these things in a blog for future reference, when I need a reminder.

Much Love,
MM

Monday, June 26, 2017

New Neighbors Reading


Here's a quad of cards I pulled just now about what the situation with our neighbors-to-be might look like. We live next to a rental house, and in the 2.5 years that we've lived here (not very long), this is the second set of renters--and they are just now moving out after only having lived there 6 months. We didn't really know them--only waved to them occasionally, but I admit I am always nervous whenever new neighbors move in. I particularly liked the first set of renters who lived there when we first moved in--three low key, smart and thoughtful women. I missed them when they left! In any case, here is the basic run-down of the cards and/or my thoughts on them:

King of Pentacles: This methodical or earthy man makes me think this is describing the personality of one of the tenants that's moving in. I can't really imagine what else it could mean. But I'll think on it!
9 of Pentacles: Traditionally, the 9 of Pentacles is a woman with her own business--or a financially savvy woman. This is what I see in the 9 of Pentacles. Someone earthy and capable. But in this deck it is a bit different than the usual. In any case, this card does mention charity and generosity. They seem like fairly decent qualities to have in a neighbor.
4 of Swords: Speaking strictly 'from the book' the 4 of Swords often means respite and peace, but in this deck it has a much more rigid meaning--it's more about structure and routine. Just looking at the image here you can see this quality coming through. It almost has a 'military' feel to it.
2 of Swords: Interesting image, right? This card is about duality and polar opposites. Maybe it highlights differences--either between the tenants themselves or between us and them. But either way, differences can live in harmony, or that's hopefully the idea.

Haha, it's funny because looking at the images of the cards I almost get the sense that it's three guys and a girl, but that's fairly literal. I wouldn't necessarily say that's the case, but I won't rule it out. I actually have no idea who is moving in. I haven't seen them and I have no idea what to expect.

I'll do my best to update you guys on this situation.

Love,
MM

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Motivation Confirmation: Two Touchstones


I'm listening to the weekly Michael Neill show on HayHouse Radio, and the topic is motivation--basically, instead of thinking of ways to 'force' yourself to be motivated to do things, you instead 'uncover' what it is you already want to do. Because you want what you want and you don't want what you don't want. And it makes sense to me to work with what we want rather than fight upstream against what you we think we should do but don't really want. I think this is stellar advice.

So many times I've forced myself to go against the flow of my wanting, and it never ends well. Maybe, at first, it looks good and it's all polished and well thought out, but it's not authentic. It's fine and dandy...but it's not what we want. These two cards I pulled from the Dreams of Gaia Tarot represent the energy behind my true motivation--what I really want, what really pulls me. The flowing forward motion of the 8 of Wands--spontaneity and momentum. To me, the 8 of Wands is one of the best cards in the deck to represent momentum. The natural flow and quickness of this card is one that always makes me feel more alive.  And the honest energy of Integrity, though seemingly boring, is actually really freeing because it is us expressing the real us in the moment, without so many layers of overthinking and hesitation. It's like going down a slide and feeling swept up in the fun of it. I'm sharing some of the key phrases from both cards (see the box on the lower left side of the image) because I think they're perfect for this.

Much Love,
MM

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Eight of Fire: End of Delays?

Goofy photo. Do you like my bandage accessory? I picked some pretty colorful ones. :D
UPDATE: So, it turns out that a few hours after this happened I finally got the recovery information to get my phone unlocked. Turns out, according to my husband who has the date and time saved, that I was without the phone for a full month. Ugh! Anyway. It's nice to see this card was accurate. I got this card a few times in the past day or so.


So, my phone is still out of commission. Three plus weeks in. Yep. So, because my hubby is not home and I can't use his phone to take pics I am using my Photo Booth but the image isn't very clear. I apologize! In any case, this is the 8 of Wands, a card I've gotten a few times in a row recently. The caption for this card (on the card itself) says:

"Events moving at a fast pace. Delays are over. Many things happening at once."

I hope this pertains to my phone issue, which has been delayed for quite some time. I would LOVE for this week to be the week that the recovery for my phone is completed. Oy.

Of course, it can also means lots of e-mails, calls and texts (of course the latter two are impossible at the moment due to my phone being 'in recovery') and communications in general. Often, if I receive this card I hear something within one or two days maximum. I don't mess around a lot with timing and readings, but I would call this a 'fast' card...probably the fastest timing card in the deck. I remember a particular reading where I received this card, plus the ace of pentacles, and within an hour or two, I had a check to me in my mailbox.

One can hope!

Much Love,
MM

Friday, June 16, 2017

From My Bag of Forgotten Oracle Cards: The Shining Tribe Tarot

Ace of Birds, left and 4 of Stones, right
Greetings Dear Readers,

Digging through my closet to find a bag large enough to put my dad's Father's Day gift in, I found a bag of decks that I had put aside to gift/give away. Some of these I like OK but they aren't my favorite decks--I've somehow fallen out of favor or out of rhythm with them. Others I just really didn't like at all and tried to like them but couldn't force it. In any case, I emptied the bag and put the decks on the top shelf of the study closet so I could get a better look at the contents of this forgotten bag of oracles.

Amidst these discarded oracles is a deck, The Shining Tribe Tarot, that I have had for a number of years. I used to use it quite a bit, but for some reason I haven't been using it the past few years, and I found myself sorting it out into the 'donate' pile. But now I'm reconsidering this. There's something quietly profound about this deck and its primitive, colorful imagery. Rachel Pollock did a lovely job with the book and deck, really. Sometimes I'm in the mood for the style and substance of this deck and other times it doesn't feel right. That's the thing with oracle decks. You can be totally in love with a deck one year and be utterly sick of it by the next. But that's why I do try to cycle through my decks periodically, though I do have favorites.

Here are the basic divinatory meanings for the two cards I chose, though the longer descriptions given in the book are definitely worth a read:

Ace of Birds: Truth, wisdom, sadness, honesty. Looking into the mysteries of life and death. Intellectual rigor and courage. The soul in its search for meaning. 

4 of Stones: Stability, structure, security, including economic security. All of these do not control or stifle the person, but rather create opportunities. Good relationships. Discoveries, especially of wonder in simple things. A look into the past. 

That feels like a fairly balanced duo, doesn't it? A good blend of mind, body and spirit. Practical, but reaching out for something deeper, too. This is my two card focus for the present. The Ace of Birds (Swords) seems almost harsh when you read it, but it's nothing but personal truth and honesty. It's not looking to be harsh or mean in any way. It's just looking at current circumstances with an unbiased eye (as much as possible). This reminds me of the Power Path website's theme for June: Reality Check. A good read if you want to check it out.

Hugs,
MM

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Single Card Focus: Ace of Wands to Mitigate Boredom and Burnout


Feeling a kind of summer blahness, I decided to pull a single card focus, and I got the fresh and zingy energy of the Ace of Wands--a card of creative and new beginnings. As a creative person (which frankly everyone is) I particularly enjoy the idea of starting a creative project or otherwise sinking my teeth into some venture that will give me a fiery focus. I definitely do better when I have a creative, personal goal. I find myself feeling pretty bland when I don't create and start things. Pursuing things, no matter how small or seemingly significant, add up to a lot over a lifetime. We don't realize until they're not there how much they enhance our life. To quote Vonnegut:


“Nobody will stop you from creating. Do it tonight. Do it tomorrow. That is the way to make your soul grow – whether there is a market for it or not! The kick of creation is the act of creating, not anything that happens afterward. I would tell all of you watching this screen: Before you go to bed, write a four line poem. Make it as good as you can. Don’t show it to anybody. Put it where nobody will find it. And you will discover that you have your reward.”

Definitely a timely and important reminder from the tarot in the form of a single card draw!

Love,
MM

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Pre-Father's Day Musings: My Husband and Daughter Visit in the Cards


I pulled these four cards this evening just as a check in, mostly about my daughter, since I've had her in my mind a lot lately. I was pleased to see that her card (Daughter of Wands--the snake) came up as the first card. The second card is Judgement, and the Father of Swords (my husband's card) came up as the other court. The final card is the 2 of Cups. This made me think of the lovely bond that my husband and daughter have. I do find it helpful and supportive that my daughter has such a wonderful dad. That's something to think on the week before Father's Day.

Love,
MM

Unburdening Myself: Resting and Letting Go

Click here to see the full description of this card.
I didn't sleep much last night.

My mind might have been busy and swirling with all the things I'm overthinking and fearful of. I'm not even sure. I think it was somewhat subconscious. But the stress was there.

I had a dream that my blood pressure was 189/100 (I have a tendency to have blood pressure spikes when I'm stressed) and when I woke up I knew I had to do something about this. I hadn't shaken my stress by a long shot when I started to make breakfast for my daughter (pastured eggs, fennel and red cabbage salad and one slice of GF bread with butter) but after I mentioned some concern for my daughter (I won't go into it--I'm trying to make this short) after initially being annoyed she (surprisingly gently) suggested that I need to try to take more breaks and relax more. She said that me being worried too much about her and about other things was not helping, and she commented that I might like to sit in the sun room. She said something which I thought was funny,

"You know, I'm not too upset that you're stressed by I just thought I'd try to help." 

I was really sort of touched by this. I know that my daughter has good awareness of her self and others but sometimes I forget that when she's having issues or if I'm stuck in my own quagmire and can't find my way out. Of course, I know she is impacted by my stress and vice versa. I've just felt a lot of pressure to fix certain things lately (both external and internal) and that pressure feels like it's squarely on my shoulders (10 of Wands). Anyway. This card pull from The Artist's Inner Vision Tarot is a good reminder for me to return to my center and let go of the pressures of the world and what I think I should do. There's no way I am ever going to live up to all of them anyway, even if I feel like I MUST. It's an unrealistic expectation to begin with--and the best thing I can do is do what Pele suggested--try to let go of the worrying constantly and try to rest when I can.

Love,
MM

Monday, June 12, 2017

Mind Over Matter? Visualizing a Mental Victory

Greetings Fair Readers,

So I popped over to the online Artist's Inner Vision Tarot, and pulled this single card as a daily meditation. I received the 6 of Wands, a card of victory and optimism, something I honestly haven't felt too much lately.

Something I particularly liked about this card, besides the visual, is that it mentions the importance of believing in a better outcome or better option. It's helpful to remember this, even when we're especially grumpy about the state of things.

Once we get stuck in the same firing of mental pathways and in the same emotional and even spiritual ruts (Hideous Life Cycle™) we start to drain all energy or desire for things to change. I can see many examples of things in my life that were stuck for a long time in a place where I didn't want them to be. Half the battle was fighting against what was--and the other half was not knowing if anything better was possible. But I do think it was, even if these things don't always happen in the time frame that we would like. We want everything faster.

In any case, I appreciated the focus and the reminder, even while I might soon forget it. That's why I rely on tools like the tarot--it can be a visual, verbal and intuitive reminder that we always have things to work on, but also things to look forward to, regardless of whether we can see them in the moment.

Love,
MM

Saturday, June 10, 2017

Tattered Apple: Still Resolving Phone Issues


A little while back I posted about my phone issues. I had a botched OS update on my phone and I got locked out of my AppleID somehow, and my phone has been in 'recovery' for 2.5 weeks now. UGH. So, I haven't had a phone for that long. I admit that it's just this sort of thing that makes me seriously consider returning to a cheap flip phone and doing away with the whole smart phone thing. I realize so much time and energy gets put into phones. This is something I've been thinking for a long time now but it has gotten more prevalent year after year. We're turning into zombies when it comes to technology! But I admit I'd like to have a working phone where people can contact me. I've already missed a message from a tarot client because my phone is locked out.

Calling Apple (4 times and approx 4.5 hours total) has not resulted in a fix, despite some fancy tricks we tried. And we may have even worsened or slowed down the problem. I think the cards here sort of show that--Mountain shows slow progress, something that takes a long time to resolve, as well as blockages.  The combo of Mountain and Mice (from the Learn Lenormand site) makes sense:

Mice + mountain (21): giving up, long-term worry, stressful obstacles, frustration


It shows blockages as well. The Mice card shows the angst around this--the annoyance and worry. But the third card, Bouquet, gives me hope that this will eventually be resolved. We were told to leave it alone because there's really nothing you can do but wait for the mysterious and utterly annoying recovery process to complete.

I'll let you know if this ever gets resolved!
Love,
MM

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Tea Leaf Fortune Cards: Crown


All I can say is: I hope this is honor and respect, and not the dental type of crown. Haha!

Love,
MM

Monday, June 5, 2017

Horse Camp Success


Today was the first day of a three day horse day camp. My daughter loved it! These are some cards I pulled this afternoon. I think they reflect the good feelings and outlook of this camp. My daughter is really, really into horses lately--though she has always liked them. We thought a summer activity would be great for her. Last year she did a few different activities and they were OK but she wasn't really super excited about them. I'm glad to see her more keenly interested in something rather than just thinking something is just alright.

Love,
MM

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Wordless Wednesday: Repeat Card


An Illuminating Quad: Phone Fiasco


I decided to pull out my newly purchased Illuminated Tarot, and pull a quad of cards regarding my current phone fiasco! My iPhone has been locked out of its Apple ID, and having trouble-shooted the heck out of this thing I am still on the prolonged waiting end of things. It's been over a week now and Apple is still giving me the run-around, saying it could take as few as three days and as many as a month to get my account accessible again. Ugh. Security protocols!

So, I decided to pull four cards about it, to see whether any resolution was forthcoming. Overall, the reading was fairly encouraging, I suppose. The 2 of Diamonds shows up first. In this deck, this card combines something of the energy of the High Priestess with the 2 of Pentacles. It shows something being juggled. Maybe they are trying to figure it out? I hope that means they're busy with a solution. The next card to follow was the 9 of Clubs, a fairly happy card indicating clarity and success, directly correlating to the Sun card in tarot. The third card is the 8 of Spades, similar to Justice, again perhaps showing something being worked out. It kinda made me think, 'red tape' if you get my drift. The final card in the spread is the 10 of Hearts, which corresponds to the Wheel of Fortune. The only description given in the book was 'Plans set in motion'...so at least that shows movement of some kind.

I'll try to update this reading when I hear more!

Love,
MM

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Newly Acquired: The Illuminated Tarot




Today I was feeling kinda blah and in need of a tarot-related pick-me-up. To that end,  I walked into the local Barnes & Noble book sellers with $20 and the intention to find a deck under $20 that looked interesting to me. If I didn't see anything that interesting I wasn't going to spring for anything.

Happily, I was not disappointed when I came across Caitlin Keegan's Illuminated Tarot. What a cool hybrid tarot/playing card deck! The box is lovely, the design is classic, the colors gorgeous. Even the card stock is interesting, fairly thick with a semi-gloss corrugated look. The concept is also really neat, although I admit that, at first, I found it confusing to read with, because I was still seeing it through the lens of a traditional tarot deck. Once I adjusted my 'Tarot Vision™' I managed to really enjoy this deck. It may take a while to get to know the meanings and associations with the major/minor cards, but I think it will be worth it.

I think I may use this deck exclusively for a while---perhaps for the entire month of June, or longer if I find it a meaningful pursuit. I've noted my readings with specific decks are more accurate and easier/faster to read when I've been using a particular deck exclusively/over consecutive days.

My phone is having issues (it may take a few days to fix) and so I had to use my husband's old iPod to take these photos, then make an awkward collage with them. Ha. But anyway.

To see more images from the deck, see this video intro

Love,
MM

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Repeat Cards in App Readings


I've gotten a number of tarot and oracle apps for my phone, since it's a fun 'fidget' thing to use for a quick reading, or if I don't happen to have a physical deck on me at the time. One thing I like about tarot and oracle apps is that it is easy to get 'repeat' cards and messages, without having to shuffle cards back into the deck. And although I love these apps and there are so many different and beautiful styles available, sometimes a simple app, such as this Classic 1910 Tarot App, is just perfect.

This reading that you see here is a prime example of this repeat card phenomenon. The reading is about my daughter and her school experience, and I was gratified to see her significator card come up as the first card (Page of Wands) and then again later in the reading. The Strength card also featured twice. And I felt confident that the reading was addressing my question because my daughter's card was in the reading (twice) and the second card is the Page of Pentacles, a card I associate with schooling.

Anyway, I just thought I would share this with you all, as I'm sure many other people have had this repeat card experience with apps.

Much Love,
MM

Monday, April 17, 2017

Color-Fool Advice

Hello Folks,

I received this card from the Shadowscapes Tarot a week or two ago. I'm just now getting around to posting it. This is a very stylized filter, but I liked the colors and shapes in it, even though you probably can't tell what it is unless you're familiar with the deck.

It's been a rough past week with my grandma dying and other things, but I find myself trying to embody the energy of the Fool card. Trusting, opening, spreading out and moving forward...not doing what is often the instinct when something stressful happens...which is to contract.

I like this quote about the Fool from SpiritualGuidanceTarot.com:

At this time; you benefit by pouring all your energy into the task at hand. If you get too caught up in wonder/worry over the future or spend too much time looking back at the past, you stop moving.
You can only discover how much you are capable of if you are willing to make the most of the circumstances you find yourself in presently and learn from them as you go. This is a card of embracing fresh starts and new beginnings and that happens by living fully, wholly in the present.

I know that I get in damage control mode when I feel stressed, but once I can step back from that, given time and self-care, I am more able to put things in perspective and not feel so battered by the sometimes harsh energies of life.

Love,
MM

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Career Concerns Reading, But No Big Dealio


A month or so ago I purchased the After Tarot, a cheeky deck based on the traditional Rider-Waite-Smith, but with one very intriguing change: it's what happens a moment after the scene in the card. What a fun idea! In any case, I do love this deck, and it does add a different dimension to readings. It feels forward-thinking in a way. So...

A week or so ago I pulled this trio of cards regarding my path/career focus (hint: there isn't much of one right now, unless you count caretaking and mothering--which I actually do) but when I was pulling these cards my thoughts were more about my creative focus and not about the hard and sometimes boring work of cooking, cleaning and caretaking. In any case, I thought this was a funny and candid response from the deck.

My feelings about work and career are a bit prickly...I don't feel like I'm doing enough. I feel a bit wounded in that area--like I've been burned before and don't want to go there (3 of Swords), and I feel anxious and insecure (9 of Swords) and to top it off I feel financially nervous and insecure (5 of Pentacles) and not very good at making money.

But despite all this, I am not too bothered by this reading. It's just an accurate reflection of my thoughts on this topic--thoughts that can change any moment. For instance, looking at it now, I don't really feel badly about it at all. I can understand my feelings and not be ruled by them. I understand I'm feeling my negative thinking in the moment. But more than that--I also feel the thread of a deeper purpose flowing through my life moment to moment. I know that sounds weird and esoteric, but there's something impalpable that we can't define or put in a resume about all of our lives. The depth and importance, but also the lightness of it.

This is all temporary, and whether I make money now or not, or whether I am an artist or a banker it doesn't really matter. But what matters is living moment to moment in an inspired way, being true to myself even when I don't always know what that means. I'm creating my life in each second, and I can go back to the drawing board, or I can continue in whatever way I want. I can let things bother the crap out of me or I can look elsewhere.

I realize now more than ever (maybe seeing my elderly grandmother who has lost most of her memory has forced this perspective) that we often get stuck in ruts and take things way too seriously. Sometimes the most important work really is just being here now, both for ourselves and others.

Love,
MM

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Sinus Reading Using the Tea Leaf Fortune Cards


The other day I was having a sinus flare-up, likely due to poor food choices and tiredness. I had been feeling it for a couple of days and was fed up. I decided to pull a couple of cards about it and here is what I got. Immediately with the Teapot card I thought of using the neti pot, something that I had been doing occasionally but had stepped up in regularity around when I started to feel the flare up. And the second card, Eye, made me think to trust my instincts on it. And I did. Using a combination of diet tweaking, rest, neti pot and herbal supplements, I managed to get over my sinus flare up shortly after this reading. All in all a very tidy reading!

Love,
MM

Friday, March 31, 2017

My Daughter's Journey: Growing Pains, Stability and Moving Onward


I had my cards out to do an e-mail reading for a friend and before I did the reading I pulled a quad of cards for myself, and I'm glad I did. Sometimes if a reader has a lot on their mind or otherwise has energies that might interfere with the reading, it's not a bad idea to 'clear the deck' by doing a quick reading for yourself. It's almost like visual journaling to clear your head before proceeding.

My daughter, fiery volcano that she is, can be very moody at times. I do a lot to support her nutritionally and emotionally, but there are a lot of times where it never seems like enough (I'm sure all of you parents can relate to the parent guilt involved in this thought process), so I like to check in periodically to give myself a little boost of encouragement.

This morning, after my daughter had been in a very positive and stable mood for most of the month, which I was very happy about, had a bad morning and the school called me. My daughter had requested that she go home. She seems a lot better now and said she was just relieved to be home. She didn't like the pranking and loudness of the day in class today and I think she just wanted some quiet time. I remember feeling like that a lot as a kid. I was very sensitive to other people and noises (on many levels). It took a while to learn to shield myself emotionally and otherwise, from the intensity of life here on earth, but I think every year I've gotten better, and I can only hope the same (hopefully better) for my daughter.

So, I see a lot of this reflected in this four card reading here. The Daughter of Wands is my daughter's card, and the Ace of Pentacles as well as the Ten of Pentacles feels like stability and groundedness. I think sometimes we all just want to feel at home, literally or otherwise. I think the World points to her growing and moving forward. I know I always see this card as an opportunity to recognize that we're always moving and growing and evolving toward the next phases of our lives. Since it's the last card in the major arcana it shows a readiness to move forward. I am truly glad to see my daughter growing and changing more and more every year.

As parents we hold the space for our children. We can't shield them from everything. We can provide help, support and even protection when needed, but we can't (and shouldn't) make them think they can't have difficult experiences. These are the things that teach them about themselves. But they're also the hardest for parents to allow.

Love,
MM

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Wordless Wednesday: Great Happiness


Ace of Pentacles Strikes Twice

This probably would've been more effective had I left the Ace of Pentacles card image in the mini clipboard (on left)

Last night I decided I should play with my neglected Housewives Tarot. I pulled a card and it was the Ace of Pentacles. This made me smile because, not an hour before, I had just changed the card on my mantle (the mini clipboard that displays my Albano-Waite mini pulls) because it had been, for the longest time, showing the Ace of Pentacles. It's been up there a couple of weeks, maybe? I think this decision was motivated by greed. Maybe I thought I could visualize crap tons of money coming in. So I decided to put a new card up there, which happened to be the 6 of Wands (see the image). But when the Ace of Pentacles decided to revisit me I opted to make note of it here. Haha.

Just a silly little anecdote for you all.

Love,
MM